Updates on the Updates

I almost titled the post Sup-dates.  Made me laugh a little.  Is it funny or is it just me?

Anyway ...

Kids appointment went well.  Strong heartbeat, updated ultrasound and genetic blood work.  The blood work comes back next week so they're waiting to tell my side of the family until that's back (smart decision).  AND with the genetic blood work comes the GENDER!!  We'll know in the next few weeks.  They want to do a small gender reveal -- maybe a cake.  I'm getting very excited now.

Coaching was about LETTING GO.  Finally dropped completely from the dog foster group.  Truth is I'm not going to be involved while the new person is running the show.  If anything changes, I can go back or foster with another organization.  Given hubby is retired, I don't think fostering is in our future though.  

Next decision (with coaching help) was to renew my RN license.  It expires in January.  I decided to let it expire.  I'm not going to go back to work as a nurse.  It felt like holding on was ego -- actually both were ego.  People usually give kudos to being a nurse and dog fostering.  Since I'm in a bit in a transition stage of things, it gave me something to tell people I do, I am -- something with nice feedback.  "I'm retired FOR NOW, but have my license."  "I foster for a local group, but not lately since my back injury."  Implying both are maybe just temporary breaks.  Not true.  Outsourcing my worth from feedback from others.  It's probably why both decisions were weighing so heavily lately.

In 2019 (with my personal coach, Holly) I did work around letting go of things that are finished to make space for something else.  In this case, MENTAL space.  Once I made the decision, it felt like relief.  I was thinking regularly about both.  These conversations come up a lot when I hike with people and then I start down the "what if" road.  Too much mental energy wasted.  

Letting go is hard for me and I have a pattern of holding on too long.  I cleared the road again and it's time to move forward without old baggage of identities that I loved, but are now complete.  Can you hear the coaching language around letting go -- finished, complete?  I used to say -- quitting, stopping.  Language makes a difference.

I have Kindle Unlimited until November.  I'm reading Rock Paper Scissors (Alice Feeney).  Creepy in a good way so far.  

I watched a video on tomato pruning and gave it a gentle go.  When in doubt, I didn't prune the branch.  The plant has 25 tomatoes right now and I've picked about 10.  Took my own advice from the last post and kept on trying to figure it out.  It's how you learn and how you get the results you want.

That's all that up with the updates -- SupDates.  Have a good day.  Later gators.