Overwhelmed, Dang

Good morning.

I hate to even go here, but it's what's on my mind this morning. 

This will be a surprise to no one.

You can say -- told you so or something stronger.

I'M SO OVERWHELMED (!!)

And it's totally, completely, 100% my fault. 

You all need to remind me, stop me, yell from the rafters ... a SPACE on the calendar isn't always a SPACE that needs to be filled. Voids are good. Free time is a must. Teeter with a moment of boredom.

Okay, if truth be told, the biggest issue is my mornings are rushed until god knows when -- as far as the eye can see (on the March calendar page, at least). I can manage the days once I get through the morning.

This means getting up early is a MUST and, you know it, I'm BARELY time adjusted. Still going to bed later than I should and morning wake ups are a rude awakening (literally). 

It's the push to get a workout in and a workout is massively important to how I feel, the hormone regulation, etc. With this lower energy, it so dang hard to workout extra early.

Where are my cancel days when I need them? I got one this week, but apparently it's not enough. 

What I want to be canceled is this weekend in Asheville. It's all work. Company, cleaning, dog with me, hosting, organizing. Shared with my sister, but still a whirlwind of work over three days. 

3 rushed days because I need to get home to volunteer and obligations ALL WEEK. 

I'm excited to see my family and my aunt and uncle, but I just saw them twice recently so it kind of, sort of, doesn't feel worth the effort. Horrible to say. Another weekend would've been fabulous. This timing is tough.

I pushed the trip to tomorrow (because of the grow room and the dog) so what did I do?!?

FILLED TODAY to the brim. 

Good lord. 

Taking my HS friend to lunch for her birthday. I AM happy we fit it in because I hate to not show birthday love to a friend in her actual birthday month, but what was I thinking?!? I don't have the energy for this today. Rush, rush, rush. Then I need to get ready for the trip tomorrow morning and more rush, rush, rush. 

I vow here, right now to stop filling my days so much. 

I need to remember this. 

Will I? Won't I? 

I've been scheduling appointments in the morning so I have my afternoons free for all-the-things. Nope. Doesn't work right now. I'm too tired in the mornings. I need to have that little bit extra sleep and that little bit extra time to be ready to workout. 

I've also been obligated to meetings and such in the evenings. Start the day too early, end the day too late with obligations and that makes days feel so much MORE. Time shift some of this stuff and all would be well.

Okay, I deciphered a few of the issues. Thanks for lending an ear. 

P.S. Yesterday was great. Lunch, garden tour, etc. Book fair setup went well. Back to volunteer with the kids on Tuesday. 

Hope you have a good day. Sorry for another rant. I need my hormones to get with the program -- mood, energy, etc. Later gators.

P.P.S. An email just popped up on the screen from my coaching program ... it's starts, "remember to leave clean space on your calendar." Well, that's some validation. Off to read the email.