Again

Yep, another post today.  This day holds a record number of posts and who knows ... maybe more to come.  I'm in a chatty mood and I can use the company (even in fake cyber-land).

Why you ask??  Well, it's the witching hour and today is witching HARD.  All those lovely factors that fell into place this morning are coming to roost this afternoon.  The biggest issue is the stress from this morning.

My youngest called and we talked everything through.  Situation over, resolved, moving on.  The problem is some emotional shadow is lingering.  (Like I needed a big cry and it never came ... that kind of thing.)  I feel sad. Down. Blue.

So, of course, I want chocolate.

I was proactive earlier and cleaned out the refrigerator of leftovers (bacon pizza, mac & cheese) that won't be eaten (since no one is home) and they had potential to haunt me.  I saved some sweet goodies (moved to freezer and pantry to get out of sight) but they are still on my mind.

I never realized how much I turn to food to sooth my emotions until I started Whole30 a couple of years ago.  Now that I'm on this Challenge, I'm finding the same situation as a W30 ... can't eat my feelings away.  I'm grateful to the Challenge (I feel so much better), but there are times I'm angry about it.  Toddler angry -- kicking, screaming, wanting my SWEETS!  I just need to hold on for a few more hours.

When I get this general blue feeling, everything feels upsetting.  (Dog crossed electric fence today, still have that stressful problem lingering ... no resolve yet, dog is sick, weather is crappy, chores seems daunting.)  I know it won't last, but it's hard when it's here.

Some fun news ... I did watch the movie "Unbreakable" and loved it!  It came into play with the movie I saw this weekend and I didn't get the reference.  Now I'm up to speed.  I don't remember ever hearing about this movie.  17 years ago.  Ouch.  I'm getting old.

Okay, I'd like to say I feel better, but no such luck.  I hope the accountability helps though.  Tomorrow will be a better day (fingers crossed).

P.S.  Workout ...12 intervals (that's only 12 minutes) ... wow it was a killer!!
P.P.S.  I ordered my reward for the Challenge.  An inspiration bracelet with any word you want ... I chose BALANCE.  I LOVE that word and everything it means to ME.  BTW ... already to the halfway point of the Challenge.  Yea!!!