Crickets

It rarely happens that I'm at a loss for words, but I got nothing in the old toboggan (is that the right word?) this morning.

Fortunately, the Whole30 Channel is always up and running.  So W30 woes and successes - oh goodie!

I'm on Day 9.
It's flying by.
It's draggin' ass.
Gotta love/hate the dichotomy of a W30.

(Poetic???)

Anyway, I'm struggling a bit this W30 probably because I was so off course for a couple of months.  I'm not struggling as in I'm giving up, but I'm hitting all the "hard" phases and have yet to REALLY experience the good stuff.

Here's the "hard" crap:

I WANT junk food every afternoon.  Enough said.

Kill-All-Things phase hit big time.  I actually checked the calendar to make sure it wasn't "that" time. I don't recall going through this phase before.  W30 has a Timeline of common happenings - this is a real stage.  Case of the major grumps for no reason.  You hate anything and everything.  It's over, but it was a couple days of holding-in-the-crazy as best I could.

My pants are tighter.  Hello bloat.  Also a common happening, but it's never been a big deal before.  I'll get bloat in the evening (depending on what I eat), but this is bloat all day long.  It should go away in a few days -- according to the Timeline gospel.  Let's hope.

21 days left is ENDLESS!  I'm not even 1/3 there.

Where is my good sleep?  I had to take a Benadryl last night as I lay WIDE awake with a mega stuffy nose -- killed 2 birds with one drug though (nurse bragging). This might explain my weird morning fog today -- oops.

Where is my productive energy?  My body is STILL tired.  My mind is still blah.  I should be hitting the get-all-my shit-done by 7am phase.  I'm stuck in the crawl-to-the-sofa by 4pm phase instead.

Here's the good stuff:

Nothing.

Okay, I'm being a bit dramatic.  There are a few good things happening.

I'm waking up early and easily.  No more food coma (not to be confused with food "comma" -- caught this typo early!)

I'm HAPPY to be on the right course again.  Comfort in the rules.  Accountability.  Proud of myself -- I held strong on my birthday for crying out loud!!  Well done ME.

It's already Day 9.  I blinked and am through the first week. (Remember that dichotomy thing??)

I've discovered a couple of new, delicious recipes.  (I'm reaching on this one.)

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Whole30 likes to keep you on your toes.  I know myself well ... I don't know myself at all.  It's a stinker.  I have little panic moments that W30 won't work this time (I've worn it out), but I need some patience and belief in the process.  I have no idea why it seems different (aka slower) this time.  Maybe it's all in my head.

BTW Day 10-12 are the most-likely-to-quit days.  Ut-oh.

But for today ... Day 9. Later gators.