Packing is finished. Amazing. It went so fast since I had it all planned and organized. I'm super happy. Just some last minute stuff that's too early to go in the bag.
Best part - all carry on. It's tight, but it's worth it. I have a tote bag so I can check my bag on the way home. Room for some goodies :-)
Now, I'm relaxing and dreaming of stuffing my pie-hole. Ooooops. Witching hours are strong today (as predicted). I need to keep focused. All the Italy thinking has left me wanting some vino! I'm trying not to talk myself into it.
Ugh. I hate this struggle -- practically every afternoon/evening. I guess the answer is to keep fighting the fight. I tried "giving-up" and "giving-in" and that got me an extra 75+ lbs. Can't do that again. Won't do that again. Choice is mine. Fighting is a better choice. It's frustrating though.
I'm being a bit witchy, bitchy this afternoon because the "fight" has me cranky. Poor me, lol.
Okay, checking in to be accountable to ME.
Sunday, April 30, 2017
PHOTOS!!
I decided to include some pictures in my journal. Why not.
Me and hubby. XO
My gorgeous pup. I mean, come on ... does it get any cuter!
The painting. I LOVE it!!!
Me and hubby. XO
My gorgeous pup. I mean, come on ... does it get any cuter!
The painting. I LOVE it!!!
Packing Day 1
A trip this long needs 2 days to pack. For some reason, I find packing mentally tiring and stretching that over a couple of days just works. Packing all the "extras" today. Clothes tomorrow. Then Italy!!
Yesterday was a fun, busy day. Here's a quick recap ...
Workout was HARD! (yea!) The air-conditioning was broken so it was hot and humid too. Talk about sweating (after I just said I don't sweat as much lifting - I was soaked to the core). My muscles are tired today BIG TIME. Rest day today.
My nails are back to being ME. Enough said. I've beat this dead horse.
The birthday cake will be EPIC!! My son said it was the best cake and fillings he'd ever tasted. It's huge ... all Steelers topped with a big number 5-0 in football jersey numbers. Two tall layers. Bottom is all about hubby ... vanilla cake, chocolate buttercream and Baileys cream filling. Top is vanilla cake with salted caramel filling and vanilla buttercream. Yum, yum and EXPENSIVE!! He's never had a birthday party. It's about time and well worth every penny. And, now that I'm cooking for it, the cake price is fine.
Lunch was quick and healthy. Grilled chicken with grilled veggies.
All of us gathered for the afternoon and out to dinner ... one of those new burger places. We had a great time, but our order was wrong all over the place. I got a bun-less turkey burger with lots of fixings. Delicious, but small. I ended up with a bedtime snack later. I kept my promise and it was a healthy eating day.
My son's girlfriend had a painting commissioned of my sweet pup. I LOVE it!! How sweet is she ... having a girl around is awesome. It looks just like him.
Today is a low key day. Packing, possible walk with a friend and eyebrow threading. Usually, this close to a trip I'm scrambling. This time I'm extra organized and it's going smoothly. Of course, it helps immensely that I'm not working right now. I'd always have to work right up against the trip. That's that part that will be a bummer when I go back to work. Thoughts for a different day though.
My INTENTION for today is HEALTHY. No workout, tired body, 1/2 full day can lead to nibbling and that can get out of control quickly. I know ME. I want to continue to feel well for this trip. Okay folks, off to get the day started. Later gators.
Yesterday was a fun, busy day. Here's a quick recap ...
Workout was HARD! (yea!) The air-conditioning was broken so it was hot and humid too. Talk about sweating (after I just said I don't sweat as much lifting - I was soaked to the core). My muscles are tired today BIG TIME. Rest day today.
My nails are back to being ME. Enough said. I've beat this dead horse.
The birthday cake will be EPIC!! My son said it was the best cake and fillings he'd ever tasted. It's huge ... all Steelers topped with a big number 5-0 in football jersey numbers. Two tall layers. Bottom is all about hubby ... vanilla cake, chocolate buttercream and Baileys cream filling. Top is vanilla cake with salted caramel filling and vanilla buttercream. Yum, yum and EXPENSIVE!! He's never had a birthday party. It's about time and well worth every penny. And, now that I'm cooking for it, the cake price is fine.
Lunch was quick and healthy. Grilled chicken with grilled veggies.
All of us gathered for the afternoon and out to dinner ... one of those new burger places. We had a great time, but our order was wrong all over the place. I got a bun-less turkey burger with lots of fixings. Delicious, but small. I ended up with a bedtime snack later. I kept my promise and it was a healthy eating day.
My son's girlfriend had a painting commissioned of my sweet pup. I LOVE it!! How sweet is she ... having a girl around is awesome. It looks just like him.
Today is a low key day. Packing, possible walk with a friend and eyebrow threading. Usually, this close to a trip I'm scrambling. This time I'm extra organized and it's going smoothly. Of course, it helps immensely that I'm not working right now. I'd always have to work right up against the trip. That's that part that will be a bummer when I go back to work. Thoughts for a different day though.
My INTENTION for today is HEALTHY. No workout, tired body, 1/2 full day can lead to nibbling and that can get out of control quickly. I know ME. I want to continue to feel well for this trip. Okay folks, off to get the day started. Later gators.
Saturday, April 29, 2017
The Weekend is HERE
I'm up early for Saturday Circuit at the yoga studio. It's one of my favorite classes, but by Saturday my muscles are pooped. Tomorrow is a much anticipated rest day. I'm pushing hard this week since the trip is just around the corner. Workouts will be abbreviated and somewhat spotty. Yesterday was hard, but fun - partner workout. I got paired with a chatty 29 year old - she made me laugh the whole time.
We're heading to dinner tonight with the kids. Hubby misses them :) (So do I - for the record.) I'll keep away from the alcohol again tonight. We'll be drinking everyday for 11 days - my liver needs to be in tip-top shape lol. AND I'm out to lunch today too. I need to be careful.
I've decided my stuffiness is allergies. Every night and morning it feels like a cold coming on ... then nothing (thankfully). Springtime in GA -- enough said. Even so, I'm taking care to get good night's sleep and keep rested. The red-eye to Italy means losing a night and that takes it's toll on me. I need sleep - always have, probably always will.
Today is nail day! I can finally stop perseverating on this and have my regular nails back. I wonder if it will feel weird at first. My nail beds throb with the powder on them. Not painful, but a strange sensation.
My shopping spree early in the week is yielding results -- packages galore. The FoodSaver came and the rolls of "bags," but I'll wait until after the trip to play with it. I can't wait!
The party decorations are coming in too. Still no "heads" ... I hope they are fun.
I also have 2 workout shirts on the way. I run in athletic wear stuff, but I lift in regular shirts. I don't sweat as much and I don't always want tight tank tops out in public. One was for Earth Day, but it was on backorder. Just as well. I planned to wear it during a charity walk (on Earth Day), but then pup had surgery. It's been so long since I ordered it, I don't remember which one I got. It's like a surprise gift! The other one is FUNNY. "I'm unable to quit as I'm currently too legit." Cracked me up.
That's the update from here. I have a busy and fun day ahead. My INTENTION today is to enjoy people, all people ... my family, my workout buddies, etc. Kind of like a PLAY NICE day.
AND meditation is on hold again because I can't seem to get it together on this one. I have a new app recommendation which I'll explore when I'm back. Two people mentioned it as their favorite (HeadSpace.com). Still trying because the universe will not let me ignore it - believe me I've tried.
Later gators.
We're heading to dinner tonight with the kids. Hubby misses them :) (So do I - for the record.) I'll keep away from the alcohol again tonight. We'll be drinking everyday for 11 days - my liver needs to be in tip-top shape lol. AND I'm out to lunch today too. I need to be careful.
I've decided my stuffiness is allergies. Every night and morning it feels like a cold coming on ... then nothing (thankfully). Springtime in GA -- enough said. Even so, I'm taking care to get good night's sleep and keep rested. The red-eye to Italy means losing a night and that takes it's toll on me. I need sleep - always have, probably always will.
