Homebound

My stomach is still wonky.  I ended up needing to be close to home and a bathroom all afternoon.  That tanked any idea of going out and also tanked the plan to jog this morning (can't be too careful).  Good news is the Peloton ride went well and my back feels good.  I'm riding again this morning -- let's see how 2 in a row goes.

Cleaning is finished (yea, love a clean house), trash got picked up ... but not after the bears returned to hit my neighbor's trash.  I went out to take off the bear strap and found them on my street.  I texted my neighbor and she came out and yelled at them to leave.  It worked.  Guess I don't need to be as timid as I've been.  She said the mama and babies are chill and the babies are bigger now so she wasn't worried.

The other baby was playing in the yard.
They are so much fun to watch.

My body temperature has been elevated at night for about a week.  Last night it dropped -- wonder if I'm getting my monthly today?  Pretty please with sugar on the top!!!

I'm having a lot of crazy, useless anxiety again.  It MUST be hormones.  I'm upset about all the things coming up.  First up -- trip to CO is freaking me out.  I need to get my thoughts under control.  It's TWO nights for crying out loud.  Nothing at all to be nervous about, yet I'm nearing panic and wishing for COVID so I can't go or a flight cancelation or ANYTHING to prevent the trip.  Honestly, I've gone a little cuckoo.  

I booked the dog sitter for our November trip to Hawaii and realized it's for 10 days -- instantly upset about leaving them that long.  Good lord.  They are going to a private house and have done perfectly fine twice before.

I'm VERY upset about Spanish, yet do you think I studied yesterday -- NOPE (!!)  What in actual hell is wrong with me?!?!

I thought very hard about staying another day.  Just some time for me, but I think I need to break the pattern I'm in by going home.  And, I'm worried about my indoor plants that haven't been watered since I left (ANXIETY ABOUT EVERYTHING).

I'll say it again and probably a thousand times more ... hormones are no joke.  That said, I like a lot of the changes that are happening, but when I'm fluctuating, the mental stuff is challenging to stay head above the crazy line.  I keep dipping below this week lol!

So my plan today is to show up for myself by doing The Things.  SPANISH study FIRST, Peloton, drive home, WATER PLANTS, try on dress options for the wedding (came while I was gone), get organized and calm down.  Let's see if this helps ...

Hoping for a good day all around or at least a fair day -- I'm not going to get greedy.  Later gators.