Well, things have changed. I won't go into all the nitty gritty, but I had my gyn appointment and lab work come back yesterday and something might be up.
I need to have follow up tests in August and first available was during the hike trip, next was late September -- so I canceled the hike trip yesterday.
I'm a bit worried (particularly about the labs), but it could be absolutely nothing.
I'm disappointed about the hike -- and relieved to have the challenge off my plate.
My mood took a deep dive yesterday. I'm discouraged and stuck with dogs all weekend and am worried and confused about medical choices. Geez. It's overwhelming enough that I'm letting myself feel crappy and not trying to turn it around today. Gloomy weather, gloomy mood. Can I feel the feelings and not eat those feelings?? Probably not lol, but I'll try.
There's also some family drama -- when isn't there these days.
I think a part of why I've been up against a mood these last couple of weeks is that I haven't had enough people interactions. Friends are MIA right now, hiking is a no-go, family is occupied and we're stuck at home for 5 days with dogs (after 3 weeks feeling crappy with COVID) and the weather has been miserable. Add these worries and such -- recipe for a big old pity party with the headliner, "Why can't I catch a break."
So I'll leave it alone for today because I'm looking at everything through doom glasses. Maybe I'll be ready to rally tomorrow. Later gators.
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