Today is nail day! I can finally stop perseverating on this and have my regular nails back. I wonder if it will feel weird at first. My nail beds throb with the powder on them. Not painful, but a strange sensation.
My shopping spree early in the week is yielding results -- packages galore. The FoodSaver came and the rolls of "bags," but I'll wait until after the trip to play with it. I can't wait!
The party decorations are coming in too. Still no "heads" ... I hope they are fun.
I also have 2 workout shirts on the way. I run in athletic wear stuff, but I lift in regular shirts. I don't sweat as much and I don't always want tight tank tops out in public. One was for Earth Day, but it was on backorder. Just as well. I planned to wear it during a charity walk (on Earth Day), but then pup had surgery. It's been so long since I ordered it, I don't remember which one I got. It's like a surprise gift! The other one is FUNNY. "I'm unable to quit as I'm currently too legit." Cracked me up.
That's the update from here. I have a busy and fun day ahead. My INTENTION today is to enjoy people, all people ... my family, my workout buddies, etc. Kind of like a PLAY NICE day.
AND meditation is on hold again because I can't seem to get it together on this one. I have a new app recommendation which I'll explore when I'm back. Two people mentioned it as their favorite (HeadSpace.com). Still trying because the universe will not let me ignore it - believe me I've tried.
Later gators.
Friday, April 28, 2017
Juggling
I have a few balls in the air this week ... nursing my pup back to health, party planning and our trip to Italy. So far, I'm juggling well!
My Sweet Boy:
He's eating, but still not acting quite himself. He has a quick grooming appointment today since he'll be spending some time at our friend's house ... and he STINKS. His incision is ready for a bath, but I hope he is ready (pain-wise). I love this sweet dog. I'm going to worry about him while we're away.
Party Planning:
My youngest has to come home for a quick work shift Saturday, so we're heading to cake taste for the party. I need to get the order in before we leave since it's graduation season. He'll do the tasting to save me boarding the sweets train! We are both picky -- I don't like that fake taste in some bakery cakes. I picked this place since it will decorate - the real deal decorate - Steelers (of course). But I won't settle for crappy taste. Hubby ALWAYS gets vanilla cake with chocolate buttercream. I usually make it, but I don't decorate cakes so bakery wins.
I wanted to cater the party, but I decided to cook. Normally, a summer party is on the grill (managed by hubby) but that won't work for his birthday. I'm going to make pulled bbq chicken and pulled kalua pig (with rolls), potato salad (I have a really good recipe), coleslaw and homemade mac+cheese (my recipe from 8th grade home-ec class). I ordered a FoodSaver (finally) and I can make lots ahead and freeze it. That will take some of the pressure off that week. I'll figure out the munchies later. Lots of work.
I've ordered the decorations -- including those big head cut-outs. So funny! Steelers themed rather than old-age themed. He LOVES the Steelers. We say if a dress had the Steelers logo, he'd consider wearing it lol.
Drinks will be the usual (wine, beer) but adding a Lava Flow (his favorite drink). I have to experiment with it. Pina colada with strawberry "flow." I'll have my eldest help taste taste this one. I don't like sweet drinks very much (weird, I know).
I'm excited for him AND he's excited. He's never wanted a party before. Fingers crossed it makes him feel great!
Italy:
I'm super organized. Yea ME! It shouldn't be a problem to pack. Other than our dog hike into the forest for truffles (fun and yum!), my clothes are the typical summer travel. Long skirt, top and a carried sweater. I have a mega-list going and I'm plugging away. My workouts are a bit up-in-the-air. I ordered resistance bans that will travel perfectly. I should be able to run outside (if it's safe). The hotel in Rome has a workout room, but I'm out of luck the rest of the trip. I'll figure it out - I always do. Working out is like my religion.
Speaking of which, I have a lift class early this morning. Our instructor says it's a special one - something fun. I like when she changes it up. Lots of errands to do and a full day ahead. I can't seem to think of an INTENTION today. I'm in task mode. I'll think about it ... which reminds me I haven't been doing my meditation (again). Oh, the elusive meditation ... good lord!
My Sweet Boy:
He's eating, but still not acting quite himself. He has a quick grooming appointment today since he'll be spending some time at our friend's house ... and he STINKS. His incision is ready for a bath, but I hope he is ready (pain-wise). I love this sweet dog. I'm going to worry about him while we're away.
Party Planning:
My youngest has to come home for a quick work shift Saturday, so we're heading to cake taste for the party. I need to get the order in before we leave since it's graduation season. He'll do the tasting to save me boarding the sweets train! We are both picky -- I don't like that fake taste in some bakery cakes. I picked this place since it will decorate - the real deal decorate - Steelers (of course). But I won't settle for crappy taste. Hubby ALWAYS gets vanilla cake with chocolate buttercream. I usually make it, but I don't decorate cakes so bakery wins.
I wanted to cater the party, but I decided to cook. Normally, a summer party is on the grill (managed by hubby) but that won't work for his birthday. I'm going to make pulled bbq chicken and pulled kalua pig (with rolls), potato salad (I have a really good recipe), coleslaw and homemade mac+cheese (my recipe from 8th grade home-ec class). I ordered a FoodSaver (finally) and I can make lots ahead and freeze it. That will take some of the pressure off that week. I'll figure out the munchies later. Lots of work.
I've ordered the decorations -- including those big head cut-outs. So funny! Steelers themed rather than old-age themed. He LOVES the Steelers. We say if a dress had the Steelers logo, he'd consider wearing it lol.
Drinks will be the usual (wine, beer) but adding a Lava Flow (his favorite drink). I have to experiment with it. Pina colada with strawberry "flow." I'll have my eldest help taste taste this one. I don't like sweet drinks very much (weird, I know).
I'm excited for him AND he's excited. He's never wanted a party before. Fingers crossed it makes him feel great!
Italy:
I'm super organized. Yea ME! It shouldn't be a problem to pack. Other than our dog hike into the forest for truffles (fun and yum!), my clothes are the typical summer travel. Long skirt, top and a carried sweater. I have a mega-list going and I'm plugging away. My workouts are a bit up-in-the-air. I ordered resistance bans that will travel perfectly. I should be able to run outside (if it's safe). The hotel in Rome has a workout room, but I'm out of luck the rest of the trip. I'll figure it out - I always do. Working out is like my religion.
Speaking of which, I have a lift class early this morning. Our instructor says it's a special one - something fun. I like when she changes it up. Lots of errands to do and a full day ahead. I can't seem to think of an INTENTION today. I'm in task mode. I'll think about it ... which reminds me I haven't been doing my meditation (again). Oh, the elusive meditation ... good lord!
Thursday, April 27, 2017
Thursday All Day
Just a quick check-in this evening -- I've got the "it's Thursday" down finally.
I'm feeling those witching hours tonight. That's a bummer. I've eaten healthy all day and need to keep it that way. The good news is there is not a stitch of junk food in the house -- empty nest gives that option.
In other good news, I'm still tired. That will mean an early bed tonight - less time to eat lol! Hopefully, a good night's sleep will do wonders.
I had a productive day (cooking finished) and enjoyed the lift class (crazy thighs and triceps). I spent some time relaxing too. Intention successful.
Okay, I need to go find my dog who has not come back to the door. Probably found some good smells to enjoy. I feel sad he is cooped up all day. A little fresh air is good for everyone.
Until tomorrow ...
I'm feeling those witching hours tonight. That's a bummer. I've eaten healthy all day and need to keep it that way. The good news is there is not a stitch of junk food in the house -- empty nest gives that option.
In other good news, I'm still tired. That will mean an early bed tonight - less time to eat lol! Hopefully, a good night's sleep will do wonders.
I had a productive day (cooking finished) and enjoyed the lift class (crazy thighs and triceps). I spent some time relaxing too. Intention successful.
Okay, I need to go find my dog who has not come back to the door. Probably found some good smells to enjoy. I feel sad he is cooped up all day. A little fresh air is good for everyone.
Until tomorrow ...
Thursday??
