A Mood

The storms damaged the water station's power and it took all day yesterday to get water production back online.  We have restrictions until noon today, but the emergency water situation is over.  I can't imagine areas that have hurricane or tornado destruction -- what upheaval.  Notification was sent just after my shower -- small win for me.

Lunch was nice.  Nothing special.  Mostly dog foster talk, as expected. 

I'm having a mood and I need to pull out of it.  I'm eating like CRAP (aka buffering) and I think the results of that are the dominant problem now.  Same pattern, same lesson lived over and over for decades for me.  I'm so frustrated with myself.  I know judgement compounds everything and I have compassion for myself, but at some point I simply need to stop.  

Now I feel EXTRA icky -- mentally and physically.  I feel anxious about everything.  I'm impatient with everything.  Fun gal to be around today.

My goal is to get back to "regular" this weekend and set myself up for next week.  I wish I could do this alone.  It's hard to sit in my feelings when I get interrupted with a bored husband talk (finances, house stuff, chore talk, more finance plans, sports, etc).

Anyway, this is going to devolve into a mood post (if it hasn't already).  Best to call it.  Hope you have a good weekend.  Later gators.