Alone Time Ramble

Yesterday was incredible.  I missed being by myself with thoughts and podcasts and dogs and books.  It's something I crave regularly, especially after big "together" times.

I re-listened to a few podcasts yesterday.  Brooke Castillo classics and Armchair Expert with Jud Brewer.  All things centered on CHOOSING delayed gratification for your better good ... or for more authentic good.  True desires vs false desires.  I bought Jud Brewer's book too (comes today).  He deep dives into habits solidified early in life and how to change them -- spoiler alert ... being curious and mindful about what your brain is doing.  He says it way, way more clearly and more helpfully :)

I felt myself slipping this week after coming down from the wedding week and feeling sluggish from the 2nd vaccination.  I need to nip that in the bud -- and quick.

I also was playing a mental game because I had a couple glasses of wine at the wedding.  Nothing that made me feel unwell.  Sipped over a longtime.  It hit the spot.  I didn't drink at the Welcome Party.  BUT, that stopped my "count" and started activating my all-or-nothing.  I never wanted to stop drinking, I want to drink when a drink feels good.  Most of the time I use a drink to buffer something or to enjoy an experience more.  That's what I want to let go.  I am in the heart of this experiment -- what do experiences feels like if I'm not adding alcohol?  Can I learn to enjoy things for other reasons?  What do I need to practice?  What do I need to let go?  What do I need to learn?  This transition time is the most important time to be aware.

Anyway ...

I'm reading The Rose Code (Kate Quinn).  Recommendation from the PopCast.  WW2 code breakers.  I'm enjoying, but it's a long book.  Not much time given to reading lately, so looking to amp that up again.

Netflix recommendation from PopCast as well -- Kim's Convenience.  It's 3 seasons, comedy about a family that owns a convenient store in Canada.  It grows on you.  I'm about halfway into season 2.

Today is a Trader Joe's run and the both dogs have their yearly vet appointment (still curbside -- yea, vet!!).  I'll get a quick Peloton ride in first and a dog walk.  Otherwise, a quiet day again.  More cleaning and chores -- feels good to get the necessary things off my plate.

Have a good Monday and stay well.  Later gators.