I can't believe it's already Thursday. This week is flying! I guess enjoying my awesome empty nest is playing with the space-time continuum. I checked the calendar twice just to make sure (really!).
Anyway ... last night was good. Lots of healthy food selections (very surprising) and an early-ish night. Win and win! No alcohol for me and I didn't even miss it.
I'm up early today. Still with a backache but slow improvement. I'll be careful at lift this morning.
I have a couple of errands and some cooking to do this afternoon. Pretty chill day. I'll try to get some of the little things ready for our trip (download kindle books, write-up dog instructions, etc) if my energy bounces up.
You know how I felt so good yesterday I add an extra run ... well, it caught up to me. My body is fatigued. I'm awake, but am moving in slow motion -- like I want to go back to bed, but my brain says no. A chill day is perfect.
My body is toying with a cold. Hubby's been sick for the last week plus (banished to sleeping in a spare room) and I thought I dodged it. Run-down = sick for me. I need to go easy. I am stuffed up, but it could be allergies (but I also feel run-down today). It's enough that I'll have my period for the second big trip this year (ugh), I don't need a cold too.
I'm nicely on track for my trip packing. A trip this big needs time. I'm so HAPPY that I'm not rushed at all. Well done ME.
Okay, it's a short one this morning. Sitting in this chair is hurting my back. My intention today is again ME. Rest and recover are the name of the game.
P.S. I did really well with the "play nice" yesterday. So well, I'm over it all. Look what happens when you focus on the good -- wow!
Anyway ... last night was good. Lots of healthy food selections (very surprising) and an early-ish night. Win and win! No alcohol for me and I didn't even miss it.
I'm up early today. Still with a backache but slow improvement. I'll be careful at lift this morning.
I have a couple of errands and some cooking to do this afternoon. Pretty chill day. I'll try to get some of the little things ready for our trip (download kindle books, write-up dog instructions, etc) if my energy bounces up.
You know how I felt so good yesterday I add an extra run ... well, it caught up to me. My body is fatigued. I'm awake, but am moving in slow motion -- like I want to go back to bed, but my brain says no. A chill day is perfect.
My body is toying with a cold. Hubby's been sick for the last week plus (banished to sleeping in a spare room) and I thought I dodged it. Run-down = sick for me. I need to go easy. I am stuffed up, but it could be allergies (but I also feel run-down today). It's enough that I'll have my period for the second big trip this year (ugh), I don't need a cold too.
I'm nicely on track for my trip packing. A trip this big needs time. I'm so HAPPY that I'm not rushed at all. Well done ME.
Okay, it's a short one this morning. Sitting in this chair is hurting my back. My intention today is again ME. Rest and recover are the name of the game.
P.S. I did really well with the "play nice" yesterday. So well, I'm over it all. Look what happens when you focus on the good -- wow!
Wednesday, April 26, 2017
Slump on Hump Day
I had a really good day (so far - it's still afternoon lol).
Pedicure was really good. I chose a light blue -- unusual for me.
Shopping went well. I think I have what I need (whew - I'm not a big in-store shopper). I finally dropped off a dress that needs to be shortened. It so crazy long. I'm 5'8" and even if I wore the highest heels, it would still be too long. I got it a few years ago at a regular store - strange.
The grocery store finally got my french green beans in stock. It's the small things. I haven't had them in a week. I've eaten two packs today.
GNI tonight. I'm not particularly in the mood. My back hurts, I'm tired, I'm driving and it will be a late night. Oh well. Once the evening starts, I should be fine.
I need to keep my head on straight and my mouth shut of all junk food tonight. Temptation island. As least I can't drink (for that reason I'm glad to be driving). Focus, focus, focus and a full belly before I leave. That's my plan.
All that said, I'm slumping in a big way this afternoon. But it's good kind of slump. Productive, happy and relaxed.
Wish me luck tonight! Better get making my appetizer :)
Pedicure was really good. I chose a light blue -- unusual for me.
Shopping went well. I think I have what I need (whew - I'm not a big in-store shopper). I finally dropped off a dress that needs to be shortened. It so crazy long. I'm 5'8" and even if I wore the highest heels, it would still be too long. I got it a few years ago at a regular store - strange.
The grocery store finally got my french green beans in stock. It's the small things. I haven't had them in a week. I've eaten two packs today.
GNI tonight. I'm not particularly in the mood. My back hurts, I'm tired, I'm driving and it will be a late night. Oh well. Once the evening starts, I should be fine.
I need to keep my head on straight and my mouth shut of all junk food tonight. Temptation island. As least I can't drink (for that reason I'm glad to be driving). Focus, focus, focus and a full belly before I leave. That's my plan.
All that said, I'm slumping in a big way this afternoon. But it's good kind of slump. Productive, happy and relaxed.
Wish me luck tonight! Better get making my appetizer :)
Hump Day (I'm all out of titles)
My back is improving, but is still problematic. It's a bummer, but I seem to be able to do most of my workouts. That's good news. And it should be mended by our long flight to Italy.
The year we went to Spain, we also went to Hawaii. Long ass flights back-to-back. This year is the same. It's not fun, but no choice in the matter lol. Sitting for so long hurts. If only we'd fly 1st-class! I want to be that fancy! But who can really complain (obviously me)?!?
Hubby noticed the blonder look. Yea - it's real! And darn these nails. Gone on Saturday. While I don't love them, it's good to know an option exists that won't chip or peel -- you never know when that comes in handy. I just need to have them VERY short -- lesson learned.
My workouts yesterday went well. I did some intervals first, then total body lift in class. I needed help picking up the bar (my back) but otherwise was able to do it all. I'm going to do a few more intervals today. My legs feel rested. Cardio back in my life works.
Today is my pedicure followed by some shopping. This could go either way. When I "need" clothes, I often have a problem finding them. I need a few blouses and maybe one more skirt. I'm just hitting one store today, then tomorrow will be more (if needed). Come on shopping karma ...
Party planning is coming along nicely. All I need to do at this point is order the cake. I'm toying with cupcakes so we can do a variety and cookies because I love cookies lol. They are known for their decorations -- Steelers themed for the hubby. With graduation season, ordering needs to be early. I have the shop picked out but I need to stop by and talk with them. I want to do it this week before we leave. I didn't realize hubby has NEVER had a birthday party. Well, it's about damn time!
My funky mood is lifting. I'm refocusing on the little things that made my day brighter. It makes a difference and I didn't realize how much. That's Jim Rohn's message. (Plus empty nest is reviving ME.)
Today's intention is to BE NICE. I have a couple of pokey things aggravating me, but I need to be a nice person. The temptation is to be verbally aggressive in response to these situations. Rude answered with rude. But ... to quote our former First Lady ... when they go low, I go high. Now if I said my intention today was to be HIGH, that might be misunderstood lol.
Later gators.
The year we went to Spain, we also went to Hawaii. Long ass flights back-to-back. This year is the same. It's not fun, but no choice in the matter lol. Sitting for so long hurts. If only we'd fly 1st-class! I want to be that fancy! But who can really complain (obviously me)?!?
Hubby noticed the blonder look. Yea - it's real! And darn these nails. Gone on Saturday. While I don't love them, it's good to know an option exists that won't chip or peel -- you never know when that comes in handy. I just need to have them VERY short -- lesson learned.
My workouts yesterday went well. I did some intervals first, then total body lift in class. I needed help picking up the bar (my back) but otherwise was able to do it all. I'm going to do a few more intervals today. My legs feel rested. Cardio back in my life works.
Today is my pedicure followed by some shopping. This could go either way. When I "need" clothes, I often have a problem finding them. I need a few blouses and maybe one more skirt. I'm just hitting one store today, then tomorrow will be more (if needed). Come on shopping karma ...
Party planning is coming along nicely. All I need to do at this point is order the cake. I'm toying with cupcakes so we can do a variety and cookies because I love cookies lol. They are known for their decorations -- Steelers themed for the hubby. With graduation season, ordering needs to be early. I have the shop picked out but I need to stop by and talk with them. I want to do it this week before we leave. I didn't realize hubby has NEVER had a birthday party. Well, it's about damn time!
