April 21. My son's birthday and their move-in day for an awesome apartment. They chose well - both budget and style. I know they will love it!
We are headed south this morning. It will be a really relaxing trip. No laptop - I have too much crap to bring (as usual). I'll miss posting (especially since I'll have some time on my hands) but I have lots to read. I finished another book last night.
I'm am grateful for a REST day today. Lordy my body needs it. The workout routine is spot on ... the diet ... well NOPE. Ugh and double ugh. We'll talk when I get back. I'm joining another challenge for March (minus the week in Hawaii). I think this is giving me a fuck-it attitude (sorry for the language lol) for the rest of February (since I'm on a mini-vacation).
We are leaving my pup and my house to the kids for the next few days. Hopefully, both will fair well :)
I love traveling with my hubby. Of course I love spending vacation time with him ... BUT also, he has amazing travel status. Hello priority boarding. Hello Sky Club. Hello free Starbuck at said Sky Club. This flight is an up-and-down, less than an hour. The next two trips are mega-flights. This is nice today. This is the first business trip I've tagged along.
I'm seeing an old friend on Monday. Looking forward to catching up. Today I'll be on my own while hubby is at a trade show. Tuesday we're hanging out most of the day and Wednesday morning we're home. Quick.
Okay. HAPPY today with SAFE TRAVELS and that will make a GREAT day! Later gators.
Sunday, February 26, 2017
Saturday, February 25, 2017
HELP.
OMG, I am so SORE! My body is barely moveable. I REALLY need to add some running back. And the arm workout was a killer. I hope the circuit workout today helps (Annissa gave me approval for the back-to-back, but she doesn't know I ran lol). I should have a rest day, but do to my early flight schedules, rest day works much better for tomorrow.
Did I mention, I'm hungover too?!?! I ate well yesterday, but it was a big drinking night. It was a business evening and it was HIGHLY encouraged to partake. No one poured it down my throat, but it was hard to politely say no ... it was more than I wanted to drink. I have that pesky headache just in the background.
And I'm under-slept. We were out late and I needed to be up early this morning. Bed will feel good tonight! The good news is this trip is really low-key and relaxing. Plenty of time for R&R.
Today, I hope to get a partner in circuit. Iwant need easier!
We will spend most of today apartment hunting with the kids. They have all the particulars in order and are ready to make a decision. Probably April. Then packing for the trip ... I'm a super slow packer, but the list is taking form.
My arms are so tired, I had to move my laptop on my lap so I could relax them while I type. Good Lord!
Tomorrow we leave early for Orlando. I might bring my laptop since I'll have a lot of free time. We'll see. So this might be the only post for a bit. We're back Wednesday.
I finished the book yesterday. Loved it. I started another suspense book and am 1/2 way through it. I have a list of books-that-you-stay-up-reading. It hasn't disappointed. I've read a few and I agreed, so I'm working my way through the list.
Allergies are in full swing. Moderate temperatures bloomed a bunch of stuff. I'm blowing snot like crazy.
I watched a documentary on the GI track. Interesting stuff. Weird documentary, but the information was worth the watch. Speaking of weird ... our first Uber driver last night was 8 feet tall ... world's tallest man currently (has the record). He used to be in the circus. Pretty cool, but he was also the world's worst driver - scary. Makes a good story to tell!
Anyway, time to get moving (easier said than done!). HAPPY day with INTENTION of recovery lol!
Did I mention, I'm hungover too?!?! I ate well yesterday, but it was a big drinking night. It was a business evening and it was HIGHLY encouraged to partake. No one poured it down my throat, but it was hard to politely say no ... it was more than I wanted to drink. I have that pesky headache just in the background.
And I'm under-slept. We were out late and I needed to be up early this morning. Bed will feel good tonight! The good news is this trip is really low-key and relaxing. Plenty of time for R&R.
Today, I hope to get a partner in circuit. I
We will spend most of today apartment hunting with the kids. They have all the particulars in order and are ready to make a decision. Probably April. Then packing for the trip ... I'm a super slow packer, but the list is taking form.
My arms are so tired, I had to move my laptop on my lap so I could relax them while I type. Good Lord!
Tomorrow we leave early for Orlando. I might bring my laptop since I'll have a lot of free time. We'll see. So this might be the only post for a bit. We're back Wednesday.
I finished the book yesterday. Loved it. I started another suspense book and am 1/2 way through it. I have a list of books-that-you-stay-up-reading. It hasn't disappointed. I've read a few and I agreed, so I'm working my way through the list.
Allergies are in full swing. Moderate temperatures bloomed a bunch of stuff. I'm blowing snot like crazy.
I watched a documentary on the GI track. Interesting stuff. Weird documentary, but the information was worth the watch. Speaking of weird ... our first Uber driver last night was 8 feet tall ... world's tallest man currently (has the record). He used to be in the circus. Pretty cool, but he was also the world's worst driver - scary. Makes a good story to tell!
Anyway, time to get moving (easier said than done!). HAPPY day with INTENTION of recovery lol!
Friday, February 24, 2017
One Done
Run is in the books. I'm ALREADY stiff. Oh boy. It felt good (and hard) to have some sustained cardio. I need to add back at least one cardio day during the week. Next up - arm day.
I'm sore in my hamstrings -- no surprise there. But I'm also sore in my lower back -- that's different. Is it from not running for a month? Or tired from lifting yesterday? Don't know. Everything feels sore, but not injured so I think all is well.
It was such a nice morning. Cool, crisp, birds chirping. Only downside is on a Friday there is lots of traffic. About 15 cars - but I jump up on the sidewalk when they pass. That's the advantage to dark and no headphones -- easy to see and hear cars coming.
Then I took the pup for an off leash "run" which ended up being a walk. I think he's out of habit for running too lol. He was SOUND asleep when I got him up but very excited when he figured out the wake-up call.
I miss my journalling here. It's been hit or miss and quick posts. I miss "thinking" about my day, my goals, etc.
February was off the mark with some of my stuff (hola Spanish). March needs to do better! Not having my alone time to think, and do, and be -- it's just interrupted my healthy habits. No excuse. I need to figure out another way.
Funny how EVERYTHING seems possible with endorphins. Thank you RUN. I missed you too.
I'm sore in my hamstrings -- no surprise there. But I'm also sore in my lower back -- that's different. Is it from not running for a month? Or tired from lifting yesterday? Don't know. Everything feels sore, but not injured so I think all is well.
It was such a nice morning. Cool, crisp, birds chirping. Only downside is on a Friday there is lots of traffic. About 15 cars - but I jump up on the sidewalk when they pass. That's the advantage to dark and no headphones -- easy to see and hear cars coming.
Then I took the pup for an off leash "run" which ended up being a walk. I think he's out of habit for running too lol. He was SOUND asleep when I got him up but very excited when he figured out the wake-up call.
I miss my journalling here. It's been hit or miss and quick posts. I miss "thinking" about my day, my goals, etc.
February was off the mark with some of my stuff (hola Spanish). March needs to do better! Not having my alone time to think, and do, and be -- it's just interrupted my healthy habits. No excuse. I need to figure out another way.
Funny how EVERYTHING seems possible with endorphins. Thank you RUN. I missed you too.
Crazy Reprieve
I feel better today. Alone time yesterday took the edge off my CRAZY lol.
Anyway, I'm up early this morning to RUN. Yep, RUN!! Of course my ankle and knee feel a bit off (Murphy's Law), but I am jones-ing for a good sweat (and I have new running shoes!!!). Weight lifting is great, but I hardly sweat. I want to breath hard, sweat lots and have that endorphin feeling. I also have arm day at the studio. Double workout - big no-no, but today I don't care. The run will be easy and maybe short too. My legs feel okay from yesterday. A number of people were tired, so she kept the workout light. That bugs me. We can all modify based on what we feel like that day - I didn't need a light workout.
In just a few minutes, I'll have the first of my people up. Then one working from home. Today will not be alone time.
In some less-bitchy news ... I'm reading a great book FINALLY! It honestly feels like forever since I read something I enjoyed. War & Peace followed by 2 less-than-good books that were gifts. Awesome suspense book - back on my kindle - perfect. I wanted to finished it last night, but I forced myself to stop.
And P.S. I blew off book club. The book was bad, I couldn't find the e-vite and we are going out tonight. Too many "checks" on the con-side.
Tonight is a dinner with my hubby's business associate and his wife. Drinks here first (got talked into that one) followed by a fancy steakhouse. Should be a good night. Tomorrow is apartment hunting with the kids and Sunday we leave for Orlando. Hopefully, I'll check in before we leave.
I plan on finding some HAPPY today ... starting with a run. Wish me luck! Later gators.
Anyway, I'm up early this morning to RUN. Yep, RUN!! Of course my ankle and knee feel a bit off (Murphy's Law), but I am jones-ing for a good sweat (and I have new running shoes!!!). Weight lifting is great, but I hardly sweat. I want to breath hard, sweat lots and have that endorphin feeling. I also have arm day at the studio. Double workout - big no-no, but today I don't care. The run will be easy and maybe short too. My legs feel okay from yesterday. A number of people were tired, so she kept the workout light. That bugs me. We can all modify based on what we feel like that day - I didn't need a light workout.
In just a few minutes, I'll have the first of my people up. Then one working from home. Today will not be alone time.
In some less-bitchy news ... I'm reading a great book FINALLY! It honestly feels like forever since I read something I enjoyed. War & Peace followed by 2 less-than-good books that were gifts. Awesome suspense book - back on my kindle - perfect. I wanted to finished it last night, but I forced myself to stop.
And P.S. I blew off book club. The book was bad, I couldn't find the e-vite and we are going out tonight. Too many "checks" on the con-side.
Tonight is a dinner with my hubby's business associate and his wife. Drinks here first (got talked into that one) followed by a fancy steakhouse. Should be a good night. Tomorrow is apartment hunting with the kids and Sunday we leave for Orlando. Hopefully, I'll check in before we leave.
I plan on finding some HAPPY today ... starting with a run. Wish me luck! Later gators.
Thursday, February 23, 2017
MIA
My house is full. There is ALWAYS someone here. It's messing with me. I've been MIA from posting because I can't find my space.
I need alone time. Always have, always will. I'm in that place right now where there is very little alone time in the foreseeable future. Everyday someone is working from home or has a day off or is home early. (Insert SCREAM) It's rattling me.
I'm struggling to find my HAPPY place. So I'm grumpy. And grumpy about everything. It's permeating everything. Ugh.
I know I need it and I'm trying very hard to get it. Going upstairs early to be in bed (read, relax, be alone) and hubby comes in 4 times to interrupt my time, to chat, to ask a question. GO AWAY!! I can't find my space. Interrupted time doesn't count. It doesn't fix the issue. Everywhere I am, someone needs something from me, someone interrupts my time.
