Feelings Everywhere

Lots of flip-flop and lots of feelings. 

First up, ran Duke yesterday morning. Cut the distance by a mile, but upped the speed. It felt really good. Hiked the afternoon with a friend for a moderate 5 miles in 65 degree sunshine -- what a difference a week makes in the weather. We grabbed a meal after and sat outside. Both felt so good. Nice weather, woods, friendship, conversation, connection. Some good feelings all around.

I wrote into coaching with a request to help me see another perspective on the cancel friend and it was accepted. Wednesday -- oh boy. Feelings? Yep, a little nervous (odd) but feeling supported in working through my strong reaction.

Picked up more goodies from Marketplace. Feelings? Glad to get a bargain and reuse rather than buy new. I'm tweaking my thrifting options and it's fun.

The Buddhist Monk meditation circled back again. My friend's friend can't go and she emailed the event and they said I could take her spot. I'm a bit hesitant about germs, but I'll wear a mask (pictures show a number of people in masks). It's at night, rain forecasted, and possible germs, but I'm doing it anyway. It checks too many other boxes. Feelings? Proud of myself for saying 'yes' and choosing the bigger life. Happy that I have this new connection with someone too.

Right as I was going to bed, more wedding drama. Feelings? Hurt, insulted. Since the wedding is a one-off, I'm choosing to let it go (after I overthink, over-process, of course). Kids are stressed and that's where this is coming from -- I spoke up, but I didn't take it further. The last thing I want is this wedding to become a source of resentment and separation. It is not easy.

Since I ran and hiked yesterday, the hike is ON for this morning. You're welcome, fellow hikers. My legs feel good so I expect I'm okay to hike the elevation. I've done this route many times. Taking the perspective that this is a step toward becoming a stronger hiker. The hike is a level up and I'm hiking with some ladies I really enjoy. Checks that box too.

Racing to the shower to head to the new house to meet the builder -- bookshelves are starting. Hubby and I are going to a late lunch too. Then home and out the door for meditation and a late night by my standards. 

A good variety day ahead. I expect a wide spectrum of feelings again. Maybe this is a byproduct of a full life. The trick is to give equal airtime to the good feelings. You know my mind loves a good upset to replay forever and there's no shortage right now.

Hope you have a good day. Later gators.

Used Car :)

I'm having a marketplace moment. Grabbing a couple more things today and 2 things pending. Yesterday I picked up a vintage children's stool that's perfect for a plant stand (didn't take picture yet) and then a car :)

So many toddler toy options. Getting a shopping cart and a truck today. I also got a carseat mirror that I needed for my car. I also have eyes on stools -- more on that later if it works out. 

Today is a bit of a hiccup. It's a saga in my mind over the usual complaints. Friend who cancels, canceled lunch today. I turned down other plans, reserved that time against add-on house things (so they were squeezed into other days), and was set to go. Her text had no apology, just "I'm needed to babysit." I texted back in a more direct way than I usually do. I let her know my situation and feelings. She finally apologized with a few more details. Everyone, including the sitter is sick. So I canceled dinner plans at their house on Saturday. We have our grandson's birthday next week -- out of town family and I don't want to get sick. 

I needed to be truthful and I'm really disappointed -- neither feels great. I'm losing this friend to her co-dependent relationship with her husband and daughter (which she readily admits). I know I need to redefine the frequency of our relationship and how I approach plans, but I'm at a loss. She is regularly unreliable and that doesn't work for me. Dinner is different than us getting together. Her husband isn't fun to be around and it impedes our time together (we just talk about him and his interests). In this case, I'm not taking a chance on getting sick or a last minute cancelation. It's all disappointing. 

We probably need to have a discussion about it at some point soon. I'll use the technique of "we have a problem coordinating what works for both of us -- what can we do to work around it?" Make it a joint solution. She will always cancel plans if her daughter says 'jump' so how do we work around that in a way that respects my time too? Last minute options? Evening? Weekends? 

Friendships are hard. Friendships are complicated. I need to consider myself too -- and I haven't done that most of my life. Speaking up feels so important these days and I still am practicing language to do it fairly. I don't want to overcorrect in a way that damages a friendship.

Do you want to hear my hiking saga too? Yes, same old thing. Possible rain and storms tomorrow. Decision on the hike will happen this afternoon. It's leaning toward cancel so I'm running Duke this morning and taking a short hike with a friend this afternoon. If the hike is on, it'll be a hard leg push but if it cancels, I'll be glad I didn't take a rest day. Damn weather again!

I suppose all this is a lesson for me. I see the lesson, but the solution is harder. Accept what is. Accept what happens. Stop trying so hard. Stop gripping so hard on the outcome. 

Oh, and forest fire in Asheville spurred on by winds and flood debris. Wonder if my trip is okay for Monday. Honest to god -- so many things right now. 

On that stress inducing rant, time to settle into meditation.

BTW, I was invited to a monk meditation Friday evening, but the class is full. Keeping my eyes open for another chance. This is the 2nd time this has come across my radar. Probably won't pursue it until after the wedding because breathing in a room full of people for 90 minutes screams "let's get sick" but I'm very interested. I was on the fence about going on Friday because of wanting to stay healthy for the birthday party.

Have a good Thursday. Later gators.

Meh Walk, Fantastic Lunch

The walk was just okay. The best part was the solo bit I did before everyone came -- 4 miles. Then I did an extra mile with my friend. The 7 miles promised with the group was 4.5 -- just as I expected. Adding it all up, I got enough to make the walk worthwhile, but it was no hike. It's an option if the weather is iffy or something, but otherwise it's just a walk, on a dirt road, with lots of car traffic. 

The texts blew up again in the morning. Questions, problems, etc. Why is it so complicated?!?!?

But, lunch was so much fun. I had a great time. I wish this was a lunch group -- eliminate the drama of the reluctant hikers. Maybe it's growing pains and it'll get better as we organize and the weather improves. My availability in February is really low so I won't see everyone for a few weeks. It might also get better as we start repeating hikes and the group gets used to locations (parking, bathrooms, travel time, etc).

Looks like the hike on Friday is going to get rained out. I'm going to have to make a decision for Thursday,  hike or run. I probably can't do both days back-to-back because the hike on Friday is hard ... or maybe I can. Golly, I love uncertainty lol. I have the damnedest luck with higher level hikes with the hiking club. Can't get on one to save my soul and I need them to qualify for the hikes I'd like to do.

