Today is the start of a full week -- appointments of all sorts each day. I want to make sure I add "my" things into the week too. Gardening, moving my body, crafting, reading, plant food cooking, etc.
Love Monday, love this week ahead ... and woke up with a mood. Anxious, upset -- why?!?!? I don't think there's an actual reason, but my mind is on fire looking for a correlation. That's problematic so my focus this morning is reminding myself to let the feeling just be there and not try to match it with a "problem."
Sometimes there's an issue and I need to address it, but often there's nothing so my mind makes up something to explain why I feel this way. I MUST be upset about something.
I'm a little stumped about my recovery numbers. They're up a little, but not nearly what I'd expect with lifestyle right now. I suspect the mood and low recovery are a sign of hormones flipping out behind the scenes.
Of course, there are things that aren't ideal. Japanese beetles are on the attack. My back is hurting and limiting what I can do. I'm not sleeping well. All things that ARE important to me, but I'm doing what I can to take care of each of them.
But there are other things that I KNOW aren't actually a problem, but I'm making them one. Here's a taste of my mind chatter ...
Two friends didn't finalize tentative social plans this week.
Truth is I don't have time for either, but I wanted to be the one to say it first.
They didn't offer up alternatives.
I would've tried to squeeze in something else because we're away on a long trip and then go to Asheville so next availability isn't until July, but I didn't offer alternatives either. And they don't know my schedule. Also, both have reached out in other ways so I'm making this into something it isn't.
My dogs, plants and garden will struggle while we're away next week.
They were all fine on an even longer trip.
I never get "good" time with my grandson. We always see him at nap time.
This is because of OUR schedule. We can change that up. Kids keep offering and we keep declining. Time to make some time on our end.
Then comes the FUTURE stress ... wedding stuff, tomatoes are too dense, fall garden, August hiking trip, my personal goals I'm not doing (Spanish, I'm looking at you), HRT (should I or shouldn't I), all sorts of medical appointments this summer, future medical insurance, the election, the stock market.
Geez. It's way, way too early to worry about any of this. Take it as it comes and it won't be so overwhelming.
Thanks for letting me dump all this out. It helps.
Ending on some good things.
This was the haul from the garden yesterday. Everything is delicious.
Took the dogs on a birthday woods walk (8 and 14 years old). We had a nice time and they loved it.
Spent the afternoon with our (mostly) sleeping grandson, but it was still fantastic.
Hope your week is set to be a good one. Later gators.
UPDATE: Roof is leaking. Now my mood is solidly in place. Upside to storms -- all hikes canceled this morning so my decision to remove myself from the hike doesn't hit as hard.
P.S. I also have perspective and know everything will get fixed, etc. and this means this problem isn't really a problem.
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