I realize I sound like a crazy woman (I sort of feel like it too). I get this way when I need some space.
Once my son leaves for work, I should have some time today ... hopefully. Every time I think I'll get some space, someone else fills it. Then the grumpy hits full force.
UGH. Thanks for listening. I hope CRAZY ME will calm down. Everyone probably hopes the same lol.
I need alone time. Always have, always will. I'm in that place right now where there is very little alone time in the foreseeable future. Everyday someone is working from home or has a day off or is home early. (Insert SCREAM) It's rattling me.
I'm struggling to find my HAPPY place. So I'm grumpy. And grumpy about everything. It's permeating everything. Ugh.
I know I need it and I'm trying very hard to get it. Going upstairs early to be in bed (read, relax, be alone) and hubby comes in 4 times to interrupt my time, to chat, to ask a question. GO AWAY!! I can't find my space. Interrupted time doesn't count. It doesn't fix the issue. Everywhere I am, someone needs something from me, someone interrupts my time.
I realize I sound like a crazy woman (I sort of feel like it too). I get this way when I need some space.
Once my son leaves for work, I should have some time today ... hopefully. Every time I think I'll get some space, someone else fills it. Then the grumpy hits full force.
UGH. Thanks for listening. I hope CRAZY ME will calm down. Everyone probably hopes the same lol.
Monday, February 20, 2017
Super quick
This will probably need to be a swift and concise post. Lots of working-from-home today and I hear them stirring.
Yesterday was a hot mess on the eating front. I gave up, gave in and just eat crap all day. Boo on me. The only good news is I have it out of my system again. I felt like I "needed" that day. Of course, I didn't or shouldn't ... but I did so now I need to move on.
I have a number of theories to why the day-of-crap happens. No time to write them this morning.
My muscles are tired this morning. Hike yesterday and 3 days of working out prior have left me tired. I'm on the fence about a rest day or a cardio day. I'll have to think on that one. Let my body stretch a little. Tomorrow is a full body and I want to be rested. We'll see ...
I'm going to get an pedicure appointment at the new place today. That's another hot-mess area. And my fingernail polish is not holding up well. I need to make a switch for my fingers too.
Okay, that's the down and dirty (too much dirty to report). Post-of-shame except I don't feel a lot of shame ... which makes it more shameful lol.
Yesterday was a hot mess on the eating front. I gave up, gave in and just eat crap all day. Boo on me. The only good news is I have it out of my system again. I felt like I "needed" that day. Of course, I didn't or shouldn't ... but I did so now I need to move on.
I have a number of theories to why the day-of-crap happens. No time to write them this morning.
My muscles are tired this morning. Hike yesterday and 3 days of working out prior have left me tired. I'm on the fence about a rest day or a cardio day. I'll have to think on that one. Let my body stretch a little. Tomorrow is a full body and I want to be rested. We'll see ...
I'm going to get an pedicure appointment at the new place today. That's another hot-mess area. And my fingernail polish is not holding up well. I need to make a switch for my fingers too.
Okay, that's the down and dirty (too much dirty to report). Post-of-shame except I don't feel a lot of shame ... which makes it more shameful lol.
Sunday, February 19, 2017
Day 2
Up early to prep for brunch after a dog hike. House is still quiet and now prepped and ready. Up early was hard this morning since we were up so late (and a bit of a food coma - chocolate, cheese and wine).
The hike will be fun - dogs off leash and a pretty setting. Brunch is an egg bake (W30-style) with the usual breakfast options thrown in. Then I get a break from entertaining cooking. I always have a bit of insecurity when I cook for people.
Rest day otherwise which is good. My muscles are tired. I did a combo workout yesterday and stopped when my neck gave me some grief. All is well though (I was a bit concerned that stiff-neck-thing was back). I want to run outside tomorrow. I'm jonesing (if that's a word - according to spell-check it is NOT lol) for some straight up cardio. The bummer is my running shoes are on order (only size not in stock). I have a large hole (and some small holes) and my pinky toe gets stuck. It's kind of funny, but I don't know if I can run with the hole. Guess I'll play it by ear. I might opt for just a regular run on the treadmill. Holiday tomorrow means no traffic to bother a run ... it's tempting to try! I might duck tape the hole.
We are MASSIVELY stocked with wine. I'm not sure why this popped into my head. Costco had a $80 bottle for $27 and we got a few more to have on hand. We drank almost 5 bottles last night, but with wine gifted we remain full lol.
I image I will crave some wine tonight. Glad there are no open bottles. Chocolate is gone too. There's hope for a healthy day. In this moment, healthy sounds perfect. Witching hours always tell another story though - especially after last night.
Okay, best to go get ready. Busy morning, birds started chirping and I image the people and dogs will be up soon. Later gators.
The hike will be fun - dogs off leash and a pretty setting. Brunch is an egg bake (W30-style) with the usual breakfast options thrown in. Then I get a break from entertaining cooking. I always have a bit of insecurity when I cook for people.
Rest day otherwise which is good. My muscles are tired. I did a combo workout yesterday and stopped when my neck gave me some grief. All is well though (I was a bit concerned that stiff-neck-thing was back). I want to run outside tomorrow. I'm jonesing (if that's a word - according to spell-check it is NOT lol) for some straight up cardio. The bummer is my running shoes are on order (only size not in stock). I have a large hole (and some small holes) and my pinky toe gets stuck. It's kind of funny, but I don't know if I can run with the hole. Guess I'll play it by ear. I might opt for just a regular run on the treadmill. Holiday tomorrow means no traffic to bother a run ... it's tempting to try! I might duck tape the hole.
We are MASSIVELY stocked with wine. I'm not sure why this popped into my head. Costco had a $80 bottle for $27 and we got a few more to have on hand. We drank almost 5 bottles last night, but with wine gifted we remain full lol.
I image I will crave some wine tonight. Glad there are no open bottles. Chocolate is gone too. There's hope for a healthy day. In this moment, healthy sounds perfect. Witching hours always tell another story though - especially after last night.
Okay, best to go get ready. Busy morning, birds started chirping and I image the people and dogs will be up soon. Later gators.
Saturday, February 18, 2017
2 Aunties, 2 Uncles, 2 Dogs, 2 Kids and a Hubby
FULL house today. Weekend guests, dinner party, dog fun and lots of work before it all begins.
I opted out of the Circuit class this morning. She frowns on 3 days in a row. I'm doing a home workout with just the muscles that are rested lol. That also gave me some sleep-in room. Arms day was just okay. I'm going back to adding arms to legs day (when I get home). Not worth missing Circuit day.
I have lots of prep before the first guests arrive in the afternoon. Today will be an eating and drinking evening. Tomorrow will be back to normal. Fingers crossed because, well, you all know me.
I started taking probiotics (the ones my son's doctor recommended for him). Costco had a big rebate and it's loads cheaper than Kombucha. I'll see if it helps. My Kombucha habit needs to go away -- it's just too expensive to justify. Starbucks and 2 Kombucha is a big daily hit to the old wallet. I'll reserve it for "occasions" when I don't want to drink.
My word bracelet came. BALANCE. LOVE IT!! I looks good with my watch too lol. I ordered one for a friend with her word -- PAUSE. I'll see her next week. I love giving a surprise!!
Time to get at it. Busy, busy and then FUN FUN!! Later gators.
I opted out of the Circuit class this morning. She frowns on 3 days in a row. I'm doing a home workout with just the muscles that are rested lol. That also gave me some sleep-in room. Arms day was just okay. I'm going back to adding arms to legs day (when I get home). Not worth missing Circuit day.
I have lots of prep before the first guests arrive in the afternoon. Today will be an eating and drinking evening. Tomorrow will be back to normal. Fingers crossed because, well, you all know me.
I started taking probiotics (the ones my son's doctor recommended for him). Costco had a big rebate and it's loads cheaper than Kombucha. I'll see if it helps. My Kombucha habit needs to go away -- it's just too expensive to justify. Starbucks and 2 Kombucha is a big daily hit to the old wallet. I'll reserve it for "occasions" when I don't want to drink.
My word bracelet came. BALANCE. LOVE IT!! I looks good with my watch too lol. I ordered one for a friend with her word -- PAUSE. I'll see her next week. I love giving a surprise!!
Time to get at it. Busy, busy and then FUN FUN!! Later gators.
Thursday, February 16, 2017
Remember to remember
With the Challenge over (a new one coming in March probably), I need to remember my other motivators.
Hello Hawaii!! It's coming and I CAN'T WAIT! One month away and I want to FEEL GREAT. I have to keep to my healthy habits. This trip will be tons of outdoor hikes, ocean adventures, helicopter ride and lots of healthy food. Some crappy pantry raids DO NOT equal a fantastic trip to PARADISE.
Remember to remember!!
My reasons "why" tend to get lost if I don't remind myself regularly. Tony Robbins preaches this a lot. Revisit your goals. Revisit your "whys." I think that will be my March "improvements." Make a list, check that list ... and repeat.
Spanish is getting started next week (provided Rosetta Stone works on my computer). I want to see if I can actually make progress.
It's time to get moving on ME again! I took a break in January and while it felt good for a hot minute, I'm ready to get back to it.
Oooops ... kids up. See you later!
Hello Hawaii!! It's coming and I CAN'T WAIT! One month away and I want to FEEL GREAT. I have to keep to my healthy habits. This trip will be tons of outdoor hikes, ocean adventures, helicopter ride and lots of healthy food. Some crappy pantry raids DO NOT equal a fantastic trip to PARADISE.
Remember to remember!!
My reasons "why" tend to get lost if I don't remind myself regularly. Tony Robbins preaches this a lot. Revisit your goals. Revisit your "whys." I think that will be my March "improvements." Make a list, check that list ... and repeat.
Spanish is getting started next week (provided Rosetta Stone works on my computer). I want to see if I can actually make progress.
It's time to get moving on ME again! I took a break in January and while it felt good for a hot minute, I'm ready to get back to it.
Oooops ... kids up. See you later!
Wednesday, February 15, 2017
Night Post
So maybe I need to do more posting at night. We'll see. My routine is a bit jumbled, but I'm holding on to the parts I can.
I got my free manicure today. It looks good. I'll try a new place for a pedicure soon.
My eating was spot on. I don't know if it was "allowing" myself what I wanted, not worrying about macro counting and calories or just a good night. I'm glad to have a good night.
The movie was just okay, but a nice interlude in the afternoon. I made dinner for the gang tonight (and ate my own stuff). It was an easy day. Sun came out, so even the dog got a walk.
Tomorrow is lift leg day - oh boy! And then shopping and lunch with my son's girlfriend. Leftovers for dinner and that will be that!
