My Big Debate

After listening to Dr. Fauci and being on the hunt for fun in quarantine, I decided to open up my life a bit.  Apple picking was one of those things.  Safe and fun.

This week I planned two fun things that felt okay and opened up connection with people (I'm craving CONNECTION).  Now I'm second guessing this decision.  The problem is I can't tell if this is FEAR speaking or logical concern.

First up, visit my aunt.  She had knee replacement surgery and has been home for the last week (with a negative COVID test).  Her husband does things (church, volunteer), but he won't be home when I visit tomorrow.  I feel like this is the safest time to see her, but the problem is we'll need to be inside because she needs to keep her leg out flat and elevated.  Do I go?  Do I wear a mask?  

The second felt super safe to me -- walk outside in a botanical garden with another friend.  I was pumped for this until my other friend pointed out she has college kids.  Neither have been home so I think I'm okay with this.  Outside, wide path and I'll have a mask if I run into anyone.  I can also wear one while we walk if it feels "too close."  My friend said she'd be concerned walking with her -- now I'm second guessing this too.  The weather might put a stop to it this week, but it would be a postponement, not a cancel.

Neither of these is of the least bit concerning if neither have COVID.  The question is, if they are asymptomatic or just beginning to get sick, can I catch it from these interactions.

I need a SAFE balance of CONNECTION because this is continuing for a least another year (Dr. Fauci).  Is this safe?  I think this is FEAR talking and what I'm doing is okay.

Maybe the answer is to wear a mask and that will take so much of the worry away.  I planned to social distance, but the added security of a mask might ease my mind.  I think that's what I'm going to do ... stay tuned.

Hubby leaves today for VA after 2 weeks at home.  Mixed bag of feeling as usual.  Happy to have some alone time and I'll miss him and I worry about his drive.

This week seems much less MORNING HEAVY and that's good.  

I'm on the hunt for happy today to balance out my worry.  Stay well.  Later gators.