Hello, Monday

My friend, Monday. Hope she can give me a boost. I'm not feeling it, but I'm going to try and fake it.

I was very undone yesterday and woke to a realization that I'm probably having a depressed moment. I don't have depression and I don't want to undermine those with a clinical diagnosis. But, I'm depressed right now. It makes a lot of sense. 

I'm not going to explain it all because I'm lazy -- but very classic symptoms. For me, the key symptom is not wanting to get out of bed in the morning -- wishing I could lay there for hours (and sometimes I do). That's not like me. I'm a quintessential morning person and morning are my absolute favorite time of day (especially early mornings). Somedays might be hard to wake up (because of sleep), but I'm always happy to start my morning. Not lately.

COVID, state of the world, hormones, family drama, lack of exercise and good diet?!?! Who knows. But it's got a hold on me. Actually, maybe it's that I haven't been doing the "things" that make me feel good because I haven't been feeling well. Hmmm.

This week I'm going to try and turn it around. Starting with not giving head time to any of my "worries" and upset over some family stuff. Now is NOT the time to try and figure out that stuff. 7 days of working away this feeling (because it's a moment, not a diagnosis as many suffer from).

Next Monday is the goal. 

Today's anti depression slurry is a few things. Peloton ride (moving my body), meditation (stress relief), making a veggie and quinoa soup (good food), reading (whatever feels good) AND taking care of some insurance stuff ahead of a bunch of appointments (eat the frog first to stop the dread). Bed early, up early for Tuesday. 

I also have a coaching call this evening. I want to talk about the 3 day (2 night) hike I have in August. Stay tuned. Maybe not the time to make a decision, but I want to decide by the end of July because there's a waitlist. 

Okay peeps. Enough for this morning. Time to tackle insurance. Later gators.