Okay - posting at night gets me tired -- FAST. I think I'll read a few pages and hit the hay. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a regular (early) post. Night-night.
I got my free manicure today. It looks good. I'll try a new place for a pedicure soon.
My eating was spot on. I don't know if it was "allowing" myself what I wanted, not worrying about macro counting and calories or just a good night. I'm glad to have a good night.
The movie was just okay, but a nice interlude in the afternoon. I made dinner for the gang tonight (and ate my own stuff). It was an easy day. Sun came out, so even the dog got a walk.
Tomorrow is lift leg day - oh boy! And then shopping and lunch with my son's girlfriend. Leftovers for dinner and that will be that!
Okay - posting at night gets me tired -- FAST. I think I'll read a few pages and hit the hay. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a regular (early) post. Night-night.
Cookies Won
My treat was some fresh baked cookies. I made the dough (ate some of it), baked a batch and threw out the rest. Win--ish I'd say. I stopped when I had enough. Stayed clear of the chocolate and the wine.
Anyway, today is a workout REST day. My legs are cooked from yesterday's crazy tough workout. My entire body was shaking by the end. It was AWESOME!
Today is a movie day (in my house) with a friend and some errands ahead of it. Rainy day. Good day to be in and chilling. My cooking is done, so a break from the kitchen and the grocery store for one day lol.
I'm having a nail dilemma. If you remember (ha) I had the horrible manicure and was promised a free re-do. I'm not pumped about it though. I think I want to go crawling back to my old salon (or try something new). The price is good, the attitude is not. Should I take the free one and then call it quits? Now that there's a "bad apple" in the mix of techs and they don't do appointments, I'm not as thrilled with the place anymore. I'm not one to ask for free, but this time it deserves it. I'll have to think on it a bit. I know -- not a problem -- but for some reason it's bugging me to go back. And my nails need to be fixed up!! This is a WORTH-IT moment decision in life. Hmmm ...
I've tabled the Spanish until next week. The dinner-out which became company-in went from 4 to 6 to 8. It's now a full fledged dinner party. Got to get working on it this week. Fun, but work, but fun!
Today's intention is back to HEALTHY HABITS. I don't want to undo my Challenge work. I should be back to going-with-the-flow. Night time is a bugger lately. I need to figure out a fix for it. My GOALS are working on strength and I can't see results with crappy eating.
Okay, I'm off to get this day started. Wish me luck and good results! I think I need it today.
Anyway, today is a workout REST day. My legs are cooked from yesterday's crazy tough workout. My entire body was shaking by the end. It was AWESOME!
Today is a movie day (in my house) with a friend and some errands ahead of it. Rainy day. Good day to be in and chilling. My cooking is done, so a break from the kitchen and the grocery store for one day lol.
I'm having a nail dilemma. If you remember (ha) I had the horrible manicure and was promised a free re-do. I'm not pumped about it though. I think I want to go crawling back to my old salon (or try something new). The price is good, the attitude is not. Should I take the free one and then call it quits? Now that there's a "bad apple" in the mix of techs and they don't do appointments, I'm not as thrilled with the place anymore. I'm not one to ask for free, but this time it deserves it. I'll have to think on it a bit. I know -- not a problem -- but for some reason it's bugging me to go back. And my nails need to be fixed up!! This is a WORTH-IT moment decision in life. Hmmm ...
I've tabled the Spanish until next week. The dinner-out which became company-in went from 4 to 6 to 8. It's now a full fledged dinner party. Got to get working on it this week. Fun, but work, but fun!
Today's intention is back to HEALTHY HABITS. I don't want to undo my Challenge work. I should be back to going-with-the-flow. Night time is a bugger lately. I need to figure out a fix for it. My GOALS are working on strength and I can't see results with crappy eating.
Okay, I'm off to get this day started. Wish me luck and good results! I think I need it today.
Tuesday, February 14, 2017
Another late post.
Yep, full-house messing with my mojo. There is some good news on the horizon ... the move out date might be moved up significantly as a job situation has changed for the better. It's all good though. I'm not as freaked out as I was yesterday lol.
I'm leaving for lifting shortly. Tuesday is my home day since my workout is so late. I have the cooking started and I'll finish it out this afternoon.
Today is officially the last day of the challenge. RAISE THE ROOF! I did okay yesterday - maybe a few too many nuts, but overall compliant. Nuts are off my list now. I don't love them and they pack a huge calorie and fat punch.
I'd like to say tonight I will be good, but I imagine a sweet treat is on the menu. It's Valentine's Day and I'm spending the evening alone. I know I'll look for something special. The trick is keeping it to a reasonable treat. END of something always creates a little backlash for me. But I feel good and I don't want to undo it all. My stomach is feeling really good this morning. I hate to ruin it.
But I will make a WORTH-IT decision later tonight. Maybe I don't need a treat so much as I need to eat without caring about logging. Enjoy MORE good food, not add JUNK to the mix. Hmmm ... I'll think on this one.
Have to run though. Lift class is calling!!
I'm leaving for lifting shortly. Tuesday is my home day since my workout is so late. I have the cooking started and I'll finish it out this afternoon.
Today is officially the last day of the challenge. RAISE THE ROOF! I did okay yesterday - maybe a few too many nuts, but overall compliant. Nuts are off my list now. I don't love them and they pack a huge calorie and fat punch.
I'd like to say tonight I will be good, but I imagine a sweet treat is on the menu. It's Valentine's Day and I'm spending the evening alone. I know I'll look for something special. The trick is keeping it to a reasonable treat. END of something always creates a little backlash for me. But I feel good and I don't want to undo it all. My stomach is feeling really good this morning. I hate to ruin it.
But I will make a WORTH-IT decision later tonight. Maybe I don't need a treat so much as I need to eat without caring about logging. Enjoy MORE good food, not add JUNK to the mix. Hmmm ... I'll think on this one.
Have to run though. Lift class is calling!!
Monday, February 13, 2017
MIA for a minute
I guess a full house makes posting a little more tricky. I didn't get any chance yesterday.
So here's the low-down.
Since I've done my 2 weeks of logging (I started before the official date), I was slack with some treats over the weekend. I'm not sure why. Stress? Period cravings? Nothing horrible (and no alcohol) but I wanted those sweets. I seem over it today (but it's early!)
I realized yesterday, I've done nothing with my Spanish this month. I need to get moving on it.
Having a house-guest is stressful. And it't nothing she's done - she's perfectly lovely. Having ANY house-guest is stressful. I don't feel relaxed. I know there is an adjustment period and it will take a hot minute for this to become "normal." I'm just bummed about it. I have to be VERY careful not to eat my feelings on this one.
I'm writing later morning today (full house syndrome this morning). It doesn't feel the same. I'm kind of in a funk today.
On that sad, pathetic note, I'm going to get my day going. Dog walk, Starbucks, Trader Joe's and the final episode of season 1 The Crown.
Hopefully, tomorrow I'll have my pep back. Later gators.
So here's the low-down.
Since I've done my 2 weeks of logging (I started before the official date), I was slack with some treats over the weekend. I'm not sure why. Stress? Period cravings? Nothing horrible (and no alcohol) but I wanted those sweets. I seem over it today (but it's early!)
I realized yesterday, I've done nothing with my Spanish this month. I need to get moving on it.
Having a house-guest is stressful. And it't nothing she's done - she's perfectly lovely. Having ANY house-guest is stressful. I don't feel relaxed. I know there is an adjustment period and it will take a hot minute for this to become "normal." I'm just bummed about it. I have to be VERY careful not to eat my feelings on this one.
I'm writing later morning today (full house syndrome this morning). It doesn't feel the same. I'm kind of in a funk today.
On that sad, pathetic note, I'm going to get my day going. Dog walk, Starbucks, Trader Joe's and the final episode of season 1 The Crown.
Hopefully, tomorrow I'll have my pep back. Later gators.
Saturday, February 11, 2017
Full Nest
Yesterday was a very nice day. The move-in went smoothly, the dogs met (and eventually got along) and the nest is now full.
Dinner was great (minus a wacky, strange server lol). I had lots of good choices to make - perfectly compliant. My "splurge" was kick-up deviled eggs - YUM! Dinner was an aged filet and roasted veggies. I stayed clear of bread basket and the vino -- both without much effort. It helped that I was still feeling crampy and I actually have HALF my meal for left-overs. That never happens.
I am grateful for this challenge. The last few days I've been on solid ground. It's been awhile since I've felt strong and confident. I don't want to jinx it (ha ha) so I'll leave it at that.
I have circuit training this morning. It's a fun class. I'll try for "single" again on the rotation, but I will go with the flow either way. Last week was amazingly hard - LOVED it. I wonder if today will be scaled back a bit. Lots of people sore and tired on Thursday - she might ease up. I'm well recovered - hello extra rest day.
We are dog sitting for the day today. I'll use the time at home to cook some stuff. And that's it. No plans yet. We are playing it by ear. I'm thinking a movie night in the basement sounds fun, but we'll give the kids some room if they want to have the basement. It's their first weekend together so I'm giving them space and choices.
I'm a gal of few words this morning. Off to make this a HAPPY day and my INTENTION is POSITIVITY ... go with the flow with a SMILE on my face. Later gators.
Dinner was great (minus a wacky, strange server lol). I had lots of good choices to make - perfectly compliant. My "splurge" was kick-up deviled eggs - YUM! Dinner was an aged filet and roasted veggies. I stayed clear of bread basket and the vino -- both without much effort. It helped that I was still feeling crampy and I actually have HALF my meal for left-overs. That never happens.
I am grateful for this challenge. The last few days I've been on solid ground. It's been awhile since I've felt strong and confident. I don't want to jinx it (ha ha) so I'll leave it at that.
I have circuit training this morning. It's a fun class. I'll try for "single" again on the rotation, but I will go with the flow either way. Last week was amazingly hard - LOVED it. I wonder if today will be scaled back a bit. Lots of people sore and tired on Thursday - she might ease up. I'm well recovered - hello extra rest day.
We are dog sitting for the day today. I'll use the time at home to cook some stuff. And that's it. No plans yet. We are playing it by ear. I'm thinking a movie night in the basement sounds fun, but we'll give the kids some room if they want to have the basement. It's their first weekend together so I'm giving them space and choices.
I'm a gal of few words this morning. Off to make this a HAPPY day and my INTENTION is POSITIVITY ... go with the flow with a SMILE on my face. Later gators.
Friday, February 10, 2017
Friday - Weekend Begins
Busy, busy morning. I postponed Costco again so I have a bunch of things to get through before company arrives (and they are coming a little earlier than expected).
I'm choosing to look at this experience in a positive light. I saw a Tony Robbins quote ... paraphrasing ... the words you use to describe your experience BECOME your experience. I need better words. This can (and will) be a good experience if I frame it that way -- choose to see the positive, not dwell on the loss (my empty nest lol), but focus on the gain.
