Volunteer Day

Good morning.  I'm up early to get a workout before I volunteer at the vaccine center.  I enjoy doing it, but I'm not super excited the morning of -- you know, messing up my morning routine and all.

I picked up the bouquet yesterday.  It doesn't photograph super well, but it's pretty.  Maybe not worth the price, but I like it.  Her husband makes the frame and she dries and styles the flowers.  I hope my DIL likes it.  The frame is chunky (which is awesome), but there isn't any mounting clips -- for the hefty price, I'd think that would be an option.

Duke's new groomer went well too.  The grooming is expensive, but the groomer is good.  Good grooming isn't just about the look -- groomers can give hot spots, bleeding nails, etc. if they aren't skilled.  I'm happy to pay for skill and support my friend's new store.  Now both dogs can be at the same place and it's a safer setup for Duke who's an escape artist.

I'm having a bit of a mood.  Those little pesky things this week and now some other irritations.  I need to go back to a big lesson I learned during the pandemic -- what I need comes from ME and everything else is icing on the cake.  When I "depend" too much on outside things (and people), I get disappointed and frustrated.  It might sound cynical, but it's the opposite.  When I don't get so vested outside myself, I can let things roll off much more easily.  If stuff works out, that's great.  If it doesn't, I don't get overly undone about it.

The details of these little things don't matter (that's why I'm sounding vague) and it would take a lot of explanation.  The problem this week is I am invested and I didn't detach enough -- now frustration and disappointment.  This comes up over and over for me.  At least I'm recognizing it now.  I can depend on myself to have a good day.  Focus inward and then the rest isn't as important.

It's a tough balance between isolation and connection.  I don't want to lose connections, but I don't want to spend so much time resenting connections (and commitments) that are broken.

Well, I rambled through this post and I need to get moving for the volunteer day.  Have a good one.  I'm going to try too.  Stay well.  Later gators.