I hate to
I declared a break for my pedicure. I'm shutting off my phone (!!) Then bloody diarrhea and waiting for the vet appointment -- so nope, phone ON and still no appointment.
But, I did okay yesterday.
Pedicure chair was broken and to compensate, I got an extra, extra long massage. YES, thank you! I decided to give my kindle a quick charge and promptly left it on the counter because diarrhea-gate hit. It worked out well. I shut my eyes and RELAXED. It felt good.
I know it seems like I shouldn't NEED to relax -- my "busy" is relative, but I needed an emotional break. I focused on breathing and enjoying the massage. My toes are my favorite blue/gray and I'm happy. Today, is SNS and eyebrows. If Tulip needs her appointment during that time, I'm calling in a favor to hubby and he's taking her. (I okayed a full week ski trip for him in 2 weeks -- this is small in comparison, right?)
I'm trying to let go of the Italy annoyance. It will work out or it won't. If it doesn't, I'm finding a wellness spa and doing exactly what I want -- no compromise. I've set my boundary regarding my "driving the planning bus" with the group and that's that. If a decision takes too long and flights are too expense, I'm out -- just as I said. I have no problem that people might need a few days to think on their decision, but they all saw the message -- you could at least acknowledge it. Even if it's to say, I need a week to look into it. That's the part that's going up my butt -- it's rude in my book. But, being annoyed gets me nowhere but mentally somewhere I don't want to be. Big breath and letting it go (*trying*).
I can't wait to get away this weekend. This is my FAVORITE conversation friend in the universe. We could talk to the end of days and it's never boring stuff. I don't care what we do, I only want to have girl time and take care of NO ONE but me. I need a mental recharge in the biggest way. She is easy and fun and decisions aren't a chore -- no overthinking, no peacocking. I should go to Italy with her - hah! (BTW, Austin is where Jen Hatmaker lives -- wouldn't mind running into her and becoming best friends.)
Pete's Paleo delivery has been processed. I'll start it on Tuesday when I get back. I hope this helps with portion control and food boredom. I've been eating well, but still too much. That said, I feel in a good place to tackle fitting into my clothes.
My intention for today is to go with the flow. Have a good day despite circumstances. Problem solve and not throw my hands up in helplessness. I always have choices, but I'm quick to forget that when stuff gets messy.
Later gators.
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