Anyway ... up early for a 7 o'clock gyn appointment. Good news is there shouldn't be a wait. The afternoon is driving around town to pick up FB marketplace items. Stay tuned :)

Best get moving for this early appointment. Have a good day. Later gators.

Ottoman

Good morning. 

This Tuesday hiking group likes to make hiking so very extraordinarily complicated. All day of text messages to land on a walk (not a hike) on a gravel road (with car traffic) and no bathrooms for miles. Why? I really have no idea. There are umpteen billion choices of hikes and we end up here. The hike's been planned for 2 weeks and suddenly, nope. It's going to be beautiful weather and we're on a gravel road. I'm hiking a lot this week so I'm downgrading to a walk, but I was close to backing out and going on a solo hike -- where hiking lives, IN THE WOODS.

Ottoman looks good. I ordered pillows for the chairs to tie in the green. I tossed a green pillow on to see if it works. Hopefully, the pillows I ordered have enough green to balance. The sofa across the room has the green pillow and a green blanket. Also, a few plants so green is scattered around the room.

I got a handmade lampshade from Etsy for an old lamp I thrifted. I like the contrast of patterns. The gold accents on the lamp work with the gold on the shade so I think the mix-match works.

I've been searching FB marketplace for items for the new house and keep striking out. People are leaving listings up well after they've sold. One post is for a $20 plant stand and the response was "I'm in talks with someone." What does that mean? Over $20?? I'll keep trying. I'm bummed about the plant stand -- it was a good price. Looking for counter stools and rugs too. Our new island needs 4 chairs and we only have 3 -- no longer available at retailer so I need to start over.

Total social calendar today. Hike, lunch, movie night with hubby. As usual, I need to remember to enjoy it and not be in my head about this and that. 

Hope you have a good day. Later gators.

Regular Monday

Today is a regular Monday and I'm here for it. A couple of bigger errands -- ottoman pickup (yea) and ordering cookies for the rehearsal. UPDATE: just looked up bakery and they're closed on Mondays -- so ONE bigger errand lol.

The hike was good yesterday. A bit over 9 miles and I was asked to lead the final mile (long story). That was a little fun too. I'd love to be a hike leader if it weren't for the behind the scenes BS that the hike leaders deal with regularly (complaints and such). That said, hike leading MIGHT be in my future. No harm in trying. I've been asked several times (although I think a lot of people get asked) and each time it seems a little more interesting. Taking a turn dealing with Joe Public. Anyway ... we celebrated the Chinese New Year with candy from Chinatown for good luck -- I'm saving it to share with the Tuesday hike group. The hike leader is a lot of fun.

I DNF another book. Mystery written in the 1940s -- it couldn't hold my attention. I'm not sure if this issue is me or my book selection. I get about halfway and totally lose interest in way too many books lately. I have a library book for pick up today and then I'm going to take a little reading fast (or a dramatic slowdown). Cleanse my reading palette a bit -- and by a bit, I mean a week. Heading to Asheville next week and I have my teahouse books ready (two super short books). Stay tuned. I'm excited for both.

This was one of the roses from the spa shower -- Trader Joe's. It's stunning. 

This week feels balanced. Not too busy. Social stuff. Hiking. Some work. Maybe add a bit of creative (crafty) in the mix to round it out -- Valentine's inclusion rocks?? Weather is back to seasonal temps which makes morning hiking a lot easier. A bit of recovery before things ramp up again. 

Hope you are set for a good week. Later gators.

Bridal Shower Success

The last 2 days were really good. 

I'm drained but worth it a 100 times over. Gathering as a family is such a touchpoint of connection and I felt it this weekend. I hope my DIL did too.

That said, hosting doesn't come without work and lots of stimulation -- hence the drained. Active recovery in the woods this afternoon. Few solo miles and then the group hike. It's a celebration of the Chinese New Year.

Because of bots, etc, I won't post people pictures, but here's my lunch. Vegan breakfast platter -- it had so much flavor (I had this before) and couldn't resist it again.

My sister brought me this gift for the garden -- I love it so much!!

Bit by bit my "busy" is getting finished. I'm doing a fair to good job of remembering to enjoy it and not just check it off a list. Still a hefty amount ahead, but keeping my things in the mix is helping it feel life "life" not a "time to get through."  Hiking, time with friends, crafting, meditation, etc.

Not long ago, my rest after this weekend would've been slugging on the sofa watching TV and snacking. Planning the hike to recover in a different way -- something that actually restores me is the kind of decision I want to make more. Makes the "boat move faster."

Okay -- I actually have a full morning before company wakes up so I'll end this here. Have a good day. Later gators.

New Journal and a New Hiking Shirt

Good morning.

The journal class was much easier. The instructor pre-cut the paper (measuring and cutting was the most time consuming step). Lots of steps, but easy. I finished decorating it at home because I didn't like the choices, but I was finished in an hour. Pictures will load backwards ...

Also got a new hiking shirt -- she's my hero for staying home and making her own decision. So many lessons and inspiration to take from her life, her backbone, her integrity. Debuting this one on the Sunday hike.

The shower weekend is here. Out of town peeps arrived yesterday and the final group this afternoon. I'm doing the table flowers this morning and then I'm all set. I don't feel as excited as I expected -- probably will once my family arrives this afternoon. That said, I don't feel worried or dread (because of hosting) either. 

The only hiccup is the house of the market and the prep needed before I can leave for the day. We lowered the price yesterday -- I'm not thrilled with this realtor team for a few reasons. One is that I said we shouldn't start that high but they argued heavily. Also, they keep flopping around on strategy and advice. The house has been on the market for 2 weeks -- during which we had 2 storms, bitter temperatures, holiday, and an awful change in government. 4 showings, 1 second showing. Doesn't seem horrible to me, but suddenly they're in a panic over the price. Hello. 

I have a packed morning so I can get to Trader Joe's for flower selection when they open. Best get moving. Later gators.

Short Hello

I found out the ice storm that completely missed us (not even rain), hit the spa. Eek. Hopefully, they're open by Saturday without any hiccups. Temps are going above freezing, but dipping really low overnight. We still have a few days -- thank the lord and fingers crossed.

I have a garden journal class today. I took the class last year and used the journal to log garden details and information -- very handy to keep track of everything. It's time consuming to make though -- last year it was 3 hours and I had to finish it at home. This year is a day class so not as rushed and maybe a little easier since it's my second time. We use old books, remove the pages, sew in new ones that we cut to fit the book and then decorate the cover (this I'll do at home because I have lots of scraps of things saved for journal making).