My funky mood is lifting. I'm refocusing on the little things that made my day brighter. It makes a difference and I didn't realize how much. That's Jim Rohn's message. (Plus empty nest is reviving ME.)
Today's intention is to BE NICE. I have a couple of pokey things aggravating me, but I need to be a nice person. The temptation is to be verbally aggressive in response to these situations. Rude answered with rude. But ... to quote our former First Lady ... when they go low, I go high. Now if I said my intention today was to be HIGH, that might be misunderstood lol.
Later gators.
Tuesday, April 25, 2017
Productive Morning
Yep - good eating = early rise & shine.
I've been busy this morning working on a bunch of chores. My house is spit-shined and clean ... AND the best part is it will stay that way (at least this week). Hubby will return home early today so my time is nearing an end. It was glorious!
My back is still bad. I image it will feel better as the day goes on, but I don't know if I should lift. I'll go and give it a try - maybe lighter weights. I'm also going to do a little cardio and that should help it out. I need the cleaning ladies to start. There is no more gray area. Cleaning the house gives me days of pain ... no more guilt about having a service. I have 1 1/2 cleans left before they start. The big one will come after Italy and I'll do a quick clean the week before they come (I don't want to shock them their first week lol).
I have a few errands for later today and that rounds out the day. Tomorrow will be fun with shopping for the trip (I need good shopping karma), pedicure and GNI outside the neighborhood. I'm driving so no drinking. I'm also not going to eat junk - W30 (or W5) continues.
Did I mention I can't wait to get these nails changed over?!?! They are so long (clicking away at the keyboard) and look so fake at this length. It's not me. I'm waiting as long as possible so I can have them in good shape for the trip.
Well folks - it's a quick one today. I need to do a little party planning before hubby comes home. I'm on a roll. Today's intention is ME. Being true to myself today and listening to my body. I'm the priority today. Doing what I need, taking care of ME. Sounds like a good plan if I do say so myself.
I've been busy this morning working on a bunch of chores. My house is spit-shined and clean ... AND the best part is it will stay that way (at least this week). Hubby will return home early today so my time is nearing an end. It was glorious!
My back is still bad. I image it will feel better as the day goes on, but I don't know if I should lift. I'll go and give it a try - maybe lighter weights. I'm also going to do a little cardio and that should help it out. I need the cleaning ladies to start. There is no more gray area. Cleaning the house gives me days of pain ... no more guilt about having a service. I have 1 1/2 cleans left before they start. The big one will come after Italy and I'll do a quick clean the week before they come (I don't want to shock them their first week lol).
I have a few errands for later today and that rounds out the day. Tomorrow will be fun with shopping for the trip (I need good shopping karma), pedicure and GNI outside the neighborhood. I'm driving so no drinking. I'm also not going to eat junk - W30 (or W5) continues.
Did I mention I can't wait to get these nails changed over?!?! They are so long (clicking away at the keyboard) and look so fake at this length. It's not me. I'm waiting as long as possible so I can have them in good shape for the trip.
Well folks - it's a quick one today. I need to do a little party planning before hubby comes home. I'm on a roll. Today's intention is ME. Being true to myself today and listening to my body. I'm the priority today. Doing what I need, taking care of ME. Sounds like a good plan if I do say so myself.
Monday, April 24, 2017
Blondes Have More Fun
Eventually!
I'm more blonde than brown -- woohoo. One more adjustment (she explained why it takes a couple of times) and I should be just where I want to be (I think!). I have the keratin on now so it should look even lighter in a couple of days. Fingers crossed.
I've also had a change in nail situation. I'm going back to what I like - American wins. I changed up my appointments and it feels good. I want to be ME again. I like short, natural nails. I'll have to wait until the weekend to switch, but it's worth it.
My back is still giving me some grief, but I hope tomorrow will show improvement (it's loosening up when I move around). I have a few intervals and then my lift class.
My meals are finished for today -- kitchen is closed (other than an iced decaf to end the night). It's still early, but I ate a big dinner.
Keeping my promise.
Enjoying ME time.
Relaxing.
Checking in.
Until tomorrow ...
I'm more blonde than brown -- woohoo. One more adjustment (she explained why it takes a couple of times) and I should be just where I want to be (I think!). I have the keratin on now so it should look even lighter in a couple of days. Fingers crossed.
I've also had a change in nail situation. I'm going back to what I like - American wins. I changed up my appointments and it feels good. I want to be ME again. I like short, natural nails. I'll have to wait until the weekend to switch, but it's worth it.
My back is still giving me some grief, but I hope tomorrow will show improvement (it's loosening up when I move around). I have a few intervals and then my lift class.
My meals are finished for today -- kitchen is closed (other than an iced decaf to end the night). It's still early, but I ate a big dinner.
Keeping my promise.
Enjoying ME time.
Relaxing.
Checking in.
Until tomorrow ...
Hair Day
Hair day has arrived.
My crazy determination to be blonde has departed (somewhat).
I have a feeling this will not be what I want and I don't want to set myself up for 7 more weeks of disappointment. I don't have it in me today. Lately, my vanity push has backfired at every turn. I'm just going with the case of the uglies. (Yes, poor me with my pity party of one!)
The final cleaning threw my back out. I thought after a night's rest, it would feel better. It's not. Rest day from workout (thankfully). It's seizing and giving me a lot of grief. CRAP!
Some good news - I have the house to myself tonight. EVERYONE (except the pup) is out of the house!! If it weren't for my back, I'd do a crazy happy dance right now (and I could do it naked if I wanted lol).
Some other good news - wait -- nothing else. Just kidding. There must be something else good. Let me think. Pup is mending nicely now. Pooping, playing and those darn pills finish up today. That's great news :-)
My nail appointment is on Wednesday (more on my vanity). I'm going with the same color too. Not a time to take a risk -- risks are not working well for me this month.
I have the morning to myself and nothing much to say. I'll probably check in later today (I know you're dying -- get it -- to know about my hair). Today I decided that it's back to W30 until this weekend. So that means 5 days -- 3 meals per day -- NO snacking. I need to firm up my eating. Saturday we are supposed to go to dinner with friends. If that doesn't happen, I'll extent to Monday.
Hoping for some PRETTY vibes today. Not exactly a high-level intention, but I need it. Until later my gators.
My crazy determination to be blonde has departed (somewhat).
I have a feeling this will not be what I want and I don't want to set myself up for 7 more weeks of disappointment. I don't have it in me today. Lately, my vanity push has backfired at every turn. I'm just going with the case of the uglies. (Yes, poor me with my pity party of one!)
The final cleaning threw my back out. I thought after a night's rest, it would feel better. It's not. Rest day from workout (thankfully). It's seizing and giving me a lot of grief. CRAP!
Some good news - I have the house to myself tonight. EVERYONE (except the pup) is out of the house!! If it weren't for my back, I'd do a crazy happy dance right now (and I could do it naked if I wanted lol).
Some other good news - wait -- nothing else. Just kidding. There must be something else good. Let me think. Pup is mending nicely now. Pooping, playing and those darn pills finish up today. That's great news :-)
My nail appointment is on Wednesday (more on my vanity). I'm going with the same color too. Not a time to take a risk -- risks are not working well for me this month.
I have the morning to myself and nothing much to say. I'll probably check in later today (I know you're dying -- get it -- to know about my hair). Today I decided that it's back to W30 until this weekend. So that means 5 days -- 3 meals per day -- NO snacking. I need to firm up my eating. Saturday we are supposed to go to dinner with friends. If that doesn't happen, I'll extent to Monday.
Hoping for some PRETTY vibes today. Not exactly a high-level intention, but I need it. Until later my gators.
Sunday, April 23, 2017
The Final Push
The last two days have been wicked hard. The move went well, but boy that was WORK! Yesterday was spent getting our house back in order. Even with some help from hubby it took all day. Today I need to finish -- about 2-3 more hours worth. Yes, it was that messy!! It's the final push and my house will be returned to order (at least until my youngest comes home lol).