In other news -- PMS over. Crampy all night, but it can only get better from here. I should feel well by tonight or tomorrow at the latest.
My dog is beautiful and smells sweet again. Leg day was good (not as hard as I expected) and I did some arms when I got home. Another rest day today. Crown was awesome - only one more episode.
Plans for tomorrow got postponed. I'm not horribly disappointed. Top Golf is super fun, but always a huge wait and super busy. Since this is Valentine's weekend, I bet it was going to be over-the-top crazy. And we are going out tonight.
I see an ease in my ROUTINE, my healthy RYTHM during the witching hours. It won't be perfect (never is) but the level 8 or 9 is down to a 2 or 3. Very manageable. The pantry has quieted down (even though it's full). Cheese doesn't entice me either. I LOVE drinking the kombucha in the afternoon. It's a healthier routine and it helps with the afternoon munchies.
I read something (a blog or FB post) and the person mentioned loving RITUAL DRINKING. Yes! That's me. Ritual in the morning (coffee and tea ... same mugs, etc). Starbucks sipping late morning. I LOVE going to a coffee shop. I think the desire for wine is more the enjoyment of the RITUAL. Kombucha has given me a healthy RITUAL. It's helped quell the desire for wine at home (non-social occasions). Realizing what the craving is about has helped me form a better habit. Progress.
Okay - time to get cleaning and my errands run. This morning will fly by. My INTENTION today is to choose BETTER WORDS. HAPPY is always available and I will make it a HAPPY day.
I'm choosing to look at this experience in a positive light. I saw a Tony Robbins quote ... paraphrasing ... the words you use to describe your experience BECOME your experience. I need better words. This can (and will) be a good experience if I frame it that way -- choose to see the positive, not dwell on the loss (my empty nest lol), but focus on the gain.
In other news -- PMS over. Crampy all night, but it can only get better from here. I should feel well by tonight or tomorrow at the latest.
My dog is beautiful and smells sweet again. Leg day was good (not as hard as I expected) and I did some arms when I got home. Another rest day today. Crown was awesome - only one more episode.
Plans for tomorrow got postponed. I'm not horribly disappointed. Top Golf is super fun, but always a huge wait and super busy. Since this is Valentine's weekend, I bet it was going to be over-the-top crazy. And we are going out tonight.
I see an ease in my ROUTINE, my healthy RYTHM during the witching hours. It won't be perfect (never is) but the level 8 or 9 is down to a 2 or 3. Very manageable. The pantry has quieted down (even though it's full). Cheese doesn't entice me either. I LOVE drinking the kombucha in the afternoon. It's a healthier routine and it helps with the afternoon munchies.
I read something (a blog or FB post) and the person mentioned loving RITUAL DRINKING. Yes! That's me. Ritual in the morning (coffee and tea ... same mugs, etc). Starbucks sipping late morning. I LOVE going to a coffee shop. I think the desire for wine is more the enjoyment of the RITUAL. Kombucha has given me a healthy RITUAL. It's helped quell the desire for wine at home (non-social occasions). Realizing what the craving is about has helped me form a better habit. Progress.
Okay - time to get cleaning and my errands run. This morning will fly by. My INTENTION today is to choose BETTER WORDS. HAPPY is always available and I will make it a HAPPY day.
Thursday, February 9, 2017
Temporary End of a Chapter
Today is the last day before we gain a live-in roommate. This is the first time I've lived with someone (other than family) for over 20 years. It will be an opportunity to grow, appreciate and a lesson in patience and ego (probably). Lordy, I don't even share a hotel room with non-family lol! I need to remember to stay nice and share well. Wish us all luck :-)
Yum - just brewed my new flavor combo coffee. It's a good one. Sprouts has 3 flavored decaf blends - and I just mix and match before I grind it.
Today is a busy and fun day. Dog to groomer (he stinks!!), me to Lift (leg day - ouch) followed in the afternoon with an episode or two of the Crown. I have some house stuff wedged in-between and after it all and that will round out the day. Eldest is flying home on a late flight. I won't see him until tomorrow.
I'm doing well on the Challenge. I'm curious to see what I do after the 2 weeks. Do I continue to log? It keeps me honest, but it also changes up some of my eating (maybe for the better??). As I said before, I love W30 eating because I don't feel like I'm on a diet. Tracking feels diet-like, but it is easier than I thought. We'll all have to stay tuned for this nail-biter ...
Lunch with my gal-pal was great (as usual). We are SO on the same page with our goals and intentions this year. It was nice to chat about it all.
I didn't make it to Costco (but I did walk the dog lol). Instead, I went and bought a purse I've been eyeing up. I LOVE a big bag. I use this travel tote I have non-stop and it's worn out BUT I chose it all the time. I needed something big to replace it. I've decided medium-sized bags aren't enough. I'm rocking the BIG BAG and LOVING it! It's different from my usual style (but a great neutral still). I'm picky about my bags - comfort and usability are #1. I hope I thought about this one long enough to get-to-know it. We'll see today during my Costco run!
My eating routine at night is getting easier again. I'm not mentally pacing the pantry over and over. Strangely, it's easier, but yet it feels unsustainable. I don't know why (this could be PMS talking). The thought of "most" days like this feels gloomy (okay, this is probably PMS). Never mind. If I still feel this way next week, we'll talk lol.
I'm still surprised by the different calorie consumption day-to-day. The difference in protein calories is HUGE. Something that I'll keep my eye on. I tend to eat a lot of beef (it's easy to have on hand - and easy recipes) and that's a big hitter. I need to incorporate a better variety of white meat and fish. I AM learning.
I'm a smidge disappointed (yet also happy) there has been no additional feedback to my diet. I keep getting good marks. I hoped there was low lying fruit to improve something. But the Challenge is still going. W30 is a healthy way to eat - that's good news.
HAPPY day ahead. Intention is GOOD THOUGHTS today. Later gators!
Yum - just brewed my new flavor combo coffee. It's a good one. Sprouts has 3 flavored decaf blends - and I just mix and match before I grind it.
Today is a busy and fun day. Dog to groomer (he stinks!!), me to Lift (leg day - ouch) followed in the afternoon with an episode or two of the Crown. I have some house stuff wedged in-between and after it all and that will round out the day. Eldest is flying home on a late flight. I won't see him until tomorrow.
I'm doing well on the Challenge. I'm curious to see what I do after the 2 weeks. Do I continue to log? It keeps me honest, but it also changes up some of my eating (maybe for the better??). As I said before, I love W30 eating because I don't feel like I'm on a diet. Tracking feels diet-like, but it is easier than I thought. We'll all have to stay tuned for this nail-biter ...
Lunch with my gal-pal was great (as usual). We are SO on the same page with our goals and intentions this year. It was nice to chat about it all.
I didn't make it to Costco (but I did walk the dog lol). Instead, I went and bought a purse I've been eyeing up. I LOVE a big bag. I use this travel tote I have non-stop and it's worn out BUT I chose it all the time. I needed something big to replace it. I've decided medium-sized bags aren't enough. I'm rocking the BIG BAG and LOVING it! It's different from my usual style (but a great neutral still). I'm picky about my bags - comfort and usability are #1. I hope I thought about this one long enough to get-to-know it. We'll see today during my Costco run!
My eating routine at night is getting easier again. I'm not mentally pacing the pantry over and over. Strangely, it's easier, but yet it feels unsustainable. I don't know why (this could be PMS talking). The thought of "most" days like this feels gloomy (okay, this is probably PMS). Never mind. If I still feel this way next week, we'll talk lol.
I'm still surprised by the different calorie consumption day-to-day. The difference in protein calories is HUGE. Something that I'll keep my eye on. I tend to eat a lot of beef (it's easy to have on hand - and easy recipes) and that's a big hitter. I need to incorporate a better variety of white meat and fish. I AM learning.
I'm a smidge disappointed (yet also happy) there has been no additional feedback to my diet. I keep getting good marks. I hoped there was low lying fruit to improve something. But the Challenge is still going. W30 is a healthy way to eat - that's good news.
HAPPY day ahead. Intention is GOOD THOUGHTS today. Later gators!
Wednesday, February 8, 2017
Hump Day
Even with hubby home and some snoring in my ear, I slept well.
Weightlifting HARD makes me sleep soundly. And it was HARD. LOVED IT!! I have the STRENGTH bug in a big way. It seems I made a "jump" in my strength this week (and it was noticed) - fantastic. Anissa says it's because I'm finally honoring REST days. Touche Anissa!
And I got an A+ on my eating log. I'm a sick teacher's pet. It's a thing. Always has been. Oh, that perfectionist all-or-nothing permeates lots of areas in my life. Serves me well sometimes and you know the rest.
But this morning I'm basking in my progress (the witching hours will tell another tale lol) ... I'll take the win moments. Waking up CONTENT, HAPPY, ENERGIZED ... I needed this boost.
Todayshould will be a fun. The morning is gourmet grocery store runs (Starbucks too). No dog walk - raining, yucky today again. Then lunch with a friend. Aquarium got changed (we'll go soon though) to a hike, a hike got rained-out to lunch and shopping. After, it's Costco for some big stuff.
The witching hours should be shorter tonight since I'll be running around all afternoon. Hubby has a business dinner so I need to be careful this evening.
Funny story, I came across a recommendation for a meditation app -- calm.com. It's a fee based service but sounds like the help I need to move mediation into my routine. I signed up, error ... signed up again, error. Then I get worried it is billing my card each time. So much for a relaxing experience lol. I haven't figured it out yet (but nothing billed on my card so far). I'll try again once I'm sure it's not billing me. The Universe is making me work hard for this -- prove I want it, I guess.
Okay - that's all I've got this morning. Planning to notice the HAPPY today. My INTENTION for today is CALM. Later gators.
Weightlifting HARD makes me sleep soundly. And it was HARD. LOVED IT!! I have the STRENGTH bug in a big way. It seems I made a "jump" in my strength this week (and it was noticed) - fantastic. Anissa says it's because I'm finally honoring REST days. Touche Anissa!
And I got an A+ on my eating log. I'm a sick teacher's pet. It's a thing. Always has been. Oh, that perfectionist all-or-nothing permeates lots of areas in my life. Serves me well sometimes and you know the rest.
But this morning I'm basking in my progress (the witching hours will tell another tale lol) ... I'll take the win moments. Waking up CONTENT, HAPPY, ENERGIZED ... I needed this boost.
Today
The witching hours should be shorter tonight since I'll be running around all afternoon. Hubby has a business dinner so I need to be careful this evening.
