Duke and Me and Asheville

Asheville or bust today.

I'm a little bit nervous. Strange for me and Asheville. Taking this trip with Duke, sans hubby, has me feeling out of sorts about it. Worried about things that don't worry me.

Sneaky feeling this is hormones -- suddenly nothing is stable. It might be a last push from my body before full menopause. 

Yesterday was better than expected. 

I ran outside at first light which is always pretty -- something about the sky and sun that early feels peaceful. Once I got moving, the run felt okay. I need to run at least once a week to not get crazy sore for a couple of days after.

Standing Friday meeting was a good one. Interesting conversation about our town, politics, etc. 

Lunch with my HS friend was also a nice conversation and the restaurant was a surprise hit. Got enough for dinner last night and lunch on the road today.

Hooked up my today's self by getting gas (had to drive for a bit to find gas under $5/gallon). Trying to make good time on the trip because stopping for a bathroom with my dog is an issue. I made it without stopping during the pandemic, but it's not easy -- my bladder is FULL.

But then yesterday's self did the minimum. Dang. I got a few things ready (laundry, trash, prepped food, etc), then sagged out. Double dang. 

I wanted an evening of nothing. I did get to bed early and got a good night's sleep, but I wish I'd done a little more because, once again, the morning feels like a push.

I AM hooking tomorrow's self up with a workout today so I can do the minimum morning activity tomorrow (long walk with Duke, but no workout). 

I think I'm going to skip tonight's family dinner. My aunt and uncle won't get in until 4:30 -- they'll need to get settled, house tour, greet everyone, etc. That means dinner after 6 o'clock and I have to leave Duke at the house. He's going to be a wreck being alone without Monti, especially the first day. He's also been throwing up (ate something -- his breath smells like death). As I said, I've seen my aunt and uncle twice recently and my sister hasn't. This'll give them time to catch up. 

UPDATE: I've actually seen them 3 times -- not going tonight.

Of course, if Duke is doing well and I feel energized, maybe I'll go. Playing it by ear. It's just going to be a later night and this pattern is tough for me right now. Leaning heavily toward not going.

Sometime I forget I can operate in the middle space. It's not a choice of all or nothing. I can go and do SOME of the things. My aunt and uncle are in to visit my sister and her family -- I'm not the main act. I can be a supporting character this weekend. Let someone else share the driving, so to speak. I'm doing more for Sunday -- taking today off is okay.

On that note, time to get moving. Have a good day. Later gators.