It's funny how when one thing get cluttered in my life, lots of things get cluttered. I hope a clean house = a clean body. The good news is the sweets are GONE from the pantry. Huge sigh of relief. I'm on my way.
Pup is steadily improving but refusing to eat much. Vet put him on a eat-what-he-wants diet. Lordy is he happy. Lean beef and rice ... grilled cheese for pill taking. Now I'm cooking for the dog lol!
Tomorrow is my hair day. This should be interesting. It's been a source of stress and frustration and almost anger for 7 weeks. Why? I don't really know. It's just under my skin. So I'm hoping for something closer to blonde and I'm walking in with DARK brown eyebrows. Ugh. I can't win this battle to save my soul.
Continuing with all things vain ... my nails. The SNS doesn't chip or peel at all (and I like that you don't go under the lights). My nails grew super long but I can't file them down. Overall, I don't like it. They feel like fake nails. Sometimes I get crazy and want it off NOW. It feels uncomfortable (probably because they are so long now).
I read that gel starts peeling when nails get weaker. That was probably the reason gel wasn't working as well as normal (I peeled it off a few times and weakened my nails). That said, since it doesn't peel at all, I think I should do it one more time for Italy. My nails will be good the whole trip. I am going to have her make them short. Maybe I should do it until my nails grow completely out so they will be strong enough for gel. Hmmm. I'll have to see. The other issue is I'll need to wait until the end of the week (so they don't get too long in Italy). I don't know if I can take it until then. First world, petty problems. I know.
Okay, time to start the day. Lifting at home and then finishing the clean. If that all happens in a timely way -- ERRANDS. I'm so behind on EVERYTHING!!
Re-reading what I wrote, it seems like I'm in a pissy mood ... but it's not that bad. I'm just sore from 2 days of back-breaking work and anxious to get to the HAPPY stuff. And worried about my hair - yes - I need therapy or something lol!! Later gators.
It's funny how when one thing get cluttered in my life, lots of things get cluttered. I hope a clean house = a clean body. The good news is the sweets are GONE from the pantry. Huge sigh of relief. I'm on my way.
Pup is steadily improving but refusing to eat much. Vet put him on a eat-what-he-wants diet. Lordy is he happy. Lean beef and rice ... grilled cheese for pill taking. Now I'm cooking for the dog lol!
Tomorrow is my hair day. This should be interesting. It's been a source of stress and frustration and almost anger for 7 weeks. Why? I don't really know. It's just under my skin. So I'm hoping for something closer to blonde and I'm walking in with DARK brown eyebrows. Ugh. I can't win this battle to save my soul.
Continuing with all things vain ... my nails. The SNS doesn't chip or peel at all (and I like that you don't go under the lights). My nails grew super long but I can't file them down. Overall, I don't like it. They feel like fake nails. Sometimes I get crazy and want it off NOW. It feels uncomfortable (probably because they are so long now).
I read that gel starts peeling when nails get weaker. That was probably the reason gel wasn't working as well as normal (I peeled it off a few times and weakened my nails). That said, since it doesn't peel at all, I think I should do it one more time for Italy. My nails will be good the whole trip. I am going to have her make them short. Maybe I should do it until my nails grow completely out so they will be strong enough for gel. Hmmm. I'll have to see. The other issue is I'll need to wait until the end of the week (so they don't get too long in Italy). I don't know if I can take it until then. First world, petty problems. I know.
Okay, time to start the day. Lifting at home and then finishing the clean. If that all happens in a timely way -- ERRANDS. I'm so behind on EVERYTHING!!
Re-reading what I wrote, it seems like I'm in a pissy mood ... but it's not that bad. I'm just sore from 2 days of back-breaking work and anxious to get to the HAPPY stuff. And worried about my hair - yes - I need therapy or something lol!! Later gators.
Friday, April 21, 2017
Quick Hello
I'm running late and the day has barely begun. This morning's dog duty took a lot longer than expected (the gory details can remain a mystery lol).
But, I'm diligently drinking my collagen tea and taking this moment of peace, so life needs to wait just 15 more minutes.
I can't believe move-out day is here! I loved having them AND I didn't love having them. I love that they are just 15 min away. I love that they settled in GA. I love that they are happy.
I cannot wait to put my house back in order. Lots of work, but the payoff is HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY!
On that note ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my eldest. 23 today. Wow. Just wow.
I did much better than I expected having them live here. It was comfortable (mostly) and lots of fun to see them as a couple and to get to know his girlfriend (who could end up being my daughter-in-law). I liked having another girl around too -- and she's a sweet heart!
But I lost ME. It was my own fault. I let all MY "work" go out the window. Time to claim it back. Learn from the experience and move forward. This feels like a beginning to me. I think I might HAPPY-dance all day today.
Finally sips of my tea and time for a quick wake-me-up workout. I'll get plenty of stairs, steps and lifting in today (2nd story apartment lol). Later gators.
But, I'm diligently drinking my collagen tea and taking this moment of peace, so life needs to wait just 15 more minutes.
I can't believe move-out day is here! I loved having them AND I didn't love having them. I love that they are just 15 min away. I love that they settled in GA. I love that they are happy.
I cannot wait to put my house back in order. Lots of work, but the payoff is HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY!
On that note ... HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my eldest. 23 today. Wow. Just wow.
I did much better than I expected having them live here. It was comfortable (mostly) and lots of fun to see them as a couple and to get to know his girlfriend (who could end up being my daughter-in-law). I liked having another girl around too -- and she's a sweet heart!
But I lost ME. It was my own fault. I let all MY "work" go out the window. Time to claim it back. Learn from the experience and move forward. This feels like a beginning to me. I think I might HAPPY-dance all day today.
Finally sips of my tea and time for a quick wake-me-up workout. I'll get plenty of stairs, steps and lifting in today (2nd story apartment lol). Later gators.
Thursday, April 20, 2017
M.I.A.
This week took an unexpected turn. Easter Sunday my sweet pup got sick. And I mean SICK. We took him to the emergency vet for supportive care, but didn't realize how much worse it would get.
Always follow your gut feelings -- I knew something was seriously wrong.
Monday morning I had him to our regular vet -- emergency surgery for a twisted stomach and spleen. The vet is amazed he survived (thank God for her quick actions). The next few days were miserable for him (and me). No sleep for either of us, throwing up, bloody diarrhea ... me on clean-up duty -- oh the smell of a GI bleed. 22 pills per day for a dog that won't take food ... that was fun. And one horribly suffering sweet pup. (Cue massive heart-ache.)
He finally made a turn for the better yesterday. Back to eating, drinking, standing, walking ... he even begged for food yesterday. Pills joyfully taken with a bit of a treat. Whew. We dodged a bullet.
What's left in the wake is a totally exhausted dog and mama.
My house is a wreck. It was due for a clean this week - nope. Still working out rug stains that might never come clean. Kids are moving out tomorrow so we started moving furniture, etc to the main level to make things easier for move day. It's a MESS!!! I'm a MESS. The dog, the house and I all STINK to high heaven. Sponge baths are just not cutting it.
No workouts or shower all week since I couldn't leave him for even a little bit of time (he was leaking from both ends and scared and so very sick). I'm planning a workout today (and I finally showered yesterday lol).
All my planning for this week went out the window. I did the basic chores and that was all. Tomorrow is my son's actually birthday and I'm scrambling to get goodies made. I've been glued to the house and glued to my pup -- and still home all day today.
I don't expect to post for a few days. See you all on the other side of the crazy-train. Next week will be spent resuming my NORMAL life (and prepping for 2 weeks in Italy). Later gators.
Always follow your gut feelings -- I knew something was seriously wrong.
Monday morning I had him to our regular vet -- emergency surgery for a twisted stomach and spleen. The vet is amazed he survived (thank God for her quick actions). The next few days were miserable for him (and me). No sleep for either of us, throwing up, bloody diarrhea ... me on clean-up duty -- oh the smell of a GI bleed. 22 pills per day for a dog that won't take food ... that was fun. And one horribly suffering sweet pup. (Cue massive heart-ache.)
