Couldn't Sleep ...

... so one more quick 'hello' before my trip.

So jeans sort of fit.  I have a lot of ankle length, roll the bottom kind that aren't great for winter.  One long length fit (phew) and I'm making it work with higher ankle boots for the other, shorter pair.

I've said it before, I have a distorted body image THE OTHER WAY.  I don't feel that much bigger that so much doesn't fit.  That's why I was worried about finding jeans -- I know that I'm underestimating my situation -- clothes don't lie.

The good news is the difference between fitting and not fitting isn't THAT much.  Certainly a few months is plenty of time to get back into fighting shape LOL.

I'm grateful for a non-food centric weekend.  I'm having a moment of clarity and resolve in regard to healthy habits and it will be nice not to step back too far this weekend.

I'm so excited to start Pete's Paleo meals.  Variety, organic, humanly sourced ... and I don't have to cook.  Portion controlled so when dinner is finished, it's finished.  I might add some veggies for more bulk, but that's it.  

We made some progress on the Italy trip yesterday.  Setting a nice, but firm boundary got things moving.  That said, planning a BIG, LONG trip on a travel anxiety day wasn't fun.  I kept reminding myself not this was not that and not to think about THAT until it happens.  (I'm much less anxious this morning -- as always happens.)

My girlfriend is already on the way from CA.  She left 2am my time, connects in ATL and lands only 2 hours before me.  I tried to get on her connection, but it wasn't open for booking.  That seems crazy to me.  Especially since I got to sleep.  I'm up at 3:30, but I went to SLEEP at 7:30.  Got my 8 - hah.

I'm doing a 30 minute yoga workout this morning.  Good for stretching since I'll be sitting a lot.

I have to squeeze all my crap into a carryon -- it's all in packing cubes, but I need some of the stuff to get ready this morning so I haven't actually tried to fit it.  Fingers crossed.  I prefer to check a bag so I don't have the hassle (I have ZERO status), but all to save a buck and ensure my luggage actually gets there.  I might gate check if they offer.

It's good for me to exercise my TRAVEL ALONE muscle.  I can easily feel like I can't do it ... directions, problem solving, taking a Lift, etc.  I absolutely can and I need to keep in practice.  Italy is quickly become a lot of solo travel and that makes me nervous.  Feel the fear, do it anyway.  Anxiety is only a vibration.  I don't want to become THAT person.  Middle-aged woman who's scared of her own shadow -- and that is possible if I'm not careful.  I know myself.

Anyway, lots of morning rambles.  Off for some fun and friendship.  Later gators.