Grocery shopping and that's all for today. My sister and niece arrive tomorrow and the shower weekend begins. 

I am so grateful to have my energy up again. 

Short and sweet this morning. I'll take pictures of the class today. Have a good day. Later gators.

Here's What's New

How about a few fun things.

I finished this last night. Nordic noir -- good translation, good crime plot, and clever ending.

Proposed this read to my bookclub. I read it years ago and found it inspiring and actionable. Keeping this bookclub going is on my 25 for 2025 list. Why? I like this group and it's a good reminder to me to put energy into what I want -- easy to check out since there's little collaboration, but it's worth a shot. 

Lunch with my DIL's mother today. It's cold, but the snow went just south (by about 20 miles). Should be fine to get out today.

Realtor believes weather is a factor in slow showings. School is closed for a few days this week again (bus stop is too cold for southerners). I hope she's right.

I'm meeting with the builder next week or so to plan bookshelves. So fun :) My own space with an entire wall of built in bookshelves is an office dream come true. 

I started a free trial of a meditation app called The Way -- about 9 days of the 30 free. Tim Ferris is a user and investor. It's $12/month if I decide to continue. It follows a path so you don't get to choose what you listen to, but you can time it from 10-30 minutes. I like it and it's getting easier to slip into meditation mode each time. Experimenting with tools. It doesn't replace my usual post-workout meditation -- totally different kind of meditation, but I imagine I can incorporate it into this practice too. I expect to keep going for another month and see where it leads. 

My Oura ring charger went kaput and I emailed customer service. They sent a shiny, refurbished ring and charger at no cost. They're phasing out the model I use so I guess they didn't mind giving me one. I only needed the charger, but it's nice to have a shiny ring again. Learning curve to get it changed in the app, but I figured it out. Trying not to be "that old person" who can't do these kind of things. I'm clumsy, but I'm doing it. Also, a reminder to ask for what you want. Sometimes the answer is 'yes' and sometimes it's 'yes' and even more. 

That's all from here today. Hope you are staying warm. Later gators.

Damn.

My god -- help us all. We knew what was coming but to see it on display is horrifying. I have no idea what will come of this country.

Texted all day with friends -- supporting each other. That's a little spark of good that comes of this. 

No showings yesterday. Still plugging along. We have a tech coming to do maintenance on our hot water heater -- super early. Dips right into my morning. Hurry up and rush, then nothing timely the rest of the day. Add that to the end of our democracy, and I'm not a happy camper this morning.

I did get back to some rock painting and that always feels good.

Something relaxing about
lots of little color blobs.

I also cleaned my toilets.

Been using him since 2017

I'll leave it on that note today. Later gators.

Monday

It seems like it's been a steady stream of a holiday or weather since Christmas week. Holiday today, possible weather tomorrow. Not easy to get into a rhythm this January. 

I had a good hike yesterday. Going early to hike ahead works magic for these shorter hikes. I had a total of just over 9 miles -- fast. Not big elevation, but all 9 miles were cooking. It felt good. There's a hike on Wednesday that's a push (11 miles fast), but the temps are staying near freezing. I think that's asking for a problem with my toes so I'm going to pass.

We're meeting the kids for lunch today. We'll take 2 cars in case we have a showing and need to get the dogs out. Hubby's been managing the showing schedule so I told him I'd be the one to leave. Fingers crossed it times okay because I'd like to spend time with the baby. We had another showing yesterday -- good responses, no offers. House "just misses" on something for each family.

Otherwise, today is a relatively chill day. Maybe a little crafting in the afternoon?? I have 2 projects that I'd like to play around with for fun. I also have the final touches on the shower gift bags. I was waiting to open the candies so they stay fresh.

Short and sweet today. I haven't planned out the week yet and I need to remember we have company staying here for the weekend. For some reason my mind thinks the shower is the following week. It's going to add another layer to the house being on the market. The week feels extra short with the holiday today.

Hope you're set for a good week. It's a horrible week for the country. I'm trying very hard to stay away from the news. Stunts and stupidity -- all designed to give power to one person at the expense of everyone else. Anyway ... 

Later gators.

Sunday Ramblings

It's seems I'm on a spinning recalibration loop with my attitude and mood. As I said before, I'm just going with it because I can't seem to stop it. I'll be going along fine and dandy and, bam, I'm suddenly terrified we just blew up our lives on a whim. Low key panic attack. Couple of breaths and I remember a random reason I want this and then I'm super delighted for a couple of minutes. I'm dizzily running this circle all day. I've been awake for an hour and I've run the circle no less than 10 times. 

It's awesome.

It's horrible.

It's fine.

I got through the ugly, pesky chores yesterday and that feels good. One more to go today. 

I'm looking forward to the hike this afternoon. I'm really looking forward to the solo hike before -- solitude with the trees does magic. The hike that was canceled yesterday was moved to February -- registration opened 30 minutes ago and it's already full. I'm glad I jumped on again -- I debated until I saw the rapidly growing list. Wow -- people up early to get on this hike. Or it's early people who like to hike. Hmmm.

Atlanta is possibly back to snow on Tuesday -- can't make up her mind. It was a smart decision to postpone Asheville. I want a good trip -- I need to feel grounded in the way Asheville does for me. I'm sad to see the destruction, but I still think she'll still deliver on the feels and the chai (of course).

I'm trying to enjoy the process of everything -- because there's a lot of fun stuff right now, but I'll admit, I'm also glad when something is finished. As much as I'm trying to keep ME on the calendar, some things are slipping a little. I haven't had the mental space to craft and I miss it. I'd like to thrift stuff for the house and wedding, but that takes a lot of hours and time in germy public. Not a great idea ahead of all the wedding things. It's a complicated balance of things. 

All this to say I'll be glad to have the shower finished. I know it'll be a good day, but right now, it feels like a damper. Specifically trying to minimize exposure to germs -- the week feels constricted and a little bit ominous because of it. Over reaction -- yep. That's why I need to remind myself to enjoy this too. My default isn't fun.

I know none of this is major or really a problem. I've said before, it's taken me my lifetime to put myself into the mix and live in a way that feels like my choosing. It's an unsettling feeling to be pulled away. I don't have my cup full yet. Managing that pull is still a learning process because life will always pull. I'm exploring ways to hold both.

Morning ramblings. Thanks for indulging me. 

Have a good Sunday, stay warm. Later gators.