Funny story, I came across a recommendation for a meditation app -- calm.com. It's a fee based service but sounds like the help I need to move mediation into my routine. I signed up, error ... signed up again, error. Then I get worried it is billing my card each time. So much for a relaxing experience lol. I haven't figured it out yet (but nothing billed on my card so far). I'll try again once I'm sure it's not billing me. The Universe is making me work hard for this -- prove I want it, I guess.
Okay - that's all I've got this morning. Planning to notice the HAPPY today. My INTENTION for today is CALM. Later gators.
Tuesday, February 7, 2017
A New Day
I had a good night's sleep. That's lifted some of the fog from yesterday. My grumpy factor is climbing as it's PMS week, but grumpy is better than sad.
On a surprising note, I'm sore as SHIT today. Who knew 12 individual minutes could kick my ASS. (Lots of adult words this morning - the PG version just didn't do my soreness justice.) I have lift today at noon and, for once, that makes me HAPPY. I need to move through some of the soreness before I go balls-out again.
This Challenge is a challenge, but I needed some rules to remind me how to push through my crazy brain give-up-everything thoughts. Without the challenge, I would have eaten sweets (donuts, brownies, chocolate candy, cookies), cheese, wine and pizza this last week (no mac & cheese - too much milk - I have my line lol). It would have been disastrous. Mentally yelling at myself, mood extra-extra crappy, bloated, unable to fit into my clothes, workouts crappy, promises broken, feeling defeated.
Instead I feel good (sore and grumpy don't count lol). I'm proud of myself, back in control, clothes fit well, workouts are great, I feel strong and my general outlook is HAPPIER. This rough patch would be so much worse if not for clean eating.
As much as I bitch and moan (and will continue to do so - most likely), I am grateful for getting back on-track. I need the EFFORT part to ease up a bit more (and it will once PMS passes). It feels too hard to maintain. Once it gets a little easier, it feels doable again. The witching hours get me every night. Since I'm tracking numbers, I'm eating less. Good? Bad? I have no idea. I'll evaluate after the two weeks is finished.
Today is a list of teeny-tiny chores I want off my plate. There's a lot, but they are quick. I don't bother getting all prettied up on lift Tuesdays since my workout is so late. Best to keep to the house (or grocery store only). It gives my hair a break from being straightened.
Hard to say if my pup is feeling better yet. He was down-an-out yesterday. I'm keeping my eye on him. Poor baby.
Last night marked the last night of empty nest for a long time. Someone will be home EVERY NIGHT from now on. Wow and double wow. I'll leave it at that - no need to open that can-of-worms this morning.
Choosing to look for the HAPPY today. My INTENTION is to LET GO of the WORRY today. There is nothing I need to worry about, yet I still have that feeling lingering. LET IT GO.
On a surprising note, I'm sore as SHIT today. Who knew 12 individual minutes could kick my ASS. (Lots of adult words this morning - the PG version just didn't do my soreness justice.) I have lift today at noon and, for once, that makes me HAPPY. I need to move through some of the soreness before I go balls-out again.
This Challenge is a challenge, but I needed some rules to remind me how to push through my crazy brain give-up-everything thoughts. Without the challenge, I would have eaten sweets (donuts, brownies, chocolate candy, cookies), cheese, wine and pizza this last week (no mac & cheese - too much milk - I have my line lol). It would have been disastrous. Mentally yelling at myself, mood extra-extra crappy, bloated, unable to fit into my clothes, workouts crappy, promises broken, feeling defeated.
Instead I feel good (sore and grumpy don't count lol). I'm proud of myself, back in control, clothes fit well, workouts are great, I feel strong and my general outlook is HAPPIER. This rough patch would be so much worse if not for clean eating.
As much as I bitch and moan (and will continue to do so - most likely), I am grateful for getting back on-track. I need the EFFORT part to ease up a bit more (and it will once PMS passes). It feels too hard to maintain. Once it gets a little easier, it feels doable again. The witching hours get me every night. Since I'm tracking numbers, I'm eating less. Good? Bad? I have no idea. I'll evaluate after the two weeks is finished.
Today is a list of teeny-tiny chores I want off my plate. There's a lot, but they are quick. I don't bother getting all prettied up on lift Tuesdays since my workout is so late. Best to keep to the house (or grocery store only). It gives my hair a break from being straightened.
Hard to say if my pup is feeling better yet. He was down-an-out yesterday. I'm keeping my eye on him. Poor baby.
Last night marked the last night of empty nest for a long time. Someone will be home EVERY NIGHT from now on. Wow and double wow. I'll leave it at that - no need to open that can-of-worms this morning.
Choosing to look for the HAPPY today. My INTENTION is to LET GO of the WORRY today. There is nothing I need to worry about, yet I still have that feeling lingering. LET IT GO.
Monday, February 6, 2017
Again (again)
True story.
There once was a lady who wanted to face plant in chocolate, cheese and wine.
She didn't.
The End.
There once was a lady who wanted to face plant in chocolate, cheese and wine.
She didn't.
The End.
Again
Yep, another post today. This day holds a record number of posts and who knows ... maybe more to come. I'm in a chatty mood and I can use the company (even in fake cyber-land).
Why you ask?? Well, it's the witching hour and today is witching HARD. All those lovely factors that fell into place this morning are coming to roost this afternoon. The biggest issue is the stress from this morning.
My youngest called and we talked everything through. Situation over, resolved, moving on. The problem is some emotional shadow is lingering. (Like I needed a big cry and it never came ... that kind of thing.) I feel sad. Down. Blue.
So, of course, I want chocolate.
I was proactive earlier and cleaned out the refrigerator of leftovers (bacon pizza, mac & cheese) that won't be eaten (since no one is home) and they had potential to haunt me. I saved some sweet goodies (moved to freezer and pantry to get out of sight) but they are still on my mind.
I never realized how much I turn to food to sooth my emotions until I started Whole30 a couple of years ago. Now that I'm on this Challenge, I'm finding the same situation as a W30 ... can't eat my feelings away. I'm grateful to the Challenge (I feel so much better), but there are times I'm angry about it. Toddler angry -- kicking, screaming, wanting my SWEETS! I just need to hold on for a few more hours.
When I get this general blue feeling, everything feels upsetting. (Dog crossed electric fence today, still have that stressful problem lingering ... no resolve yet, dog is sick, weather is crappy, chores seems daunting.) I know it won't last, but it's hard when it's here.
Some fun news ... I did watch the movie "Unbreakable" and loved it! It came into play with the movie I saw this weekend and I didn't get the reference. Now I'm up to speed. I don't remember ever hearing about this movie. 17 years ago. Ouch. I'm getting old.
Okay, I'd like to say I feel better, but no such luck. I hope the accountability helps though. Tomorrow will be a better day (fingers crossed).
P.S. Workout ...12 intervals (that's only 12 minutes) ... wow it was a killer!!
P.P.S. I ordered my reward for the Challenge. An inspiration bracelet with any word you want ... I chose BALANCE. I LOVE that word and everything it means to ME. BTW ... already to the halfway point of the Challenge. Yea!!!
Why you ask?? Well, it's the witching hour and today is witching HARD. All those lovely factors that fell into place this morning are coming to roost this afternoon. The biggest issue is the stress from this morning.
My youngest called and we talked everything through. Situation over, resolved, moving on. The problem is some emotional shadow is lingering. (Like I needed a big cry and it never came ... that kind of thing.) I feel sad. Down. Blue.
So, of course, I want chocolate.
I was proactive earlier and cleaned out the refrigerator of leftovers (bacon pizza, mac & cheese) that won't be eaten (since no one is home) and they had potential to haunt me. I saved some sweet goodies (moved to freezer and pantry to get out of sight) but they are still on my mind.
I never realized how much I turn to food to sooth my emotions until I started Whole30 a couple of years ago. Now that I'm on this Challenge, I'm finding the same situation as a W30 ... can't eat my feelings away. I'm grateful to the Challenge (I feel so much better), but there are times I'm angry about it. Toddler angry -- kicking, screaming, wanting my SWEETS! I just need to hold on for a few more hours.
When I get this general blue feeling, everything feels upsetting. (Dog crossed electric fence today, still have that stressful problem lingering ... no resolve yet, dog is sick, weather is crappy, chores seems daunting.) I know it won't last, but it's hard when it's here.
Some fun news ... I did watch the movie "Unbreakable" and loved it! It came into play with the movie I saw this weekend and I didn't get the reference. Now I'm up to speed. I don't remember ever hearing about this movie. 17 years ago. Ouch. I'm getting old.
Okay, I'd like to say I feel better, but no such luck. I hope the accountability helps though. Tomorrow will be a better day (fingers crossed).
P.S. Workout ...12 intervals (that's only 12 minutes) ... wow it was a killer!!
P.P.S. I ordered my reward for the Challenge. An inspiration bracelet with any word you want ... I chose BALANCE. I LOVE that word and everything it means to ME. BTW ... already to the halfway point of the Challenge. Yea!!!
Let try this MORNING again
Why hello - good morning. UGH, double UGH and triple UGH.
Trying to wash away the crappy emotions and begin again. Feeling powerless in a situation is so humbling (and scary). Focus on the outcome -- everything is okay.
So onto other news.
I'm trying a new workout today (per my Challenge). Cardio and ab mix in a quick, down & dirty format. 10 mins (1 min at a time - 30 sec rest) balls to the wall. Since I'm lifting tomorrow, need to stay clear of lifting. Anissa (easier to type her name lol) wants me to stay clear of running and keep the work-interval shorter. She actually suggested another rest day -- I'm up to 3 -- 4 just gets me mental right now. I'm curious to see how it feels. I can add more minutes if it's too easy. This works especially well since my ankle is doing that weird thing again (one minute fine, next I can't step down). When it acts up, it usually only lasts a couple of days. It's lingering this time.
I read a good article about "dialing down" instead of "taking a break" in your fitness and nutrition habits. Taking breaks promotes all-or-nothing (hello ME) and when you are playing the game of all-or-nothing -- NOTHING usually wins. Oh boy, that's a big statement that speaks to my life.
Something is better than nothing. Life change, life style. Dialing up is great too. Want to get great arms - dial up. Stress and life out-of-control, dial back.
Taking breaks (I'll start Monday ... not on vacation ... when I have time ... after my injury heals) just gets you good at taking breaks. It doesn't teach you working LIFE HABITS. That is GOLD!
Today's plan is a workout, vet visit, chores around the house and that's it. I'll have empty nest for one night (tonight) before hubby gets home. I have a movie-night planned. It might be a dark movie, so I may postpone it. I need LIGHT today.
Thanks to some stress, an empty house, a full pantry and a relatively quiet day -- I might have a challenging RED ZONE this afternoon. I'd run some errands, etc but pup has the runs. Best to be home for him. I'll need to be aware and just go with the feelings. Good news is I can make it an early night.
