What I need ...

... is to be able to run again.  I have no idea why my heel is still wonky.  I can't risk doing more damage, so I wait and wait and wait.  Meanwhile, PERFECT running weather is flying away.

I know a lot of things would clear up for me if I could have a strong cardio workout and get those endorphins pumping.  My body feels blah.  My mind feels blah.  Other things help, but nothing works as completely as an early morning run.

Our family zoom was canceled at the last minute again.  It's kind of annoying ... one person can't make the call and it falls apart.  I mentioned last time that we cancel with a little notice because I plan the evening around the call.  Nope.  It's been punted to next Wednesday.  I'm annoyed enough that I might boycott the call next week.  Mature -- nope, but I'm bothered by it and speaking up didn't solve the last minute problem.  We'll see what next week brings.  P.S. I realize the irony that I wasn't really wanting to have the call ... the issue is I changed up my evening to accommodate the time just to have it canceled.  I won't do that again so I probably won't join the call.

Hanging with my girlfriend yesterday was the highlight of the week.  It feels so NORMAL and refreshing to talk in-person ... 12 feet apart, but it's better than zoom.

Today is nothing.  Not one thing.  I did a bunch of house stuff yesterday and that leaves nothing for today.  Tomorrow, I'm braving the outside world and going early to the grocery store.  I contemplated going this morning, but I'm on the fence because I'm mentally foggy -- store runs need brain power these days.  I imagine Fridays are more crowded, but I hope going early helps.

I need to find some way to be productive.  Yesterday was a good day because the day was full of productive things -- paid bills, washed sheets, organized paperwork, etc.  The hurdle is my back is stressed so deep cleaning or big projects (organizing pictures) have to wait.

I NEED my physical body back to running at full capacity -- pretty please (!!)

Maybe some of the pains are related to gluten and sugar.  I probably need a break to see if that helps.  *Cue two year old temper tantrum*  I don't want to (!!!)

Can you tell I woke up this morning on edge?  Maybe a long meditation will help.  I'm cranky and restless.  Time for some THINKING to figure this out.

Stay well.  Have a good Thursday!  Later gators.