Canceled

Hike was maybe, hike was off, then on, then off. Thankfully, I looked one last time before bed to see he canceled. I was surprised when it was on (given the rain), but it was ultimately the ice on the trails that forced the cancel. And this one was deep in the mountains with no cell reception -- could have been dicy. I was bummed when it was back on (I mentally checked out) and then disappointed when it was canceled (I had pumped myself up for it again). Honest to god -- no pleasing me.

We had 2 showings and one second showing yesterday. One showing was a realtor and his wife just beginning their search. Haven't heard from the other who came back a second time, but lack of response probably means they aren't interested. Nothing scheduled for the remainder of the long weekend so far and that's disappointing. I think weather is factor. Rain and then very cold temperatures. 

I have volunteer work and wedding details to finish today. I'm a bit "rushed" this morning so we can be ready if we get a showing. It's a gloomy, rainy day and GA doesn't like to go out in this kind of weather. I don't expect any showings, but we need to be ready.

A new Trader Joe's opened a little closer to us. I grabbed flowers to test for the shower next weekend. I have to purchase the flowers a day or two early and I wanted to make sure they lasted. My DIL's favorite flower is a rose and those can be less fresh from a grocery store. So far, so good. I'll see what's available the day I need them. I'm planning Gerber daisies and roses.

Sampling the little vases
for the table. Everyone
takes one home.

Leftovers look nice for
the showings.

Life seems up, down, sideways right now and my mood is following suit. I'm chill, stressed, apathetic -- all in the span of a few hours. I've thrown in the towel trying to influence my mood. Whatever. It'll change shortly. Continue doing the things I know work for me and march on. Overall, I'm giving myself positive marks. No meltdowns so far.

I'm canceling the trip to Asheville tomorrow. The weather is EXTREME cold for the next few days and my toes won't be able to handle it. I'm trying to keep them healthy enough to continue hiking for the winter. I'm disappointed because I miss Asheville and relieved to have extra time at home and guilty to cancel on my sister and worried I'll never get there. See?!? Twenty emotions in one decision. Crazy mind.

I joined a Sunday hike and I might go early to get extra miles. It's a local trail and ice has melted at the lower elevations. I know time in the woods will do me good. The afternoon time usually means warmer temps, but a cold front is coming through and a 10 degree drop from morning to the time of the hike. See, hiking gods aren't helping me this season. Guess I'm proving my dedication to hiking or my stupidity to go with the flow.

That's all from here. I'll feel better when I get a list of annoying things fixed today. Billing problems, electronic issues, order issues, etc. Lots of little pesky stuff hanging around. Sometimes the best way to feel better is to change circumstances rather than work on mindset around it. Once these things are done, the annoyance goes away.

Have a good Saturday. Later gators.

Weather is Being a Brat

An email came out with a heads-up that the hike is probably getting canceled on Saturday -- not just the forecasted rain, but the trails on that mountain are still ice covered as of yesterday afternoon. Dang. At least this hike leader cancels early enough that I won't be on the road.

I'm either taking Duke to run or hike today. I need to decide which is better for us. Run at the park is perfectly safe. Hike is a little more uncertain with narrow trails and the possibility of running into other dogs. There was also a good deal of muddy spots and that could be tricky with a dog attached. My preference is to hike myself but my poor dog needs to get some harder exercise. Just writing this out, I'm leaning toward a run at the park. 

Honest to god, why is it so hard to hike regularly at the level I want to hike?

And a possible second storm next week. I'm watching the forecast to see about my trip to Asheville. My weather app isn't showing anything but everyone is talking about a storm Tuesday or Wednesday. I might need to make the trip a quick overnight which would be disappointing. 

The weather is hampering house showings too (I think). GA doesn't come out in the cold, rain, and definitely not snow. I need to trust the process -- somehow it all works out. We have a showing tomorrow. 

I've been screenshotting IG like crazy pulling pictures of decor that "speaks to me." I'm starting to understand what it is specifically about certain decor that I like and don't like. Hopefully, that helps decorating the new house. I want to shift the aesthetic a little in the main areas and more in the secondary rooms. I think that will be a nice balance.

I dropped the ripped ottoman to get reupholstered. They had 50 plus books of fabrics but nothing vintage-or retro or pretty. All traditional or boring or ugly -- as far as my taste. I ended up with a green velvet and the owner wasn't very enthusiastic about my choice. We'll see. The room might be too small for the ottoman anyway and the green gives some options for other rooms. I'm holding off on the chair. I probably need to bring my own fabric for that project. 

That's all today -- another short hello. Hope you are having a good week. Later gators.

Very Short, Somewhat Sweet

Atlanta was jacked up with traffic yesterday. A 45 minute drive to the hike took 95 minutes -- fortunately, I was still early enough to get an extra 3 miles hiked (as fast as my little legs could go). Made for a 9 mile hike and my legs feel it today which is the point -- I need to build up muscle endurance. Lunch was really good. Excellent conversation. It was just 3 of us and I like the smaller group size. 

BTW, I handled the traffic situation as expected. Threw a massive mind temper tantrum (the hiking gods are against me) and then put on a podcast and chilled out. I give myself a C+ on accepting what it -- room to improve, but not my worst either lol.

As far as solo hiking -- it was fine. I made one wrong turn, but figured it out quickly. I have another planned solo hike on Thursday and I'm considering safety options. The other possibility is to just go to the park and run Duke. I'll see how I feel tomorrow. Looks like a real possibility the hike Saturday is getting rained out (those damn hiking gods again). I don't expect to be able to hike at all the following week. It's a real effort to make space to build up hiking endurance.

This is a short post today. Lots to do this morning before I leave for a hair appointment. It's scheduled ahead of usual so it times right for the wedding. Later gators.

"The Entire Sea"

I woke up wondering this morning. 

Life is FULL right now -- really full. All good (ish) things and, of course, good can mean stress too, but I'm not (really) complaining (this morning lol).

Somehow I'm doing all the things. Juggling the balls and just when I think it's calming down, something gets complicated. 

And, yet, I'm okay. 

The wondering is if I'm going to have a massive crash at some point. Am I pushing too hard? Is it possible to have this endurance back AND be enjoying my days. Is it possible to be pulled in so many different directions and keep my shit together?

For example -- today I'm hiking with my friend group and because it was extended to a number of new people, we hike to the lowest denominator. It's not the level of hiking we initially planned. In order to keep building my hiking chomps, I'm going early to hike a few solo miles. Is this a "too much" push given my life right now. I needed to get up earlier to an alarm, prep the house for a showing (just in case), etc, etc, etc. I'll be gone for most of the day between extra miles, the regular hike and lunch which means a scramble this afternoon to work on other things. Should I say 5 miles is enough and be content for the status quo and have a calm, slow morning? Or use that time to work on other things? Why add to an already full day?

