A New Day

I had a good night's sleep.  That's lifted some of the fog from yesterday.  My grumpy factor is climbing as it's PMS week, but grumpy is better than sad.

On a surprising note, I'm sore as SHIT today.  Who knew 12 individual minutes could kick my ASS.  (Lots of adult words this morning - the PG version just didn't do my soreness justice.)  I have lift today at noon and, for once, that makes me HAPPY.  I need to move through some of the soreness before I go balls-out again.

This Challenge is a challenge, but I needed some rules to remind me how to push through my crazy brain give-up-everything thoughts.  Without the challenge, I would have eaten sweets (donuts, brownies, chocolate candy, cookies), cheese, wine and pizza this last week (no mac & cheese - too much milk - I have my line lol).  It would have been disastrous.  Mentally yelling at myself, mood extra-extra crappy, bloated, unable to fit into my clothes, workouts crappy, promises broken, feeling defeated.

Instead I feel good (sore and grumpy don't count lol).  I'm proud of myself, back in control, clothes fit well, workouts are great, I feel strong and my general outlook is HAPPIER.  This rough patch would be so much worse if not for clean eating.

As much as I bitch and moan (and will continue to do so - most likely), I am grateful for getting back on-track.  I need the EFFORT part to ease up a bit more (and it will once PMS passes).  It feels too hard to maintain.  Once it gets a little easier, it feels doable again.  The witching hours get me every night.  Since I'm tracking numbers, I'm eating less.  Good?  Bad?  I have no idea.  I'll evaluate after the two weeks is finished.

Today is a list of teeny-tiny chores I want off my plate.  There's a lot, but they are quick.  I don't bother getting all prettied up on lift Tuesdays since my workout is so late.  Best to keep to the house (or grocery store only).  It gives my hair a break from being straightened.

Hard to say if my pup is feeling better yet.  He was down-an-out yesterday.  I'm keeping my eye on him.  Poor baby.

Last night marked the last night of empty nest for a long time.  Someone will be home EVERY NIGHT from now on.  Wow and double wow.  I'll leave it at that - no need to open that can-of-worms this morning.

Choosing to look for the HAPPY today.  My INTENTION is to LET GO of the WORRY today.  There is nothing I need to worry about, yet I still have that feeling lingering.  LET IT GO.