I have a good stock pile of food for today. I'll need to make some grocery store runs in the next couple of days. Since my stress has eased this morning, I'm getting hungry. It's a good sign when I wake up hungry.
Breathe. My INTENTION for the day - GRATEFUL. I sometimes feel it's overused, but today it feels perfect. GRATEFUL. Thank you God.
Trying to wash away the crappy emotions and begin again. Feeling powerless in a situation is so humbling (and scary). Focus on the outcome -- everything is okay.
So onto other news.
I'm trying a new workout today (per my Challenge). Cardio and ab mix in a quick, down & dirty format. 10 mins (1 min at a time - 30 sec rest) balls to the wall. Since I'm lifting tomorrow, need to stay clear of lifting. Anissa (easier to type her name lol) wants me to stay clear of running and keep the work-interval shorter. She actually suggested another rest day -- I'm up to 3 -- 4 just gets me mental right now. I'm curious to see how it feels. I can add more minutes if it's too easy. This works especially well since my ankle is doing that weird thing again (one minute fine, next I can't step down). When it acts up, it usually only lasts a couple of days. It's lingering this time.
I read a good article about "dialing down" instead of "taking a break" in your fitness and nutrition habits. Taking breaks promotes all-or-nothing (hello ME) and when you are playing the game of all-or-nothing -- NOTHING usually wins. Oh boy, that's a big statement that speaks to my life.
Something is better than nothing. Life change, life style. Dialing up is great too. Want to get great arms - dial up. Stress and life out-of-control, dial back.
Taking breaks (I'll start Monday ... not on vacation ... when I have time ... after my injury heals) just gets you good at taking breaks. It doesn't teach you working LIFE HABITS. That is GOLD!
Today's plan is a workout, vet visit, chores around the house and that's it. I'll have empty nest for one night (tonight) before hubby gets home. I have a movie-night planned. It might be a dark movie, so I may postpone it. I need LIGHT today.
Thanks to some stress, an empty house, a full pantry and a relatively quiet day -- I might have a challenging RED ZONE this afternoon. I'd run some errands, etc but pup has the runs. Best to be home for him. I'll need to be aware and just go with the feelings. Good news is I can make it an early night.
I have a good stock pile of food for today. I'll need to make some grocery store runs in the next couple of days. Since my stress has eased this morning, I'm getting hungry. It's a good sign when I wake up hungry.
Breathe. My INTENTION for the day - GRATEFUL. I sometimes feel it's overused, but today it feels perfect. GRATEFUL. Thank you God.
A big breath of RELIEF
He finally answered his phone.
AMEN.
He left at 4am (so he says - hmmm) because he couldn't sleep and thought he'd miss traffic. Now is not the time for a lecture. But a lecture will come.
Life is fickle. Life needs to be appreciated and respected. Oh boy, I don't panic often. I was walking that line this morning. Nice way to wake up.
I'm angry, but I'm GRATEFUL. The anger (which is worry) will fade. The GRATEFUL will stick around.
I could honestly just cry right now. Thank God he's okay.
AMEN.
He left at 4am (so he says - hmmm) because he couldn't sleep and thought he'd miss traffic. Now is not the time for a lecture. But a lecture will come.
Life is fickle. Life needs to be appreciated and respected. Oh boy, I don't panic often. I was walking that line this morning. Nice way to wake up.
I'm angry, but I'm GRATEFUL. The anger (which is worry) will fade. The GRATEFUL will stick around.
I could honestly just cry right now. Thank God he's okay.
Please.
I'm up early this morning.
But my youngest is already gone. He was supposed to leave around 8am this morning. I don't know when he left. I don't know if he made it home.
I'm worried out of my mind.
He has a couple of hours and then I'm driving to his school.
He was upset, angry -- way out of proportion.
Please, please, please let him be okay. There is no peace this morning. UGH.
But my youngest is already gone. He was supposed to leave around 8am this morning. I don't know when he left. I don't know if he made it home.
I'm worried out of my mind.
He has a couple of hours and then I'm driving to his school.
He was upset, angry -- way out of proportion.
Please, please, please let him be okay. There is no peace this morning. UGH.
Sunday, February 5, 2017
I'm STILL awake!!
Well, the game was a HUGE disappointment, but - well, it's a game. All over. Lady Gaga killed it. Commercials had a unity theme which felt hopeful. Other then the "evil" team winning, it was a good game experience.
My youngest takes it too hard. He created a scene a few times and the night ended on an extra unpleasant note. I hope tomorrow morning brings peace.
On a good news front -- I killed it on my eating. Just as planned. Stopped after dinner. No munchies and no cravings (other than a few brief "that smells great" and "wish I could have that" moments). My new recipe was a success too. Both last week and this week were from the same chef -- both were a hit.
My poor pup has the runs - ugh. Vet run tomorrow to get his "special" food.
Outlets were a bummer too. Nothing caught my eye -- even my old-faithful stores didn't bring it. I guess that saved me some $$. Glad it's not my reward day after all!
When I stay up passed my normal bedtime, I tend to stay up really late. I get a second wind. I've got that tonight. The nail-biting game, the youngest's temper fit and worried about the dog having an accident all have me riled up.
I guess I'll try to read tonight. The book isn't very good and from a friend's account, doesn't get better. I don't have much motivation to read it (other than it's a book club selection for this month).
Overall, I'll take today as a win. I need to find the wins, notice the HAPPY, believe in the good. 2017 is off to a rough start -- a black cloud kind of feel. I have to make sure it doesn't pull me down. As the Falcons say ... RISE UP.
Good night.
My youngest takes it too hard. He created a scene a few times and the night ended on an extra unpleasant note. I hope tomorrow morning brings peace.
On a good news front -- I killed it on my eating. Just as planned. Stopped after dinner. No munchies and no cravings (other than a few brief "that smells great" and "wish I could have that" moments). My new recipe was a success too. Both last week and this week were from the same chef -- both were a hit.
My poor pup has the runs - ugh. Vet run tomorrow to get his "special" food.
Outlets were a bummer too. Nothing caught my eye -- even my old-faithful stores didn't bring it. I guess that saved me some $$. Glad it's not my reward day after all!
When I stay up passed my normal bedtime, I tend to stay up really late. I get a second wind. I've got that tonight. The nail-biting game, the youngest's temper fit and worried about the dog having an accident all have me riled up.
I guess I'll try to read tonight. The book isn't very good and from a friend's account, doesn't get better. I don't have much motivation to read it (other than it's a book club selection for this month).
Overall, I'll take today as a win. I need to find the wins, notice the HAPPY, believe in the good. 2017 is off to a rough start -- a black cloud kind of feel. I have to make sure it doesn't pull me down. As the Falcons say ... RISE UP.
Good night.
Breakfast -- ASAP
I woke up famished. I'm having a first cup of protein tea and then a BIG breakfast.
** Actually, hold that thought -- I'm making something now. I'm that hungry!! Be back in jiff. **
That's MUCH better. I can think now that my belly is pleasantly full. I image this will be a high calorie day today. That's fine. Real hunger is good. Cravings are NOT.
I woke up super early and the dog needed an urgent letting-out. I almost stayed up, but I still felt like a little more time in bed would be nice. I dozed on and off for another couple of hours. I'll be up late tonight so it worked out.
Since my youngest came home last night, I made mac & cheese and used up some of the hoards of cheese living in my refrigerator. Yea! And they can eat off of it for lunch today too. Winner!!
Today is a rest day from working out. I "promised" 3 rest days each of these two weeks -- it's part of my goal. I'd planned a dog park visit with a walk, but it rained heavily last night. The park will be a muddy mess. Regular walk it is -- poor boy, I wanted some extra fun for him today. Maybe tomorrow.
We are heading to the outlets today. My eldest was interested in going. My "reward" day after the Challenge finishes needs to change now. Maybe a massage instead?
Then the Superbowl!! I have some good eats planned. I'll have to pace the eating or I will really go over the calorie count for the day. I looked up some of the food and have a good idea what is what. The disappointment is the chicken wings (of course). I LOVE wings. Lots of calories (and fat) -- and quick. I'll have to limit and savor (or choose to stay with the other food). AND we are getting baked wings from the supermarket instead of the really, really good ones. I'm saving my kombucha for the game. It will be my version of a cocktail.
I'm happy my stomach has returned to it's regularly planned issues and seems to be over the GRAND problems. I did it to myself. It's a good reminder of why I put in the daily EFFORT for healthy -- it's not just about fitting into my pants. The older I become, the less I tolerate feeling crappy.
Off to have a HAPPY day. My INTENTION is to remember my HEALTHY habits and enjoy feeling well. Later gators.
** Actually, hold that thought -- I'm making something now. I'm that hungry!! Be back in jiff. **
That's MUCH better. I can think now that my belly is pleasantly full. I image this will be a high calorie day today. That's fine. Real hunger is good. Cravings are NOT.
I woke up super early and the dog needed an urgent letting-out. I almost stayed up, but I still felt like a little more time in bed would be nice. I dozed on and off for another couple of hours. I'll be up late tonight so it worked out.
Since my youngest came home last night, I made mac & cheese and used up some of the hoards of cheese living in my refrigerator. Yea! And they can eat off of it for lunch today too. Winner!!
Today is a rest day from working out. I "promised" 3 rest days each of these two weeks -- it's part of my goal. I'd planned a dog park visit with a walk, but it rained heavily last night. The park will be a muddy mess. Regular walk it is -- poor boy, I wanted some extra fun for him today. Maybe tomorrow.
We are heading to the outlets today. My eldest was interested in going. My "reward" day after the Challenge finishes needs to change now. Maybe a massage instead?
Then the Superbowl!! I have some good eats planned. I'll have to pace the eating or I will really go over the calorie count for the day. I looked up some of the food and have a good idea what is what. The disappointment is the chicken wings (of course). I LOVE wings. Lots of calories (and fat) -- and quick. I'll have to limit and savor (or choose to stay with the other food). AND we are getting baked wings from the supermarket instead of the really, really good ones. I'm saving my kombucha for the game. It will be my version of a cocktail.
I'm happy my stomach has returned to it's regularly planned issues and seems to be over the GRAND problems. I did it to myself. It's a good reminder of why I put in the daily EFFORT for healthy -- it's not just about fitting into my pants. The older I become, the less I tolerate feeling crappy.
Off to have a HAPPY day. My INTENTION is to remember my HEALTHY habits and enjoy feeling well. Later gators.
Saturday, February 4, 2017
Challenge Update
Hello and goodnight ... well almost. It's early still but I'm snuggled up in bed ... computer on my lab, book next in the cue and THE WHOLE BED TO MYSELF!! Life feels pretty good right about now.
Eating today was really good. Virtually no cravings (after last night, I might have used up all the available craving juice for today lol).