I'm obviously choosing the bigger life option today. Of course, every decision is a choice so that doesn't mean I ALWAYS have to choose the "more." 

Maybe the conflict I feel is wondering if this is pulling me into an old lifestyle of task master, run ragged, no actual fun, just do the list person. It seems different, but is that the sneaky way the habit rears its head -- fooling me into believing this is different.

Am I afraid to let anything drop off MY list? I remembered I haven't written in my reading log in January because I packed up the log book. I'm concerned about it now. Can't let that drop off. But why? Maybe I can during this time or maybe taking the log book out again and spending 5 minutes logging books is no big deal. Why does this feel like a heavy decision? Then I remembered I wanted to change up the log a bit because it's getting long enough to benefit from some actual organization. Now this is even bigger. But it's really not. 

See -- crazy mind shit making problems where there are no problems. 

No answers today, just rambling. I'll end with a poem that's resonating so much (I think I shared it before). It speaks to why these seemingly small things feel big to me. There's deeper meaning -- curating my life, honoring what I want. I lived too long doing neither and now it's "the entire sea." 

I'm sorry there's no author credit.
I searched, but nothing came up.

Coaching for the Win

Coaching is/has helped me so much. Family drama came to another head yesterday morning and at 10:30 at night. I talked through with both boys using some coaching inspired perspectives. I hope and expect the worst is over and we can move forward with a fun wedding celebration. Weddings bring out the best and the worst.

I made it to the Garden Lights event last evening. It was beautiful (it's my 3rd time going over the years). The other "original" planner backed out a couple hours before because she was sick. That left 3 of us. When I met up with the woman who communicated with me, we waited for the final person ... and waited. I messaged her -- no response. Finally she responded that she wasn't coming. What?!?! When was she going to let us know -- I guess never. You say you are coming the day before and then don't have a thought to let anyone know you changed your mind? I told the group we would wait at the meeting place for anyone who responded they were coming. Then she boo-hooed about how sad she was to miss the night. WTH. 

Lesson learned. I hate that I have a growing list of things I won't do anymore. Big plans with certain friends, ticketed events unless I'm happy to go by myself, time of day plans with certain groups. People extra suck holding commitments lately and are selfish about communicating changes. 

The evening was nice though and I had a good time catching up -- kind of like a 2nd date. I know her, but not well. I haven't seen her in over a year. I'm proud I held my commitment when that was the last thing I wanted to do. I showed up -- and that's important to me. Also, thank goodness she did too. Ironically, she's someone who usually says she's coming and doesn't. That's why I haven't seen her in over a year.

I started the Priya Parker 7 week workshop and it's already paying off. The first pre-lesson had an example of a wedding and how the intention of the event plays a big role in the decisions -- decisions that are not always agreeable with everyone. It gave me a solid perspective on the wedding situation and a lot of understanding -- something I needed to really hear and learn. It also helped to remind me the intention of the Garden Lights event. I was sour grapes all afternoon, but changed up my perspective to remember the night can still accomplish the intention -- and it did. 

I'm not hiking this morning because of the icy conditions on the trails. I have a few errands and office work today so it'll be a full one still. Moving my solo hike to Thursday (if all goes as planned) -- temps in the 50s by then. 

Adding to my morning routine is house prep for the day ... just-in-case kind of prep. It's the main reason a house on the market is a pain in the butt. Again, it is what it is and I wish it wasn't lol.

Hope you're off to a good start this week. Later gators.

Big Ugly Feelings Today

The house goes on the market today. Yea and ugh. Showings are annoying -- last minute showings even more so and there are usually a number of those too. Means to an end. I had hoped we could put it on the market after we moved, but the realtor thinks it will sell better furnished. 

Last night (right before bed) there was a big discourse about the upcoming wedding. I won't go into details because this is public, but it's upsetting to see my sons so upset with each other. I understand both sides. This is for them to work out, but I also expressed my opinion when it was asked. How to straddle the conflict is hard. Life coaching is coming in handy helping my perspective and reaction and response. 

It looks like the bookclub field trip is on for tonight. I'm a little concerned about the freeze later, but I expect the roads will be mostly dry by tonight. There's a small possibility this won't happen if the gardens don't open or the roads are iffy. Of course, one of the 3 of us who came up with this plan messaged she isn't going -- no explanation. We agreed months ago to buy the tickets. She was ghosting the text thread for the last week. Why are people like this? Why ghost? She might have a perfectly good reason, but her lack of explanation makes it suspect. When I posted an update, 2 more people said they were going so looks like we'll have a group after all. 

Here's the problem -- as of late yesterday afternoon it was just the 3 of us going. Tickets are pricey too. She backs out at the last minute, that leaves 2 of us to hold the commitment or someone ends up going by themselves or wasting the money. That's not fair. Even if she didn't want to offer an explanation, she could have given a heads up. I expect the ghosting meant she already knew she wasn't going. Life happens, but you can be as considerate as you can when it does. 

I painted a couple of rocks yesterday. I saw the banana one online -- it's funny.

I need a good workout and meditation this morning. Feelings are all big and ugly today. Hopefully, that and a fun night out for garden lights helps. My poor toes with the cold temps though. I'll wear my warmest boots and socks. 

I need a good regroup which is ironic because these snow days were going to be my regroup. I got the physical regroup, but now I need a mental regroup. Life is life is life -- and it's prickly. Good lord. 

Later gators.

The Snow Came ... (and Hopefully Goes)

We got the storm -- big, pretty flakes and then freezing rain. I think the roads will be okay by tomorrow. It's barely getting above freezing today, but then it's almost 50 the rest of the week. Surprisingly, lots of hikes were added today. I guess the group wants the chance to hike in the wintery mix?? Too slippery for me.

Just starting.

We had about 3 inches and
then sleet, slush on top.

I've activated my chilblains after the cold hikes earlier in the week. It takes a few days to show up and this times to the hikes. My toes didn't feel problematic during the hikes, but I have the sores. I need to be extra careful with the temperatures now. Dang. I thought the heavier hiking boots and smart wool socks had done the trick. Usually, I feel the aching and I know they're struggling, but I didn't feel anything.

On a 25 for 2025 note, I got new Birkenstocks. When I got a pair last year, these were sold out in my size. I ended up with the toe loop style so I had a pair for a trip to Europe. I prefer ones I can wear socks with if needed (for around the house). This is coming in handy with the chilblains and keeping warm toes. 

