Jolly in My Holiday

Man, this December has been a rollercoaster. 

That family tension reared its head again yesterday -- 'cue a good old shower cry. I'm still upset and I'm letting myself be upset. Not hold a grudge, not "punishing" in any form ... but I'm not going to pretend it's fine until it is fine. I'm a punching bag for a stressed family member. Well, I'm also stressed and I'm not throwing verbal punches. It's not okay. I don't expect I'll get an apology, but I need time to work through my feelings.

Taking charge of me. 

I also declined a few plans next week. I'm prioritizing staying well for Christmas. I'm looking forward to our new Christmas schedule and I don't want to be sick. Of course, others might be (included hubby) and things might go array anyway, but I'll know I did my best.

I had a fun call with my cousin. We're hiking with her family on Christmas Eve. I love this connection.

Took Duke to the woods for a trail run. It was a little much on my back so I'm resting today, but we had a great time. The weather was picture perfect. And we "walked until the day became interesting."

Someone decorated a tree in the woods.

It even has a star on the top.

Unfortunately, the good mood was short lived since the family drama call came when I got home. I tried to hold onto the endorphins, but nope. That leads me to cookie dough. I did okay. I stopped myself after a few tastes and remembered I didn't want to eat feelings. Not perfect, but definite improvement.

I decided I'm taking this week and a half ahead of Christmas and taking charge of my time. I'm letting other people and circumstances dictate my days and that doesn't feel good. 

One thing I know is I can have a good time with myself. Waiting for everything else to line up isn't working. Me first at this moment. I'll put the jolly in my holiday lol. This starts with prioritizing what makes the holiday fun for me. I have a new craft project for next week. Might be a mixed result, but I'm giving it a try. Stay tuned ...

Heading to Asheville this morning. Teahouse for my usual and date night with hubby at a favorite restaurant. Both have a little risk but neither will be crowded and we'll be smart about it -- and it's just long enough before Christmas.

Hope you find some jolly too :) Later gators.