But I'm hungry.
True hunger. Nothing I can't sleep through, but enough that I really, really want to eat. If it weren't for the Challenge, I'd eat more. Today was a higher calorie day and I used the calories up (the amount I "should" have). That's where this Challenge fails (in my opinion). Last night showed the success of the Challenge (stopped a big cheese attack) though. Pros and cons.
Whole30 wants you to eat when you are hungry. Period.
I'm not giving in tonight and am choosing to go to bed hungry because tomorrow will more than likely be an overage day (Superbowl!!). Between lots of (healthy) goodies and a late night, I'm sure I'll be through my calories and then some. I didn't want 2 days in a row. But I won't allow it again. Being hungry feels like a diet. And I'm not on a diet (currently).
A plus ... healthy eating has given me back the room in my pants. Jeans were super comfortable today.
Speaking of today -- fun day. Movie was great, workout was a killer, day was HAPPY, youngest home for the weekend too. It's a good thing.
Okay, I'm tired (and hungry). Reading might not happen after all.
Eating today was really good. Virtually no cravings (after last night, I might have used up all the available craving juice for today lol).
But I'm hungry.
True hunger. Nothing I can't sleep through, but enough that I really, really want to eat. If it weren't for the Challenge, I'd eat more. Today was a higher calorie day and I used the calories up (the amount I "should" have). That's where this Challenge fails (in my opinion). Last night showed the success of the Challenge (stopped a big cheese attack) though. Pros and cons.
Whole30 wants you to eat when you are hungry. Period.
I'm not giving in tonight and am choosing to go to bed hungry because tomorrow will more than likely be an overage day (Superbowl!!). Between lots of (healthy) goodies and a late night, I'm sure I'll be through my calories and then some. I didn't want 2 days in a row. But I won't allow it again. Being hungry feels like a diet. And I'm not on a diet (currently).
A plus ... healthy eating has given me back the room in my pants. Jeans were super comfortable today.
Speaking of today -- fun day. Movie was great, workout was a killer, day was HAPPY, youngest home for the weekend too. It's a good thing.
Okay, I'm tired (and hungry). Reading might not happen after all.
FUTURE SELF ... read this post!!
The wishes worked -- kept the diet stellar the whole evening. Lordy, that craving was HUGE. I might have sold a child for some of that cheese. Unfortunately, it will be living in my refrigerator all week. I need about half of it for this weekend -- stupidly I forgot I already bought it and so I have double what I need. I have empty nest for a few days too. Two elements of the perfect storm. Oh no -- and it's PMS week. The Perfect Storm. Maybe I'll try to send it home with my youngest -- fingers crossed he wants it!
ATTENTION FUTURE-SELF ... read this post. It is glorious, amazing, awesome, outstanding, awe-inspiring that you resisted this craving. You didn't need it and the "real" you didn't even want it. This morning is a WIN ... not a failure. You feel good, feel proud -- ready to take on this workout lean and mean.
Yesterday was an additional rest-day per my instructor ... "give me two weeks." Okay - you got it. Today is a really go-hard day (hopefully). This circuit class is a buddy class if everyone shows up. I like to have the station to myself. Why?? She puts a lighter weight and a heavier weight at each station and you rotate. But I want the heavier weight - ALWAYS. So far I'm about 50/50. It is fun to have a partner. You get to know someone - social - push each other. But since I am so "rested" I want a down and dirty today. If it doesn't deliver, I'll add stuff at home I guess.
Scary movie mid-day today. We are dropping eldest's car off for service and killing time seeing Split. Oh boy - it seems "Silence of the Lambs" scary. Glad we are seeing it in the afternoon. Then hitting the mall and food out. Fun, active, VARIETY day.
My stomach seems to be normalizing after a week of clean eating. Thank God for small favors. I was so uncomfortable.
It's interesting (not surprising though) that I did fantastic "healthy" for 4 months of crazy socializing fun and then had a disappointing month just when it got easier. That's a pattern for me when I finish a goal - reward myself with food and reward myself with "no effort" living. I need to have a plan in place for the end of this two week challenge (she might extend it - we'll see). I have a "reward" day, but I need to have some accountability when the time is up. Even if the accountability is ME. Focus on the BIG trips that are around the corner and wanting to feel great for them. That's a BIG ACCOUNTABILITY for me. Okay - have to keep this in the front of my mind.
Will there ever be a time food, eating, being healthy doesn't need to be-on-my-mind?? Probably not, I'm realizing. My default doesn't work. Healthy requires effort, requires work. When I relax about it and "don't care" I go off the path -- BIG TIME.
Okay. HAPPY day ahead. My intention for today is to ENJOY the day and not stress the small stuff. I stressed the small stuff yesterday. Lesson learned?? Stay tuned ...
ATTENTION FUTURE-SELF ... read this post. It is glorious, amazing, awesome, outstanding, awe-inspiring that you resisted this craving. You didn't need it and the "real" you didn't even want it. This morning is a WIN ... not a failure. You feel good, feel proud -- ready to take on this workout lean and mean.
Yesterday was an additional rest-day per my instructor ... "give me two weeks." Okay - you got it. Today is a really go-hard day (hopefully). This circuit class is a buddy class if everyone shows up. I like to have the station to myself. Why?? She puts a lighter weight and a heavier weight at each station and you rotate. But I want the heavier weight - ALWAYS. So far I'm about 50/50. It is fun to have a partner. You get to know someone - social - push each other. But since I am so "rested" I want a down and dirty today. If it doesn't deliver, I'll add stuff at home I guess.
Scary movie mid-day today. We are dropping eldest's car off for service and killing time seeing Split. Oh boy - it seems "Silence of the Lambs" scary. Glad we are seeing it in the afternoon. Then hitting the mall and food out. Fun, active, VARIETY day.
My stomach seems to be normalizing after a week of clean eating. Thank God for small favors. I was so uncomfortable.
It's interesting (not surprising though) that I did fantastic "healthy" for 4 months of crazy socializing fun and then had a disappointing month just when it got easier. That's a pattern for me when I finish a goal - reward myself with food and reward myself with "no effort" living. I need to have a plan in place for the end of this two week challenge (she might extend it - we'll see). I have a "reward" day, but I need to have some accountability when the time is up. Even if the accountability is ME. Focus on the BIG trips that are around the corner and wanting to feel great for them. That's a BIG ACCOUNTABILITY for me. Okay - have to keep this in the front of my mind.
Will there ever be a time food, eating, being healthy doesn't need to be-on-my-mind?? Probably not, I'm realizing. My default doesn't work. Healthy requires effort, requires work. When I relax about it and "don't care" I go off the path -- BIG TIME.
Okay. HAPPY day ahead. My intention for today is to ENJOY the day and not stress the small stuff. I stressed the small stuff yesterday. Lesson learned?? Stay tuned ...
Friday, February 3, 2017
It's that UPDATE time of day
The Crown - AWESOME!
Nails - not so good -- horrible actually, so I get a free one next time. Long story. UGH!
Diet - close call. Today was first-world-problem stressful and I want to eat away the angst. There's a ton of sharp cheddar (3 varieties) hanging out in my refrigerator. Calling me. Beaconing me. Taunting me. I came as close as the door open and reaching for the cheese. It was SUPER CLOSE. I resisted for now. Only 50% confident at this juncture.
Why the back pedal?? DAMN ACCOUNTABILITY! I can't lie on the STUPID MFP and I definitely can't log a block of cheese. One slice will be an epic slide. I know it. At least I can see that far ahead. We are at the height of the witching hours. Only a few more hours and I'll have it beat. Hanging on by a thread.
I even thought of reasons-I-could-quit the Challenge. Cravings are powerful (but only if I listen to them - yeah, yeah). So more accountability -- posting true confessions here -- or trying not to have a true confession post.
The rest of the night is chill. Dinner will be easy (and tasty). Lots of stuff taped on the old TIVO. Early-ish night tonight since I have an early class tomorrow and didn't sleep well last night (this time I can't blame hubby - he was virtually snore-free).
What is interesting about logging calories is I'm resisting eating anything until dinner -- even compliant stuff. If I have such a big craving, I normally eat something compliant to get me through. Not the best choice perhaps. But what is better -- compliant food or a binge slide?? The best is nothing (duh) but sometimes all I can muster is "better." I would be surprised if I continue to log food after this challenge. Even though MFP is a really awesome app -- super user friendly and "smart" about the things you want to do. I like my FOOD FREEDOM. As I said before, every day becomes a beat-the-numbers game -- plays too much into my all-or-nothing tendency.
Okay folks. Thanks for listening and for your very silent pep talk lol (I would about drop dead if someone actually "found" me here in the bloggasphere -- clearly I can't spell either).
Wish me luck. Wish me strength. Wish me to keep my pie-hole shut until dinner.
Nails - not so good -- horrible actually, so I get a free one next time. Long story. UGH!
Diet - close call. Today was first-world-problem stressful and I want to eat away the angst. There's a ton of sharp cheddar (3 varieties) hanging out in my refrigerator. Calling me. Beaconing me. Taunting me. I came as close as the door open and reaching for the cheese. It was SUPER CLOSE. I resisted for now. Only 50% confident at this juncture.
Why the back pedal?? DAMN ACCOUNTABILITY! I can't lie on the STUPID MFP and I definitely can't log a block of cheese. One slice will be an epic slide. I know it. At least I can see that far ahead. We are at the height of the witching hours. Only a few more hours and I'll have it beat. Hanging on by a thread.
I even thought of reasons-I-could-quit the Challenge. Cravings are powerful (but only if I listen to them - yeah, yeah). So more accountability -- posting true confessions here -- or trying not to have a true confession post.
The rest of the night is chill. Dinner will be easy (and tasty). Lots of stuff taped on the old TIVO. Early-ish night tonight since I have an early class tomorrow and didn't sleep well last night (this time I can't blame hubby - he was virtually snore-free).
What is interesting about logging calories is I'm resisting eating anything until dinner -- even compliant stuff. If I have such a big craving, I normally eat something compliant to get me through. Not the best choice perhaps. But what is better -- compliant food or a binge slide?? The best is nothing (duh) but sometimes all I can muster is "better." I would be surprised if I continue to log food after this challenge. Even though MFP is a really awesome app -- super user friendly and "smart" about the things you want to do. I like my FOOD FREEDOM. As I said before, every day becomes a beat-the-numbers game -- plays too much into my all-or-nothing tendency.
Okay folks. Thanks for listening and for your very silent pep talk lol (I would about drop dead if someone actually "found" me here in the bloggasphere -- clearly I can't spell either).
Wish me luck. Wish me strength. Wish me to keep my pie-hole shut until dinner.
Ask and you shall receive.