He finally made a turn for the better yesterday. Back to eating, drinking, standing, walking ... he even begged for food yesterday. Pills joyfully taken with a bit of a treat. Whew. We dodged a bullet.
What's left in the wake is a totally exhausted dog and mama.
My house is a wreck. It was due for a clean this week - nope. Still working out rug stains that might never come clean. Kids are moving out tomorrow so we started moving furniture, etc to the main level to make things easier for move day. It's a MESS!!! I'm a MESS. The dog, the house and I all STINK to high heaven. Sponge baths are just not cutting it.
No workouts or shower all week since I couldn't leave him for even a little bit of time (he was leaking from both ends and scared and so very sick). I'm planning a workout today (and I finally showered yesterday lol).
All my planning for this week went out the window. I did the basic chores and that was all. Tomorrow is my son's actually birthday and I'm scrambling to get goodies made. I've been glued to the house and glued to my pup -- and still home all day today.
I don't expect to post for a few days. See you all on the other side of the crazy-train. Next week will be spent resuming my NORMAL life (and prepping for 2 weeks in Italy). Later gators.
Saturday, April 15, 2017
Message Received
Apparently, I need a lesson in less vanity. Ripped my pants at the grocery store. High thigh - big rip. I was rocking the rip and the eyebrows all afternoon. Oh boy! I give up.
The day was otherwise good. I golfed for the first time in a long time and I did GREAT. New style ball, some arm strength and who knew I'd be AMAZING lol. Something worked. But golf is a fickle beast ... it gives, then it takes away.
My lifting instructor gave me a gift out of the blue yesterday - a bracelet with a little barbell and "strength is beautiful." How nice was that?!?! What a feel-good moment :)
I also got a catch-up (I want to say ketchup lol) call from an old friend (my college roommate). It felt good to connect again.
And I made a new friend lol. Someone at lift asked me to do a neighborhood class with her (she recognized my car in the neighborhood). We exchanged numbers. She even wants to be my "friend" with my crazy eyebrows lol.
I also got partnered with a gal yesterday ... she chose me ... said it would be fun. That felt good too.
So I guess my eyebrows and ripped pants don't really matter. Lots of love and good vibes yesterday in spite of the "ugly" being strong.
Today is the dinner celebration for my eldest. How do I have a 23 year old?!?! We are FINALLY getting to a restaurant I've been after for over a year. It's on My Happiness Project list. It's hip, good food, highly recommended by friends and always get in the top list of ATL restaurants. It should be a fun night!
I have an early circuit class this morning, some baking for Easter and a few errands before the celebration. I'm looking forward to a rest day tomorrow. My legs are toast (and I feel like I might be coming down with a cold - ugh).
Intention for today - feel the love and pay it forward. Later gators.
The day was otherwise good. I golfed for the first time in a long time and I did GREAT. New style ball, some arm strength and who knew I'd be AMAZING lol. Something worked. But golf is a fickle beast ... it gives, then it takes away.
My lifting instructor gave me a gift out of the blue yesterday - a bracelet with a little barbell and "strength is beautiful." How nice was that?!?! What a feel-good moment :)
I also got a catch-up (I want to say ketchup lol) call from an old friend (my college roommate). It felt good to connect again.
And I made a new friend lol. Someone at lift asked me to do a neighborhood class with her (she recognized my car in the neighborhood). We exchanged numbers. She even wants to be my "friend" with my crazy eyebrows lol.
I also got partnered with a gal yesterday ... she chose me ... said it would be fun. That felt good too.
So I guess my eyebrows and ripped pants don't really matter. Lots of love and good vibes yesterday in spite of the "ugly" being strong.
Today is the dinner celebration for my eldest. How do I have a 23 year old?!?! We are FINALLY getting to a restaurant I've been after for over a year. It's on My Happiness Project list. It's hip, good food, highly recommended by friends and always get in the top list of ATL restaurants. It should be a fun night!
I have an early circuit class this morning, some baking for Easter and a few errands before the celebration. I'm looking forward to a rest day tomorrow. My legs are toast (and I feel like I might be coming down with a cold - ugh).
Intention for today - feel the love and pay it forward. Later gators.
Friday, April 14, 2017
Eyebrow Hell
My leading story - since, yes, eyebrows are important. And I'm in eyebrow hell.
I had them threaded - perfect. But then I was talked into tinting them (I usually do it at my hair salon). It's better, less harsh, etc, etc. I do it - looks perfect. Then I head into a store next door for a quick errand. My eyebrows are burning. I check them out in mirror. They are almost black. O.M.G.
She didn't deactivate them all the way. Hello Charlie Chaplin. I found a home remedy on line - baking soda and shampoo. Burns like crazy, but it seems to have taken the edge off of them. I'd like to do it one more time but my skin is on fire. Probably not the best idea.
I must need a lesson in how-not-to-be-vain. I'm struggling in the beauty department lately lol.
Anyway, as long as my eyebrows don't fall out, they should be okay in a few days. So onto other (way less important news lol).
Big weekend starting today. Family golf tonight with a picnic dinner. Celebrating eldest 23rd birthday tomorrow (early since his b-day is move-day) at a restaurant in the city (lots of traffic) and then Easter with a big dinner. Full, fun weekend. But lots of work (of course).
Today is another lift day. I usually skip Fridays and take a rest day, but I think I need a bit of a push this week. I'm getting my groove back - finally. I feel in control, cravings are just at night and I feel better. Exercise helps with my mindset.
I actually feel so in control that I think I'll be fine during the dinner out. I think I can "work" my food freedom and not have dinner become an issue. Easter is my making and I'll have healthy choices. It's not about abstaining, it's about food freedom. Making a choice - like a normal person. I did it for 4 months and it worked. My goal is to get back to that place. Maybe I've arrived?!?!
Okay, that's all for now. Lift is early today (and tomorrow) so I need to get this party started. Later gators.
I had them threaded - perfect. But then I was talked into tinting them (I usually do it at my hair salon). It's better, less harsh, etc, etc. I do it - looks perfect. Then I head into a store next door for a quick errand. My eyebrows are burning. I check them out in mirror. They are almost black. O.M.G.
She didn't deactivate them all the way. Hello Charlie Chaplin. I found a home remedy on line - baking soda and shampoo. Burns like crazy, but it seems to have taken the edge off of them. I'd like to do it one more time but my skin is on fire. Probably not the best idea.
I must need a lesson in how-not-to-be-vain. I'm struggling in the beauty department lately lol.
Anyway, as long as my eyebrows don't fall out, they should be okay in a few days. So onto other (way less important news lol).
Big weekend starting today. Family golf tonight with a picnic dinner. Celebrating eldest 23rd birthday tomorrow (early since his b-day is move-day) at a restaurant in the city (lots of traffic) and then Easter with a big dinner. Full, fun weekend. But lots of work (of course).
Today is another lift day. I usually skip Fridays and take a rest day, but I think I need a bit of a push this week. I'm getting my groove back - finally. I feel in control, cravings are just at night and I feel better. Exercise helps with my mindset.
I actually feel so in control that I think I'll be fine during the dinner out. I think I can "work" my food freedom and not have dinner become an issue. Easter is my making and I'll have healthy choices. It's not about abstaining, it's about food freedom. Making a choice - like a normal person. I did it for 4 months and it worked. My goal is to get back to that place. Maybe I've arrived?!?!
Okay, that's all for now. Lift is early today (and tomorrow) so I need to get this party started. Later gators.
Thursday, April 13, 2017
:): You Decide
Saw this on Facebook this morning. A powerful message in 3 little characters.
:):
I like it - a lot. Especially since I woke up happy and immediately moved to grumpy. I'm picking hubby up from the train station and my only issue (I told him) was changing to another flight (didn't even mind the 4:30am wake-up Tuesday). I have some personal errands I need to do today (vote, eyebrows, replace lipstick) and I haven't been able to get to them this week. This afternoon is my time to get it done. Flight changed. Now I'll be rushed. Ugh. I'm tired of ME coming in second or third or never.
