Big Ugly Feelings Today

The house goes on the market today. Yea and ugh. Showings are annoying -- last minute showings even more so and there are usually a number of those too. Means to an end. I had hoped we could put it on the market after we moved, but the realtor thinks it will sell better furnished. 

Last night (right before bed) there was a big discourse about the upcoming wedding. I won't go into details because this is public, but it's upsetting to see my sons so upset with each other. I understand both sides. This is for them to work out, but I also expressed my opinion when it was asked. How to straddle the conflict is hard. Life coaching is coming in handy helping my perspective and reaction and response. 

It looks like the bookclub field trip is on for tonight. I'm a little concerned about the freeze later, but I expect the roads will be mostly dry by tonight. There's a small possibility this won't happen if the gardens don't open or the roads are iffy. Of course, one of the 3 of us who came up with this plan messaged she isn't going -- no explanation. We agreed months ago to buy the tickets. She was ghosting the text thread for the last week. Why are people like this? Why ghost? She might have a perfectly good reason, but her lack of explanation makes it suspect. When I posted an update, 2 more people said they were going so looks like we'll have a group after all. 

Here's the problem -- as of late yesterday afternoon it was just the 3 of us going. Tickets are pricey too. She backs out at the last minute, that leaves 2 of us to hold the commitment or someone ends up going by themselves or wasting the money. That's not fair. Even if she didn't want to offer an explanation, she could have given a heads up. I expect the ghosting meant she already knew she wasn't going. Life happens, but you can be as considerate as you can when it does. 

I painted a couple of rocks yesterday. I saw the banana one online -- it's funny.

I need a good workout and meditation this morning. Feelings are all big and ugly today. Hopefully, that and a fun night out for garden lights helps. My poor toes with the cold temps though. I'll wear my warmest boots and socks. 

I need a good regroup which is ironic because these snow days were going to be my regroup. I got the physical regroup, but now I need a mental regroup. Life is life is life -- and it's prickly. Good lord. 

Later gators.