I put my intention out yesterday ... LET IT GO. Within minutes I found a video on Facebook with a meditation on RELEASE. It's from a closed group back in the Tony Robbins seminar days. I liked it, I "did" it with the video and I joined another closed group full of POSITIVITY.
Having cleaned-up so much of my Facebook, there hasn't been much popping up. This group is active, positive, fun -- maybe just what I need -- AND maybe just what I asked for -- thank you Universe!
Today hubby leaves on a boys vacation. Wishing him lots of fun and a safe trip. Hello bed-to-myself!
My friend drank The Crown juice too, so we are watching two more episodes today. Yea!
My fitness instructor advised no workout today. Three days of rest during this two week Challenge and NO running. Oh boy -- game on. (It actually works well since my ankle is still extra wonky.)
Overall, fun, productive day ahead. Cleaning ladies (so I have to hide lol). Some errands, my nails -- perfect! Then a weekend full of my eldest (and some of my youngest). Me and my boys. Now that makes me HAPPY.
Off to prep for the clean. Later gators. My intention today -- BE THANKFUL.
Having cleaned-up so much of my Facebook, there hasn't been much popping up. This group is active, positive, fun -- maybe just what I need -- AND maybe just what I asked for -- thank you Universe!
Today hubby leaves on a boys vacation. Wishing him lots of fun and a safe trip. Hello bed-to-myself!
My friend drank The Crown juice too, so we are watching two more episodes today. Yea!
My fitness instructor advised no workout today. Three days of rest during this two week Challenge and NO running. Oh boy -- game on. (It actually works well since my ankle is still extra wonky.)
Overall, fun, productive day ahead. Cleaning ladies (so I have to hide lol). Some errands, my nails -- perfect! Then a weekend full of my eldest (and some of my youngest). Me and my boys. Now that makes me HAPPY.
Off to prep for the clean. Later gators. My intention today -- BE THANKFUL.
Thursday, February 2, 2017
Anxiety
I have a lot on my mind lately. Two BIG things -- the current state of our country and a personal worry (which is too long to elaborate). It's apparent by my dreams last night how much this is all weighing on me.
I'm trying to deal with both. One should resolve soon (or at least we will know what we are dealing with). The country - that's a long haul. I need to dedicate to a daily meditation. I'm not sure why the resistance -- maybe I'm making it too complicated (i.e.. workout room, in position, with monk-music) -- or maybe I need to JUST DO IT.
When I'm worried about big things that I don't have control over (just control over how I react), I tend to get overwhelmed by the little stresses. Thankfully, I'm not someone who "lives" in anxiety. Mine comes situationally. I also want to eat/drink my worry away. Yes -- that's helpful lol.
After vivid, stressful dreams last night, I woke up feeling anxious. It's slowly dissipating.
Okay - enough power to the WORRY.
Today is another HAPPY day (should I choose this mission). I have an earlier lift (legs only - HARD and I come home to do a couple of arms). Then some errands. I think I'm going to get my nails done today. I'm toying with a new color. I LOVE my neutral -- it's perfect, but something different is fun. I often get an american, but at this salon it's not the same cream. Should I go back to my old place for an american?? Should I get a new color? Should I try something new? Yep - CRAZY!!
I might take my sweet dog to the dog park again. He loves it. My ankle has been acting up (it does this sometimes) so walking him is not great for me. I'll play it by ear.
My eating has been spot-on and I'm feeling the benefits. Feeling good, eating well -- all help me get through my worry-time -- so much better than eating my stress. Well, I hear the washer bell. Time to get those sheets finished. Later gators. Off to have a HAPPY day. My INTENTION today is to LET IT GO!!
I'm trying to deal with both. One should resolve soon (or at least we will know what we are dealing with). The country - that's a long haul. I need to dedicate to a daily meditation. I'm not sure why the resistance -- maybe I'm making it too complicated (i.e.. workout room, in position, with monk-music) -- or maybe I need to JUST DO IT.
When I'm worried about big things that I don't have control over (just control over how I react), I tend to get overwhelmed by the little stresses. Thankfully, I'm not someone who "lives" in anxiety. Mine comes situationally. I also want to eat/drink my worry away. Yes -- that's helpful lol.
After vivid, stressful dreams last night, I woke up feeling anxious. It's slowly dissipating.
Okay - enough power to the WORRY.
Today is another HAPPY day (should I choose this mission). I have an earlier lift (legs only - HARD and I come home to do a couple of arms). Then some errands. I think I'm going to get my nails done today. I'm toying with a new color. I LOVE my neutral -- it's perfect, but something different is fun. I often get an american, but at this salon it's not the same cream. Should I go back to my old place for an american?? Should I get a new color? Should I try something new? Yep - CRAZY!!
I might take my sweet dog to the dog park again. He loves it. My ankle has been acting up (it does this sometimes) so walking him is not great for me. I'll play it by ear.
My eating has been spot-on and I'm feeling the benefits. Feeling good, eating well -- all help me get through my worry-time -- so much better than eating my stress. Well, I hear the washer bell. Time to get those sheets finished. Later gators. Off to have a HAPPY day. My INTENTION today is to LET IT GO!!
Wednesday, February 1, 2017
Empty Nest Progress Report
The Crown did not disappoint - it's fantastic!
Decided to make lunch rather than a run to Whole Foods. Trader Joe's had some chicken sausage which is a winner (and a plus that it's an item in MFP - makes logging easier).
I did some cooking this afternoon. Tomato soup (my go-to soup this winter) and asian meatballs (also a new favorite). You can import recipes from the internet into MFP - made logging easy as well.
I ended up eating all meals on the early side so I'm sitting here with dinner finished and hours to go before bed. Since I need to be honest and log my food, I'm probably finished eating lol. Accountability - yep, it's a real thing.
It's interesting how calories and volume can be deceiving. Today seemed like less eating, but calorically it's a lot higher. I'm staying under my calorie allotment because I really don't think it's super accurate (since I didn't weigh myself). I choose not to get wrapped up in that number -- there is no up-side in this moment. Logging for 2 weeks will be an experiment, but I don't plan to keep it going. I like eating guilt-free, listening to what I need and want -- rather than worrying about the numbers -- trying to "win" for the day. I can be a bit type-A and that just plays into my crazy. I am curious to hear the feedback at the end.
Okay, quick check in because I can -- love me the empty nest!
P.S. I'll have both boys for the SuperBowl this weekend. Yea. Love time with them (even though I also love empty nest). It should be fun. Go Falcons.
Decided to make lunch rather than a run to Whole Foods. Trader Joe's had some chicken sausage which is a winner (and a plus that it's an item in MFP - makes logging easier).
I did some cooking this afternoon. Tomato soup (my go-to soup this winter) and asian meatballs (also a new favorite). You can import recipes from the internet into MFP - made logging easy as well.
I ended up eating all meals on the early side so I'm sitting here with dinner finished and hours to go before bed. Since I need to be honest and log my food, I'm probably finished eating lol. Accountability - yep, it's a real thing.
It's interesting how calories and volume can be deceiving. Today seemed like less eating, but calorically it's a lot higher. I'm staying under my calorie allotment because I really don't think it's super accurate (since I didn't weigh myself). I choose not to get wrapped up in that number -- there is no up-side in this moment. Logging for 2 weeks will be an experiment, but I don't plan to keep it going. I like eating guilt-free, listening to what I need and want -- rather than worrying about the numbers -- trying to "win" for the day. I can be a bit type-A and that just plays into my crazy. I am curious to hear the feedback at the end.
Okay, quick check in because I can -- love me the empty nest!
P.S. I'll have both boys for the SuperBowl this weekend. Yea. Love time with them (even though I also love empty nest). It should be fun. Go Falcons.
Glory Be - Empty Nest Tonight
Both hubby and son are sleeping out tonight. An unexpected empty nest today. AWESOME!
Today is a good day (the HAPPY will write itself lol). A couple of grocery store runs (including lunch pick-up at Whole Foods - yea something different). Then 3 episodes of the Crown with a friend. Then a glorious night home alone. (I have to be a bit careful on the snacking front with an evening ahead of me and no one home.)
I "joined" the Challenge yesterday and YES I have to log everything. Got it all set-up last night and logged my food for the day. Surprisingly, the calories were low for the day. Tuesdays mess up my food schedule a bit since the workout is at noon, but I thought I made up for it. AND I had salmon and sweet potato yesterday - both "denser" calorie items. These two weeks might be an eye opener after all. When I'm eating clean, I eat so much food. Maybe not so many calories though. Interesting.
Today is a beloved rest day. It was an all-over lift yesterday and my muscle can use the break today.
I finished The Miracle Morning book a friend gave me. It was good, but the same information from Jim Rohn and Tony Robbins. The guy has an interesting story though and it's always good to hear "stuff" again. Repetition is the mastery of all skill - yep Tony Robbins.
For my February goals, I'm going to hook up the Rosetta Stone and see if I do better than the first time. Also, the 2 week challenge at the studio. I'm committed to book club this month too. And I'm going to "explore" a few things on MHP list. First one is next week - ATL Aquarium. I'm really behind in my restaurant exploration. That might need to happen later though - the month is pretty full already. Fun in February.
Okay, off for an early shower and get this HAPPY started.
P.S. I was up at 0445 this morning. Yep - W30 does it every time.
Today is a good day (the HAPPY will write itself lol). A couple of grocery store runs (including lunch pick-up at Whole Foods - yea something different). Then 3 episodes of the Crown with a friend. Then a glorious night home alone. (I have to be a bit careful on the snacking front with an evening ahead of me and no one home.)
I "joined" the Challenge yesterday and YES I have to log everything. Got it all set-up last night and logged my food for the day. Surprisingly, the calories were low for the day. Tuesdays mess up my food schedule a bit since the workout is at noon, but I thought I made up for it. AND I had salmon and sweet potato yesterday - both "denser" calorie items. These two weeks might be an eye opener after all. When I'm eating clean, I eat so much food. Maybe not so many calories though. Interesting.
Today is a beloved rest day. It was an all-over lift yesterday and my muscle can use the break today.
I finished The Miracle Morning book a friend gave me. It was good, but the same information from Jim Rohn and Tony Robbins. The guy has an interesting story though and it's always good to hear "stuff" again. Repetition is the mastery of all skill - yep Tony Robbins.
For my February goals, I'm going to hook up the Rosetta Stone and see if I do better than the first time. Also, the 2 week challenge at the studio. I'm committed to book club this month too. And I'm going to "explore" a few things on MHP list. First one is next week - ATL Aquarium. I'm really behind in my restaurant exploration. That might need to happen later though - the month is pretty full already. Fun in February.
Okay, off for an early shower and get this HAPPY started.
P.S. I was up at 0445 this morning. Yep - W30 does it every time.
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