Today is another stay home day. I'll work on the list a bit more. It's been trouble getting certain things done between extra holiday closures and now weather closures. I could use this day outside the house, but most things are still closed -- and it's not worth slippery conditions. Given what's happening in CA, I'm grateful to have what I need and only a couple days of inconvenience. 

A nice thing about this time of year is podcasts are back after holiday break and are filled with January good. I enjoy the fresh start to a new year and all the thinking, planning, reflection that goes into it. I have a few things swirling and I'll chat about them if they take more form. 

Off to journal and reflect and read some inspiration. Stay warm. Later gators.

"Snow Day" ... ??

The snow hasn't started yet and might be all freezing rain and might be hardly anything. Typical south. Either way it's a "snow day." Everything is closed and postponed -- no trash, mail, etc. What is typical of the south is if this is anything at all, it can be dangerous because roads aren't treated. Smart to pause today.

While I was excited to see some snow, I'll be happy if it's all cleared by Sunday so I can still meet the bookclub ladies and hike Monday and Tuesday. 

I got my hormone level results back and it's exactly where she wants it -- and I feel good. Who knew? I sure didn't (embarrassing since I'm a woman and a nurse). Once I'm in menopause, I can go on the full replacement which is protective through aging. 

I made appointments for my hair and make up trial for the wedding. I won't be using this make up artist for the actual wedding, but I wanted a trial to learn what works and take pictures to show the person at the wedding. I'm excited. This is fun.

We worked out the decor (almost) for the rehearsal dinner and I can get a move on that this week. Sign, pictures for the table and cookies -- this feels manageable. 

Slowly the list is shifting to the "finished" side. 

A friend texted me about a book yesterday while the dogs were sunning on the floor since the shutters were off for window replacement and I was drinking coffee -- this poem I saved from IG perfectly captures that moment. 

Off to flit around waiting for the weather. Later gators.

It Felt Personal

And ... doing better today. Hello, rollercoaster. 

I wish it wasn't circumstantial reasons I feel better, but more my mind shift that helped. But, beggars can't be choosers. 

The photos went well. Turns out I didn't need to worry about what was prepped, etc. It wasn't good communication, but we're all set now. We had a bunch of popped windows after the house was painted and those got replaced this morning -- a week earlier than expected. It messed up my plans today, but worth it to have it finished. 

So here's an odd thing that was upsetting me about the house prep. Hang on, it's convoluted. This is the first time that I EVER decorated areas to my taste and not to "eventually selling" decor. We used to move regularly and kept things vanilla (and, I also liked vanilla). My office is quirky, the bedroom is busy with color, plants, books. I felt like it was going to be a ding against selling. And for some reason that unsettled me. The realtor (who didn't come on the walkthrough because she was sick) saw everything for the first time yesterday. Her comments -- these rooms are cozy and comforting -- don't change anything. Of course, I had already depersonalized a bit and moved some books, etc. but it was still in the same vein. My rock painting stuff out, rocks everywhere, books everywhere, colors, pillow, plants. I expected we'd have to move most of that out of the room for the pictures and showings. 

Nope. My style holds up. It was like a nod to me -- it felt personal. Strange, I know. I'm glad what I feel in these areas translates well. It was such a surprising relief. I didn't realize it upset me that much.

All that improved my outlook. 

I was also able to get ahold of a few venders and move wedding details along.  

Tomorrow is the storm and a stay-at-home day with no timed obligations. I'm ready for it. 

I'm heading out this afternoon to babysit my grandson for the late afternoon/evening. Lots of traffic -- bummer, but so much fun to see him again. 

Oh, another fun thing -- I need to reupholster an ottoman that is ripped and I decided to do an antique family chair too. I'll take them next week and pick out fabric. It feels creative and that's deeply important to me right now. This has me excited about decorating the new house. Stay tuned -- hopefully fabrics are available for what I have in mind.

I expect my mood will continue to oscillate as we move through this process. Today is on the upside. Hope you're having a good day. Later gators.

That Didn't Last Long

And I'm back into panic-ish mode. Of course. Did anyone doubt it?!?! Maybe it's not panic mode exactly, but more like "I-can-not-handle-one-more-thing" mode.

I don't handle change well and change when I'm in a stressful time -- forget about it. 

First up ... actual snow storm predicted this Friday for Atlanta. This means house on the market probably delayed. Saturday dinner plans with friends canceled. Maybe Sunday Atlanta Botanical Garden show with my bookclub canceled. Temps are staying cold and Atlanta doesn't do snow well. Hiking for Monday and Tuesday in jeopardy as well. Also, my to-do list includes a few vendor contacts on Friday -- no one will be working. I delayed contacting during the 2 holiday weeks and now it's delaying again. I'm going to try and contact tomorrow morning instead, but I don't expect a response. Atlanta is rapidly moving into shutdown mode.

Next up ... we were sent a prep list for the photographer yesterday afternoon. The appointment has been scheduled for almost a week. The list is a mile long with ridiculous prep stuff. I did what I could and the professionals can help with the rest. The realtor is coming over early and she needs to clarify some things. Short of packing up half the house, I don't know what she wants us to do. BTW, we COULD have packed up half the house if we had any lead time at all. We have no boxes and no time to get boxes. 

Then some little annoyances ... garden class moved to a date I can't attend. Used a Micheal's gift card from Christmas and the order was canceled. Now I have to manage an electric gift card and an actual gift card and hope nothing gets lost in the move. I'd go to the store this weekend, but snow storm.

I have a lab draw appointment early this morning and rushing home to meet the realtor. My zen-like mood is gone.

Here's some good stuff thought -- and it IS good.

I'm extremely grateful the storm isn't the weekend of the spa shower. We got an invite to our grandson's first birthday party -- so fun and his little friends are coming too. House on the market delayed by a week gives me a little wiggle room before showings start -- aka, I can relax a few days. Late lunch date with hubby after the pictures today. Babysitting my grandson tomorrow afternoon. Just had the yard mulched and cleaned up -- grateful pictures are before the storm.

My final hike this week was fun. Only 5 miles though (as predicted). I decided I'm going to hike on my own on trails I feel safe and know well. No one wants to hike as far as I want to go and my club doesn't offer enough hikes that fit my schedule. Winter is a great time to hike and I don't want to miss this season. Comfortable temps, no spiders :)

Here are a few hiking pictures. All along the hike were little ice formations that looked like cotton or grass blades. I found a couple other interesting things too. You see a lot more on a winter hike with everything open.

