Shit Meets the Fan

We planned on full retirement in 11 months, but hubby was let go yesterday.  He wanted to leave at the beginning of this year, but I begged him to give it one year to get our mental game around retirement for him -- give him time to figure out what he wants to do, etc.  He was hired to do acquisitions and then the company put an indefinite hold on acquisitions so it didn't make sense to keep him.  He had a feeling for the last few months that he wouldn't make it through the summer.  

But ... retirement is suddenly NOW.  Oh boy.  This feels big, but maybe it's not big.  Maybe it's only big in my head.  We're financially prepared for his retirement, but I'm not mentally ready.  All retirement plans go into action immediately and that feels like stress.  But maybe it's exactly what I need.  I'm bored -- life feels a little same-same right now.  I need a change, a little recalibration.  Guess this is it.

Can I choose to see it this way?  WILL I choose to see it this way?  It's my choice -- look at the positives or focus on the scary, unknown bits.  Maybe unknown bits are better than I can imagine and not scary at all?  Both "sides" are stories I'm telling myself.  Maybe the story that feels better is the story I SHOULD tell.  Why not, nothing to lose.  

Pep-talk 101

Anyway ... 

I painted another rock and left a couple on my neighborhood trail.

Someone made a rock stack
so I added to it.

Hedgehog

I'm reading this book.  It's about moving fully as you age.  Not exercise, but stability and movement improvement.  Suppose to help with staying injury free, etc.  First of 7 pillars is gaining ability to move from a floor sitting position to a stand with no support.  In order to gain the ability (that I'm lacking a bit), there are sitting positions to hold and then stand.  Minute ONE, this was my lap.  My sidekicks in all things.  Needless to say, standing had its extra hurdles.

Pedicure this morning.  Something fun.  Trying a new place because my usual tech is away for 2 months.  Also, I love her massages, but the quality of the pedicure isn't great lately.  Change is the theme of the moment.

Have a good day.  Later gators.