A List

I think a list is in order.

Yesterday was all over the map.

1. My hormones are out of whack. I started bleeding yesterday. It's not a period, but dang. The office was right to cut back my estrogen patch. 

2. The library shift was good, but probably a least favorite. Only 2 people at that time of day. I finished a Southern Gothic book from an author I saw speak last week. Beautiful writing, incredible imagination, but that gothic ick feeling.

Since I had a couple of hours left, I grabbed a copy of the very short The Great Gatsby -- another depressing book. Easy read to finish while I was there though. 

Between the 2 books -- not a "happy" feeling afternoon and that's on me.

My volunteer "payment" wasn't great either -- shelves are a bit bare after a big event. I found a couple of books, but not my usual exciting finds. I donated a bag of books from a friend too. She likes to give them to me to donate for some reason.

3. My garage is filled (annoyingly) with bags and boxes and a mattress for the volunteer task I did last week. I need to distribute the items after sorting, but crickets from the family members. There's another carload to pickup and sort and distribute too.

4. The women's group meeting was excellent -- great speakers. Met some inspiring local candidates. AND, I left feeling annoyed. A few things I said yes to, did the work I signed up for, etc just became BIGGER yeses that wasn't part of the original ask. When I questioned it, I got a bit of attitude back from a couple of people. "We all need to do our work for the cause" -- kind of response. 

I'm not at my best hormonally and I have a lot of balls in the air, and this is probably a reaction related more to both these things ... so I'm taking a beat. This morning I want to say a big screw-you to the situation, but I won't (of course). It would be nice to be ASKED and THANKED for the help instead of DO MORE because that wasn't nearly enough. 

Bonus: "That" person wasn't at the meeting.

5. My uncle got a stage 4 diagnosis with no treatment options. Hopefully, slow growing. Very sad. He's been the patriarch of the family after my dad died 26 years ago. He's 83 years old.

Some happier notes:

6. Volunteering in Clarkston today -- and invited to lunch ahead at my friend's house. She's making a salad from her garden. Garden and grow room tour too. Total joy. It's so lovely to be invited to share a homemade meal. Her other friend will be there too -- both ladies are calm and sweet and HUGE activists. Just what I need to regroup after last night.

7. Friends asked me to go to the botanical gardens to see the spring blooms, but I have an obligation already. It's very, very nice to be asked though. These are the ladies that came to rock paint. 

8. A bookclub friend reached out to do lunch and talk all-things-life-coaching. She's a life coach and I'm interested to hear her story. She's also a really nice person -- calm, kind. We're going out next week.

9. I reached out to my high school friend -- it's her birthday next week. We go to lunch for each other's birthdays. I was able to get it on the calendar for tomorrow. That's a win because my days are quite full and she's a full-time instructor with a busy schedule and we matched a last minute date. 

Her pick for her birthday. She and I have different tastes in food, but it'll be fun to try a new restaurant. It's a Mexican restaurant owned by a local diner. 

10. Last night SHOULD be the last overnight freeze. Garden covered. I forgot to water though. Oh no. Also, I planted flowers from seeds -- up and growing well and EVERY SINGLE ONE is GONE. Something had a good meal. Dang and you're welcome. 

I'm looking forward to a nice day. Feeling lousy is a pisser though -- it makes all the things a little bit off. I hope hormones settle down again.

Have a good one too. Later gators.