The Fence is FINISHED (!!)

And it's EXACTLY the fix I needed.  We ran low on zip ties toward the end, so we have a little more securing to do once another package arrives, but otherwise, it's perfect.  My dog-escape anxiety is at ZERO.   We have a big back fence -- almost $400 to do the entire thing.  This was the least expensive option and the most flexible -- it can easily be taken down or replaced with no issue to the existing fence.  We got the two foot high 100 foot rolls x 3.  Comes in a few height options too.

It's impossible to see it from the street and at most distances it's "invisible" unless you look very hard.  Up close is a bit clunky, but that's no issue for us.

Didn't try the SeedLip.  The 3 of us worked for 3 hours in the sun and it wasn't hard, but it was backbreaking.  Lime juice went to a pitcher of margaritas instead LOL.  Can't say that bothered me.  Lunch tasted awesome -- we were hungry and tired.  It hit all the spots.

I'm working on my HEAD STUFF.  Specifically ACCEPTING that my baseline normal is in the crapper.  Again, I know all the important BIG things are good and I'm very grateful, but the FUN part of life sucks for the foreseeable future.  This might seem doom and gloom, but accepting a low baseline means I don't rollercoaster as much.  It also means I have a STARTING POINT.  If this is how my life looks right now, I need to build from THIS reality, not a reality I WISH I was in.

Building up from this new place means rethinking what fun can look like and it's a challenge.  

I also came to terms with being angry that I have to rework my life.  The last couple of years were spent figuring out how to be happier and I made a lot of progress.  This is a big step backwards and it makes me upset.  Arguing with reality won't get me anywhere though.  Even though what I'm doing doesn't look the same, the things I learned about myself should help me climb back more quickly.

I made a decision to come "clean" to my life coach too.  I'm turning to food WAY TOO MUCH and it's out of control again.  I hate to admit I'm back HERE again, but the reality is I am and I need help to get out of it.  Just making that decision feels good.  HONESTY with myself (and her) is a way forward.

On another note -- cold showers.  I guess this is a big thing.  Melissa Urban of Whole30 fame did a couple of podcasts on this subject very recently.  I haven't been listening to her podcasts because they were too heavy and a bit preachy lately.  I have the first one cued up and can't wait to learn more about it.  If NOTHING ELSE, this is some fun variety.  A little experiment.  Something new.  THIS is the type of thing I need in my life.

I'm setting up to start the picture bin organization this week.  This goes hand in hand with working on the picture wall for my bedroom.  Forcing some productivity in my quarantine.  

I'm DETERMINED to figure this out and, damn it, HAVE SOME FUN -- hah.

Hoka hiking shoes have shipped so maybe a hike this week if weather, heel and shoe delivery cooperate.  Being out of the house is important for me.  Nature is a bonus.  When I hibernate, it brings on issues for me.  Hibernating feels good at first, but quickly brings on a funk.  

This is the most excited, hopeful, strong I've felt in a long time.  Pretty please with sugar on the top, let this be the start of something better.  If you're feeling a funk too -- not alone.  Seems like everyone is hurting or struggling.  Hang on.  We can figure this out.

Stay well.  Later gators.