Leaning Into Future Self

Yesterday was an interesting day in FS work.  My girlfriend canceled coffee (yep, she's the big cancel friend) with an excuse that read to me as "my husband wants me to do something else."  She offered another day, but I'm in Asheville, then she's away for a couple of weeks.  Which makes it all the more frustrating since we can't get together anytime soon.

Why is this FS stuff?  Because my response was kind, but I didn't placate the cancel.  No "it's fine" or "no problem" -- because I didn't feel that way.  Okay, we'll reschedule when you get some time.  Short and simple.  

Also, that left me with a day and no specific plans.  I wanted to be out of the house for the cleaning crew, so FS to the rescue.  What would my future self do?  It's funny because the answer is always obvious so I did it.  

Took a drive to the river hike where I found good painting rocks with the hiking group.  The water was rushing and loud and a little scary, but not dangerous (just scary in my head with the rushing water).  I found a bagful of painting rocks and took a little walk in the woods.  

Looks like GIANT painting rocks lol.

Rock bath

Waiting to be painted

On the way out of the park, I noticed a luncheon restaurant which I hadn't before.  It's one of several local locations with health minded choices.  It's getting easier and easier to find plant forward food.  I've been a lot better at paying attention -- it's fun to see what there is to see.  Maybe I'll give it a take-out try after a hike.

Then I drove to get pickup from a favorite local vegan lunch place -- ordered on my phone, super fast pickup with little people interaction.  

Last stop was the library to get my hold book.  I waited at the desk to ask why no notification.  She found the reason (glitch in the system) and "fooled" it to push forward notifications -- something to do with only one phone number on the account.  Glad I asked.  Glad I stopped.

Super fast read.  Already finished it.
It was entertaining.  Good library pick.

Came home to a clean house, vegan lunch and read the rest of the afternoon.  

A disappointment turned into a good day.  That's what Future Self is all about.  I tend to get my panties in a bunch over small things -- like social cancels that I take to mean something about the value of my time or the value of my company.  I know this is an old childhood trigger and I'm working on choosing a different reaction and different action.  Yesterday, I did a good job.  You are what you practice.  Goal is to keep practicing.

BTW, I emailed my Spanish instructor and passed on the month of tutoring.  I already made the decision and focusing forward.  Taking pressure off this Spain trip and making Spanish learning fun again.

Today is a mixed bag of stuff.  Spain excursion planning (starting it), maybe some outside time this afternoon if the rain stops early enough and house chores before I leave for a long weekend in Asheville.

Lator gators.