Another rock stack.

Intertwined branches

Ice -- sparkled in the sun.

The ice crystals formed like grass blades.

I feel a bit better after remembering the good things. The storm and the prep list sent me over the edge late afternoon. I'm trying to keep out of overwhelm and use this as an endurance builder. Some moments are better than others. 

I know this is dramatic, but I'm temporarily losing my comfort places. My office. My bedroom. Crafts are put away. Books are put away. Things that calm me. It's going to be months before I'm able to build that comfort level in the new house. Just when I need my security places the most, they're not available. Means to a good end and I'm trying to remember that. I wanted a quieter and calmer couple of months ahead of the wedding -- time to center and ground again. This is the opposite. And, yes, all my own doing. Both are true. 

Okay, time to get going. Have a good day. Later gators.

Another Hike

Lord knows I hate to say it out loud, but I think I've turned a corner. I feel a lot better and the cough is subsiding enough that people won't give me a side-eye being out in public.

Hike was a go for yesterday. Too many stops along the way to hear about the history of the trails (since new people on the hike), but we went just under 10 miles. The pace was comfortable when we actually got moving, but, dang, the stops in the beginning were annoying. Skipped the hard terrain because of the rain so it was an easy hike with distance. I really need to qualify for the tougher hikes so stopping and pacing won't be a frustration.

Came home and worked on my list. Slowly (like the hike lol). 

I have my friend hiking group today. Later start because it's cold and maybe some mileage, but I expect it'll be around 5. One of the ladies wants to hike 8, but I can't see the group doing that in this weather with the later start. Either way is fine though. I thought about going early to hike ahead, but I don't want to push myself too much. My legs are okay this morning, but they'll be tired on the hills today.

I'm glad I decided to hike these hikes. It comes down to knowing your own body. The cough was crazy, but I could tell I wasn't actively sick anymore. I think the push has helped. Usually, I can tell at the start of a workout if it's too early to get back (hence the test Peloton ride on Saturday).

Short and sweet this morning because of THE LIST. I need to do a few things before the hike. We have the house photos tomorrow morning.

Feeling better has me feeling better about managing and enjoying what's ahead (at least for today -- you know panic sneaks back like the little devil she is hah).

Later gators.

More Hiking Chat

The hike went well -- no lung issues, no energy issues. A couple of coughing spells that a cough drop stopped. The group was larger than usual with a number of new people (hello, January) so the leader had to slow the hike down a bit. It's the curse of the New Year's resolutions to be more active that pulls people who aren't accustomed to hiking. Oh well. It was still a good pace and a good test hike for my endurance back.

I briefly hiked ahead to take a picture of a rock stack while the leader stopped for people to catch up.

Waiting for the group

I love it. Stands out as you
head up the hill.

I talked with the hike leader most of the hike. I commented that I can't seem to hike longer distances because the hikes are less available and my friends don't want that length. She suggested doubling these shorter hikes -- come earlier or stay longer. She mentioned starting training in February for a longer hike she's doing in the spring and that's her plan. I told her if she'd like company, I'd like to join her (and wouldn't hold her back if she wanted to go faster). No pressure on her end, but I put it out there. 

This goes back to what I've been focusing on -- asking for what I want. It doesn't always work out, but you won't know unless you try. Even if it works out sometimes, that's a win. I hope she takes me up on the ask, but it's okay if she doesn't. I understand wanting to do things alone. 

As far as the hike this morning -- the weather is very iffy. Lots of rain -- started as the hike finished yesterday and it's still going. Winds and rapidly dropping temperatures too. The hike leader already emailed that the route will change because the steep areas are too dangerous when it's this wet. He'll email whether it's canceled by 7am this morning. Seems like he might cancel based on the high winds. I need to leave at 7:15 so hopefully he's good on his word to make the decision early. I also hope I don't drive all the way to only hike a few miles. This is a 9 mile hike today. See what I mean about longer hikes?? Can't seem to do them regularly to save my soul -- they get canceled, shorted, etc.

That said, winds and trees make me a little nervous. It can be dangerous to hike -- even large branches are a threat. 

I signed up for my first hike with the Camino group in February. They announced the full year schedule. Mostly hiking with a few events over the summer. Opening up as many hiking options as possible. 

The first full week of 2025 is here. I started a few things on my long to-do list yesterday. If the hike is canceled, I'll use the time to get ahead for the week. 

Have a good day. Later gators.

Hike or Bust? Question of the Day.

I'm turning the corner with this chest cold or bronchitis or whatever it is. I only had a couple of bad coughing bouts yesterday and it was just ahead of needing another dose of cough medicine.

I'm going on a hike this afternoon. It's under 6 miles, easy elevation, but fast. If I can't manage it, I know this trail and can get myself back. It's a test run for tomorrow's hike which is longer, earlier (more coughing), bigger elevation (but slower). That hike I can NOT navigate myself so I need to make sure I can keep up.

My lungs feel fine or I wouldn't be pushing to get back to hiking. It's the coughing spells that concern me. Hard to cough and hike a hill at the same time. But a cough can last weeks and weeks. That's too long to do nothing.

Even though last week was full enough with house things, etc., it's felt reminiscent of the "old" me. Go all day, but spend the afternoon and evening on the sofa watching TV. It's been this way for 3 years off/on because of my back. I needed to rest and recover (and still do) -- no doubt, but I want to get back to the more energetic version over the last several months. 

I know needing to recovery is temporary, but the setback feels too soon -- I haven't had enough time feeling well. Does that make sense?

Anyway ....

It's a big old week coming up. Lots and lots and lots of little (and some big) prickly things to get off my list. If all goes as planned, I should be in much better shape by next Sunday. Pretty please let me feel well enough to finish up all the things this week. This means I need to use the entire day -- fingers crossed. 

Off to plan this week. I'm excited about getting it finished. I'll also try and enjoy the process, but (let's be real) I'll be happy enough with just completing the list -- and getting to hike a few times.

Later gators.

25 for 2025

Here it is ...

A started writing this in December. I rewrote the list a couple of days ago, doing a little adding/subtracting because the list didn't inspire me enough. A few things are already checked off -- I thought about changing those too, but decided the timing was close enough. I hadn't done either when I started the list. Early wins for the win.

Find "dream" house

Organize Christmas Decorations

Use camel back

Spanish goals are back and, honestly, unlikely, but I'm going to keep them until they are likely. I'll make a push once the March wedding is finished and we're somewhat settled in #2 on the list ("dream" house lol). The list will remind me. 