But I'm choosing happy. This isn't a problem. I'll do my errands as efficiently as I can. If I can't get to him exactly on-time -- he can wait a few minutes for me. Bam. Choosing ME today. Choosing HAPPY today.
Speaking of HAPPY -- good God those Nutpods -- yum, yum and yum! Could this be my vise with no downside?? I made one this morning (of course -- not hard to predict that one). This time I measured. I used 2T and that was too much (I guess I overestimated what I used last night). It gives the coffee just a touch of creaminess that I never have anymore (thanks lactose). Oh the mouth joy!! I think I'll stop my morning coffee and switch to an evening iced with Nutpods (decaf so it shouldn't be a problem). I could cry tears of coffee joy! And the little packs are shelf stable until opened. Hello traveling. I need just a moment here ...
Okay - I'm back - such a joy lol!!
And now I'm going for real. Time to get my day moving. Lift this morning followed by ME! Big weekend this weekend. I'll fill you in next time we chat :) ... :) it's my choice.
:):
I like it - a lot. Especially since I woke up happy and immediately moved to grumpy. I'm picking hubby up from the train station and my only issue (I told him) was changing to another flight (didn't even mind the 4:30am wake-up Tuesday). I have some personal errands I need to do today (vote, eyebrows, replace lipstick) and I haven't been able to get to them this week. This afternoon is my time to get it done. Flight changed. Now I'll be rushed. Ugh. I'm tired of ME coming in second or third or never.
But I'm choosing happy. This isn't a problem. I'll do my errands as efficiently as I can. If I can't get to him exactly on-time -- he can wait a few minutes for me. Bam. Choosing ME today. Choosing HAPPY today.
Speaking of HAPPY -- good God those Nutpods -- yum, yum and yum! Could this be my vise with no downside?? I made one this morning (of course -- not hard to predict that one). This time I measured. I used 2T and that was too much (I guess I overestimated what I used last night). It gives the coffee just a touch of creaminess that I never have anymore (thanks lactose). Oh the mouth joy!! I think I'll stop my morning coffee and switch to an evening iced with Nutpods (decaf so it shouldn't be a problem). I could cry tears of coffee joy! And the little packs are shelf stable until opened. Hello traveling. I need just a moment here ...
Okay - I'm back - such a joy lol!!
And now I'm going for real. Time to get my day moving. Lift this morning followed by ME! Big weekend this weekend. I'll fill you in next time we chat :) ... :) it's my choice.
Wednesday, April 12, 2017
Average Day Recap
Well my average day turned out to be a busy one. Two contractors, one cleaning lady and a trip to Italy booked (all but a couple of things we're still thinking on).
Super productive day.
I made a point to be happy today and it worked (what?!?!).
Lord it feels good to get stuff off my plate. And I'm super pumped for Italy!
The witching hour was a quick one since I was otherwise preoccupied. I didn't get time to plan my new evening routine, but it's still on my mind. That said, I once again came close to stuffing my face with sweets. UGH! It sneaks up on me. Today is wasn't boredom, it was celebration for a day well spent. Yep, sneaky.
Another great happening today -- the Nutpods came. DELICIOUS. I don't see a downside to it (yet lol). I made 2 iced coffees with the Vanilla Nutpod. They are unsweetened, 10 cal/T and W30 compliant. I used about 4 T in each ... probably more than I needed. No kombucha, no wine and no craving for either. I have hope that once the tons of pantry sweets are gone, I might get this under control.
I also called the hairdresser today. I have enough time booked and I found out the issue with going too light too fast -- blonde coloring doesn't adhere to other dye color. So my roots would be blonde but my other hair brown. But she thinks we can make better progress. Stay tuned ...
That's it from here (I'm safely in bed again). More of my good book and then sleep. Last night of hubby out of town so I'm enjoying the serenity of a snore-free room.
Later gators.
Super productive day.
I made a point to be happy today and it worked (what?!?!).
Lord it feels good to get stuff off my plate. And I'm super pumped for Italy!
The witching hour was a quick one since I was otherwise preoccupied. I didn't get time to plan my new evening routine, but it's still on my mind. That said, I once again came close to stuffing my face with sweets. UGH! It sneaks up on me. Today is wasn't boredom, it was celebration for a day well spent. Yep, sneaky.
Another great happening today -- the Nutpods came. DELICIOUS. I don't see a downside to it (yet lol). I made 2 iced coffees with the Vanilla Nutpod. They are unsweetened, 10 cal/T and W30 compliant. I used about 4 T in each ... probably more than I needed. No kombucha, no wine and no craving for either. I have hope that once the tons of pantry sweets are gone, I might get this under control.
I also called the hairdresser today. I have enough time booked and I found out the issue with going too light too fast -- blonde coloring doesn't adhere to other dye color. So my roots would be blonde but my other hair brown. But she thinks we can make better progress. Stay tuned ...
That's it from here (I'm safely in bed again). More of my good book and then sleep. Last night of hubby out of town so I'm enjoying the serenity of a snore-free room.
Later gators.
Hump Day
Welcome to a regular, plain-Jane Wednesday. Usually, Wednesday is a play day for me since I have no lift classes, but my schedule didn't sync with the usual suspects, so it became a "house" day.
The cleaning lady is suppose to come today (she's canceled twice) and the exterior painter is also scheduled to come for an estimate. A day of waiting around.
Dinner is made for the family already (thank you left-overs ... the shepherd's pie was a big hit). I'll throw together something for me. Making dinner is off my plate (pun not intended, but noticed as soon as I typed it lol). Making dinner yesterday took up most of the day!
A dog walk, a treadmill walk and that's it.
I might work on Italy planning today too. I woke up with a headache (allergies? sugar withdrawal?) so I'll play it by ear.
I'd call today a red-zone day. I'll need to work hard to find VARIETY in a day when I'm stuck at home waiting for people. I have a case of the blah's and the day has barely started.
So meditation and intention today will be to find the VARIETY, HAPPY and FUN is an otherwise boring day.
I also have a stupid worry on my plate -- my hair (I know - I said stupid). I have tried for about a year to "go blonde" and it still hasn't happened. I'm at the end of my patience and for some reason am worried it still won't happen. At this rate of change, it's going to take another year to notice any difference. I called the salon and explained what I wanted ... did I need more time scheduled. I was told no. But I know it will take longer ... it just will. I'm concerned this will be another "little" adjustment that you can't notice. So to help this STUPID worry, I'm going to call again today. For some reason, this is very important to me. (Watch me hate the new color after all this bitching and energy wasted lol) What I don't want to happen is to be told this change will take too long and I have to schedule it for my next appointment. I have this feeling ...
Anyway, thanks for listening to the insane ramble. Time to get my day moving (to be ready to wait for the first contractor lol).
The cleaning lady is suppose to come today (she's canceled twice) and the exterior painter is also scheduled to come for an estimate. A day of waiting around.
Dinner is made for the family already (thank you left-overs ... the shepherd's pie was a big hit). I'll throw together something for me. Making dinner is off my plate (pun not intended, but noticed as soon as I typed it lol). Making dinner yesterday took up most of the day!
A dog walk, a treadmill walk and that's it.
I might work on Italy planning today too. I woke up with a headache (allergies? sugar withdrawal?) so I'll play it by ear.
I'd call today a red-zone day. I'll need to work hard to find VARIETY in a day when I'm stuck at home waiting for people. I have a case of the blah's and the day has barely started.
So meditation and intention today will be to find the VARIETY, HAPPY and FUN is an otherwise boring day.
I also have a stupid worry on my plate -- my hair (I know - I said stupid). I have tried for about a year to "go blonde" and it still hasn't happened. I'm at the end of my patience and for some reason am worried it still won't happen. At this rate of change, it's going to take another year to notice any difference. I called the salon and explained what I wanted ... did I need more time scheduled. I was told no. But I know it will take longer ... it just will. I'm concerned this will be another "little" adjustment that you can't notice. So to help this STUPID worry, I'm going to call again today. For some reason, this is very important to me. (Watch me hate the new color after all this bitching and energy wasted lol) What I don't want to happen is to be told this change will take too long and I have to schedule it for my next appointment. I have this feeling ...
