Some Woo Woo Stuff

I made it through meditation without crying, but I did cry later listening to a podcast (not very much though - hah).

My woo woo for today is about meditation yesterday.  I often start meditation with kind of a prayer and then move to silent meditating.  I asked for help with 2 things -- a relationship with a friend that has become strained and, as always, help getting my eating habits under control.

I looked for something to listen to while I was in the shower and ended up listening to Abraham Hicks short audios.  I listened to the one linked in Instagram stories and then it autoplays.

The next one was about desiring something with such urgency, such intensity that you are resisting the solution.  Yep, my eating desire.

The next one after (they're short) was why you have difficulty with a friend.  It's the energy that I'm putting out is making her energy defensive and the round and round continues.  Break the cycle, approach with love (or a better energy) and the interaction will be better.  Yep, my strained relationship.  I come to the table with an aggressive energy underneath -- totally true.  I tried it and the conversation felt good -- better than it's been in a long time.

Hmmmm.  Thanks, Universe.

I started the menopause book.  It's huge and covers from the science of it to the woo woo of it.  It starts with the woo woo.  Christiane Northrup  says peri-menopause brings up emotions that need to be healed.  Leaving the "mother" hormones behind -- the ones that tell us to take care of everything, do for ourselves last, be the mother figure, etc. brings forth a new independence, new desires.  This can SEEM crazy, out of character ... oh, it's the hormones misbehaving ... but, she says, it's not.  We find our BIG voice in peri-menopause and if we suppress it, it can show up as a dis-ease in menopause.  We come into our truest self when we let this transition happen.

Depending how much we need to heal, the peri-menopause stage can be almost explosive at times.  The more we've worked on our healing, the more gentle the peri-menopause transition.

I'm open to this idea.  It speaks to what I feel right now.  Setting boundaries, speaking my truth, being myself, closing doors, opening other doors, searching.  I can also see this idea in some of the women I know who have gone through menopause -- even though they don't talk about it as menopause.

I think I'm officially a WOO WOO girl.  I don't know why this stuff happens though.  Manifesting -- hate that word.  Focusing on something so it happens.  Desire for it means it's already in the cards.  Not resisting so coming from a better place to find a solution.  The WHY isn't super important to me, but I see the results over and over.  So many times, I can't deny it.  There is some sort of magic in this kind of "work."

I'm a believer.  I'm also a believer in "pray with walking feet." (Quaker quote)  Pray, but also DO.  Prayer isn't passive.  Change isn't passive.  Sometimes DOING is listening, getting quiet, but it's still DOING.

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Now, back to the regular world LOL.

We are having a big old storm right now.  Thunder, hail ... fun times.  These are the moments I'm glad my old dog isn't here -- he was so frightened of storms as he got older.  No dog walking today.

I like my new perfume from Glossier -- You.  At first, I wasn't sure, but it changes scent as it sits on your skin.  Smells a bit different on everyone.  I like it enough that I "wore" it out yesterday.  It goes on a little too sweet, but mellows once I have it on -- I did use too much the first time.

My self-care day was good, including my food.  I ate the exact same thing from Zoe's Kitchen for lunch and dinner.  Salmon and veggies.  It was a healthy eating day.  Automatic portion control.

It inspired me to do a meal delivery service for a bit to get my eating under control (instead of Jenny Craig).  I eat well for a bit, but fall off the wagon too often.  If I'm paying for this (like JC), I'll be inclined to be accountable.  Accountability without getting weighed or doing another Whole30.

Pete's Paleo.  It gets good reviews, organic, well sourced protein and fully cooked.  I ordered the plan for 10 meals/week and I'll see what it's like.  I missed the order date for this week, so it won't start for about a 10 days.  Cancelation at anytime.  No dairy, no gluten, no soy.  Stay tuned -- I'll be giving lots of scoop (and food pictures!).

I have errands and coffee with a friend today.  It'll be short because she volunteers this afternoon (this was the postponement from my flat tire day).  Looks like the storms are bringing in a cool front by midday and finishing the rain until next week.  Wish me luck not floating away LOL.

I had the most comfortable night's sleep.  You know how some nights the bed feels PERFECT.  That was last night.  Me and Duke were snug as a bug all night.  Love that feeling.

Tomorrow is another LONG drive to get Toolie.  Glad it wasn't today.  I need to go check to see if the patio is flooding -- this is a crazy storm.  Stay dry.  Later gators.