Anyway, I'm still shy of my HAPPY path, but I have hopes of getting there today. Yesterday afternoon gave me time to think and I woke up in good spirits -- ready to fight the fight so to speak.
The new book I'm reading is about finding what matters in your life. Letting go of the crappy, non important stuff and focusing on real things -- i.e. don't focus on the guy who cut you off in traffic, focus on fixing your broken relationship. That sort of thing. I hear his message; I don't know if the way he's getting there resonates with me totally. I'm only 1/3 through the book though. I'll review it at the end (with title that I can't remember this minute -- darn kindle).
I finished a lot of my to-do list yesterday. I was on a roll, but then rolled off the old train. Why? I'm embarrassed to even confess this here. My hair is too dark again. I told her we were still moving a bit lighter and it looks brown on the base again. I have to wash the keratin treatment today to see how it looks. Maybe it's fine once it's washed. Maybe this is a mountain out of a mole hill. Maybe my crash-n-burn was for nothing.
I'm not as vain as I appear (or maybe I am). For me this is about being heard. I'm shouting and I finally thought someone was listening, but I don't feel that way again. This theme repeats so much in my life. "I can do any day but Tuesday." Tuesday it is. WTH. Really?!? I keep looking at myself to see why this repeats so much -- how am I allowing it? I guess I am. Frustrating. My hair issue brought up all that frustration again.
But today I have a clearer mindset and I'm focused on getting back on that HAPPY path. If my hair is too dark, I will call to get it fixed. Problem solved. Focus on what matters (thanks new book). My real issue is getting back to HEALTHY and feeling well. The hair means nothing because it can be fixed or lived with -- both easy solutions. It's distracting me from the "real" work that needs to be done.
Since we're chatting all things vain ... my finger nails. It's time for a break from the gel. It's pealing almost immediately and it's making my nails extremely weak. I'm going to try regular long-lasting polish this week. Who knows if it actually works, but it's non damaging and can't be much worse than the pealing I have now (I hope). We'll see. Maybe a month break, if the polish works? My nails grow quickly from the collagen peptides.
Today is my split workout. Some cardio, followed by noon lifting -- triceps and back today. It will feel good to get back to "normal." Errands end the day. Nothing fancy.
My INTENTION today is healthy habits, no excuses, no compromise. It's a promise to ME today and must be kept at all costs. Period. No discussion. I need this win. I need to take this step up on the HAPPY path. Later gators.
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