April Fool's Day

We made it through March.  I don't often think months feel like they go on and on ... but, holy cow, March seemed never-ending.  Remember the beginning of March?  Before life as we knew it fell apart?  Doesn't it seem lightyears ago??

Anyway, let's see if we can do April a bit better.  Restrictions will stay in place, but we have an entire month of this new normal and, on some level, we are settling into the change.

I signed up for an online Yale course, The Science of Well-Being.  It's Yale's most popular online courses and this term, it's FREE.  It started yesterday and I have no idea if this is something I'll stick with -- I was Instagram influenced and signed up on a whim.  No harm either way.  I hope this is something I'll enjoy.  I don't even know how long it lasts ... more info to come after I give it a go.  Course is broken down into weeks so I have all week to finish the first assignment.  There are over a million people signed up, so I'm not concerned about dropping out if it's not enjoyable or useful.

I finished Love is Blind on Netflix.  Total junk TV and I was all for it.  SHOCKING reunion.

Little Fires Everywhere is getting good.  I'm about halfway and picking up my reading times again. The TV series is on Hulu (which I don't have) -- but, I'm not interested if I just read the book.

Today is our scheduled cleaning crew day -- we're tag teaming the main floor and tomorrow the other, smaller floors.  Fingers crossed my back can handle it.  I imagine it's going to be a couple of months (at least).  We agreed to pay her -- she's a single mom.

Yesterday was a better day for our couple-ness LOL.  Hubby got a busy with some job interview stuff and his mood was lighter.  We stayed clear of joint puzzling and I came clean about ordering a second one.  Hubby agreed.  We have a new limit on our puzzle relationship -- look at us, learning and growing ;)

I have another FaceTime call with my girlfriend on Friday.  It was super nice to connect that way and it felt almost like a real meetup.  I figured, I'd put it out to a number of pals and this would become a "thing" except it's not.  A number of my usual peeps are busy -- working from home, or too many people home, or not showering ... I'll try again next week.  It helps so much with the boringness of this time.  Something about SEEING someone in actual time feels good.  Maybe I can convince them.

I'm working hard on GOOD TO FEEL GOOD.  Why?  Because I need to be okay.  This is a marathon of stress, uncertainty, etc and I'm more than capable of doing something about it.  The world keeps swinging ... at first, DO EVERYTHING with this "free" time.  Learn, grow, write a novel.

Then the swing.

DO NOTHING.  Have grace.  It's okay to be a sofa slug and simply exist.  Don't push yourself.  We're all grieving and feeling and scared.

Yes.  But something in-between those extremes seems more helpful for ME.  I spend the last week as a sofa slug and it's time to expect more from myself.  I can still FEEL and have GRACE, but doing that doesn't mean giving up on everything.  There IS good to be found -- I need to practice seeing it.

Hope you are well and happy.  Later gators.