A few hike things -- pushing my hiking chomps. 

Hike with Camino group

6 Long 10+ mile hikes

Blast Kennesaw Mountain hike time

A few creative pushes.

Creative: rock painting, embroidery

Christmas lights on front of house

More bookshelves

Embrace Color

A couple of FS personal aesthetics. 

New Birkenstocks

Wedding day hair, makeup, shoes. 

Wear "unworn" in closet

Dress with a little character/fun

Garden, of course. Especially important since we're moving and I need to start over.

A couple of travel related items.

Solo days in Europe (piggy backing on business trip)

Curate in Asheville

Some friend/connection.

Friends to Asheville

Garden prep gathering

Hike with Camino Group

Keep Bookclub alive

I expected more, but it's not what came to mind. Connection is going reasonably well and it's an ongoing focus. Not a lot of "new" felt necessary. 

It's interesting to me what repeats on the list and what's new. Year-to-year you can see areas that are focuses. Spanish will not leave me, and yet it's my least successful aspiration. I know I need accountability to do this -- unusual for me given how much I desire it. I have a few ideas to help this along, but I'm not ready to dedicate time or resources to it yet. 

A relatively vague item is embrace color, yet this is an overriding theme for the year. Color as in literal color -- fashion and decor. Color as in adding spice to life. Color as in the act of coloring or being crafty/creative. Basically, I have a word-of-the-year which I haven't done in a long time. COLOR.

I plan (and hope) 2025 is a successful year -- successful being different than good. Successful can be hard and uncomfortable too. The 50-50 of life. 

Off to look at Birkenstocks and get another checked off item :)

24 for 2024 in Review

How did I do? 

19 of 24 complete. 

One miss was the Refuge Coffee 5K when the hurricane came through. We were registered and ready.

Huge miss on all things Spanish. Carretta's for HBD lunch to speak Spanish (I was sick with COVID and never revisited). "Live" Spanish class on app (turns out they weren't free on the app). Find a Spanish partner (didn't look, just hoped). 

Didn't subscribe to Disney so never watched Hamilton. 

A little stretch -- maybe a miss, but I'm counting it as a win. Book Luncheon. I did a book lunch with my bookclub which was a success, but when I put this on the list it was a lunch with friends with a little different vision.

Best: Raised garden bed

Most unexpected win: Pocket at Pigeon Mountain (it's such a long drive with a short calendar window, but I finally went)

Most work: Raised garden bed

Biggest FS push: Ape Sanctuary (weekend with friends of a friend) 

Most straight fun: Ape Sanctuary

Biggest disappointment that I failed: Spanish partner

Am I happy with the list? Anything I would add or subtract anything?

Yes, I liked the list. Nothing I would change. The list has a lot of things I kept saying I wanted to do and never did -- those were a big win (Ladybugs for the garden, Walk to Grove Park Inn, Theater in Asheville, Replace Hydrangeas in back, Ape Sanctuary, Historical Tours). 

What did I learn?

Making the list works. Somethings are kind of silly, some are hard, some are super simple. It helps design my year. Helps see where I want to focus better (I'm taking to you, Spanish) and see the areas I want to explore. Lots of "just for fun" things. Everything on the list has a reason. Maybe it's something I keep meaning to do and haven't. Maybe it's pushing me out of a comfort zone. Maybe it's something I think my FS would do (be her now). 

I wonder if I'll ever have a year I complete the list? Unlikely, but fun to try.

Next up ... 25 for 2025.

Canceled Weekend

This cough is tough. Cough meds are helping, but it still sounds like death.

Hubby is sick now so we aren't seeing the grand baby this weekend. We went from taking him for an overnight and all day Sunday, to nothing. I'm super disappointed. 

The hike I wanted to try today got canceled -- so that took that decision out of the mix. I signed up for a Sunday afternoon hike. Fingers crossed. Weather is iffy starting tomorrow afternoon. I figure I need a short hike to make sure I'm okay for the longer hike on Monday (might get a weather cancelation though).

Ups and downs for sure. 

Lunch was fun and a nice catch up. I didn't cough (thanks, meds). 

I'm watching a really good show, "Unforgotten" -- 5 seasons. I accidentally started with season 5 and am going back to the start now. Each season is "an historic murder investigation" by a British police force. I enjoy British police procedurals a lot. Free on Prime.

I'm going to try a short workout this morning to see how I feel. I don't feel particularly bad, it's just the cough is tiring -- all night long. Sometimes exertion is a problem so this is a little pre-test for the hike tomorrow. 

I need to regroup after canceled plans and try and get a few things off my plate today. I'm not sure what exactly -- maybe calendaring some detailed lists. That makes things feel manageable. 

Have a good weekend. Later gators.

*cough*

Met with the realtor. Just a few things to do on the house and it goes on the market next Friday. They think it will sell better with furniture rather than empty. Ugh. One step at a time. I de-personalized my office and bedroom and it's a little sad (just like the garden). 

My airway became reactive yesterday and I've never coughed so much and so hard in my life. I actually wondered if I needed an inhaler. It finally calmed down early this morning. I'm drinking hot water with honey and lemon (not sure if that helps, but thought it might be soothing). My stomach muscles are sore from coughing so hard.

My friend is okay to meet today and so far, I'm okay too. That was a "thing" yesterday evening though. I was fine until the afternoon -- not one cough. I hope I've turned the corner today and this isn't just the calm before the afternoon again.

A new hike posted for tomorrow and I was all set to register when the coughing got out of control. I'm really disappointed to miss such good hiking this week, but I can't push that much in the cold air. The hike is full, but I'm so tempted to get on the waitlist. But, nope ... don't do it. 

My neighbor is having an estate sale this morning and I'm going to pop over and see what she's selling. We're giving some furniture to the kids that won't fit in our smaller bedrooms. I'm going to scout for some smaller pieces -- I have no idea her style, but snooping is fun.

I put together a 25 for 2025 list a couple of weeks ago and read it over yesterday. It didn't inspire. So much has changed since I started brainstorming the list and I needed a redo. I brainstormed again yesterday and I'll look it over today to see how it feels. 

I've been sorely lacking on pictures. Nothing today. Some aren't loading again -- I have no idea what's going on. 

Quick chat this morning. I'm going to go ponder some questions that can help change my perspective. Focusing on being excited rather than dread. I think dread is kind of muscle memory and if I lean into the possibilities of this change, this will feel really good. Calling on FS today. Later gators.