Anyway, thanks for listening to the insane ramble. Time to get my day moving (to be ready to wait for the first contractor lol).
Tuesday, April 11, 2017
Safely in Bed
The witching hours called with a vengeance tonight. I barely made it through. As soon as it was late "enough" I parked myself upstairs with my computer (hello this post) and my book.
Whew. I feel safe. Yet the cravings continue. Usually, once I get upstairs and the end of the night is signaled, the witching hours end magically. Not tonight. Not lately.
UGH. What is different?
This nightly head conversation, battle of the will, struggle with the pantry is mentally exhausting. It's the battle I want relief from ... the battle that exists only in my head. So why can't I logically defeat it?
Everything about today was good. Ate well, exercised well, accomplished my "stuff," felt good about myself, felt happy ... yet I would have given my right arm for 20 mins of stuff-my-face (probably not, but I'd think about it long and hard before I refused lol).
My sugar dragon is large and wants to be in charge. I'm set to battle on another day though. I need the battle to ease up if I'm going to win. I need to get stronger, the dragon needs to die.
Tomorrow I'm going to think long and hard about starting a healthy evening tradition. Not food, not wine, not kombucha (sugar dragon). I ordered Nutpods (W30 approved nut creamer). I thought maybe an afternoon coffee with creamer might hit the spot. It should come by Thursday. Or an herbal tea? Maybe my Rosetta Stone?
It's hard to make healthy choices with so much yummy junk sitting around. Some relief will come after next week. But until then ... oh boy. Add in a birthday celebration, Easter and a few social occasions and it seems daunting. Today is a regular Tuesday and I'm working HARD to make choices for my longterm HAPPINESS, not immediate gratification with a side of regret. Big challenging days seem impossible from this vantage point.
It helps to write it out, re-read it and remember. Time to read (at least my book is awesome!!).
Whew. I feel safe. Yet the cravings continue. Usually, once I get upstairs and the end of the night is signaled, the witching hours end magically. Not tonight. Not lately.
UGH. What is different?
This nightly head conversation, battle of the will, struggle with the pantry is mentally exhausting. It's the battle I want relief from ... the battle that exists only in my head. So why can't I logically defeat it?
Everything about today was good. Ate well, exercised well, accomplished my "stuff," felt good about myself, felt happy ... yet I would have given my right arm for 20 mins of stuff-my-face (probably not, but I'd think about it long and hard before I refused lol).
My sugar dragon is large and wants to be in charge. I'm set to battle on another day though. I need the battle to ease up if I'm going to win. I need to get stronger, the dragon needs to die.
Tomorrow I'm going to think long and hard about starting a healthy evening tradition. Not food, not wine, not kombucha (sugar dragon). I ordered Nutpods (W30 approved nut creamer). I thought maybe an afternoon coffee with creamer might hit the spot. It should come by Thursday. Or an herbal tea? Maybe my Rosetta Stone?
It's hard to make healthy choices with so much yummy junk sitting around. Some relief will come after next week. But until then ... oh boy. Add in a birthday celebration, Easter and a few social occasions and it seems daunting. Today is a regular Tuesday and I'm working HARD to make choices for my longterm HAPPINESS, not immediate gratification with a side of regret. Big challenging days seem impossible from this vantage point.
It helps to write it out, re-read it and remember. Time to read (at least my book is awesome!!).
Finding ME Again
That is my goal. Getting back to ME. No one is forcing me away from My Happiness Project. I'm letting life tasks get the better of me. The choice is mine. I have to be able to live My Happiness Project during "regular" life too.
I'm working on this lesson.
Today is back to Tuesday noon lift. I'm happy to be back after a couple of canceled classes (company and my back-ache).
My VARIETY today is a new recipe from Pioneer Woman. Beef stew shepherd's pie. Yum. I have to modify the potato part to fit me, but it already smells great. (This is an all day recipe!) P.S. Most weeks I've kept to the new recipe idea, I just haven't posted about it.
Hubby is out of town this week (4:45am drop of this morning - I was tired getting up). Bed to myself and quiet evenings are welcomed this week.
Now the important stuff -- my nails. The powder is way thicker than polish. Almost looks like acrylic nails. They feel strange. That said, it should hold up much better AND it is supposed to be healthy for your nails. Stay tuned ...
I'm rather aggressively looking to change my hair color to actual blonde. I've taken pictures, called the salon, etc. I plan to go blonde or bust (aka change hairdressers lol). I'm excited. Hair in 2 weeks. VARIETY baby!!!
This week is research and booking for Italy. I can't wait :)
I listened to Jim Rohn yesterday. I love his message. It's good to hear it again (and again and again). Meditation happened. Not great, mind distracted but I did it. I wonder why it's is so hard for me to follow through? Maybe I don't feel it works for me ... but I have to do it to make that assessment ... that I know. Yet I resist .... hmmmmm.
Okay. Off to do just that ... ohm...
I'm working on this lesson.
Today is back to Tuesday noon lift. I'm happy to be back after a couple of canceled classes (company and my back-ache).
My VARIETY today is a new recipe from Pioneer Woman. Beef stew shepherd's pie. Yum. I have to modify the potato part to fit me, but it already smells great. (This is an all day recipe!) P.S. Most weeks I've kept to the new recipe idea, I just haven't posted about it.
Hubby is out of town this week (4:45am drop of this morning - I was tired getting up). Bed to myself and quiet evenings are welcomed this week.
Now the important stuff -- my nails. The powder is way thicker than polish. Almost looks like acrylic nails. They feel strange. That said, it should hold up much better AND it is supposed to be healthy for your nails. Stay tuned ...
I'm rather aggressively looking to change my hair color to actual blonde. I've taken pictures, called the salon, etc. I plan to go blonde or bust (aka change hairdressers lol). I'm excited. Hair in 2 weeks. VARIETY baby!!!
This week is research and booking for Italy. I can't wait :)
I listened to Jim Rohn yesterday. I love his message. It's good to hear it again (and again and again). Meditation happened. Not great, mind distracted but I did it. I wonder why it's is so hard for me to follow through? Maybe I don't feel it works for me ... but I have to do it to make that assessment ... that I know. Yet I resist .... hmmmmm.
Okay. Off to do just that ... ohm...
Monday, April 10, 2017
Forward
Today has been a good day.
I kicked butt on a list of piddly little chores that I needed to get done. I also started the process on a big chore I need to move forward on (getting the exterior house painted). It feels good.
My VARIETY today came in the form of finally trying the SNS powder on my nails. The gel is pealing too frequently. I'll let you know how I like it in 2 weeks :)
Now the witching hours have arrived and with them, big desires for stuffing my face with the tons of sweets available (looking forward to that trending down for a little bit when kids move out - but then youngest home for the summer - cue the baked goods again - ugh).
This "fight" every evening is what I am so sick of doing. It's why I wanted a break. I need to work on how to not feels this way. I'm tired of it. I'll have to give it some thought. Maybe back to my TR tapes to work on this.
Okay, youngsters home from work. I better run.
I kicked butt on a list of piddly little chores that I needed to get done. I also started the process on a big chore I need to move forward on (getting the exterior house painted). It feels good.
My VARIETY today came in the form of finally trying the SNS powder on my nails. The gel is pealing too frequently. I'll let you know how I like it in 2 weeks :)
Now the witching hours have arrived and with them, big desires for stuffing my face with the tons of sweets available (looking forward to that trending down for a little bit when kids move out - but then youngest home for the summer - cue the baked goods again - ugh).
This "fight" every evening is what I am so sick of doing. It's why I wanted a break. I need to work on how to not feels this way. I'm tired of it. I'll have to give it some thought. Maybe back to my TR tapes to work on this.
Okay, youngsters home from work. I better run.
Oh ... here I am ...
I've been MIA for the weekend. Case of the everyone-is-home-so-I-can't-write. Story of my life for 13 more days!!!!! End is quickly approaching.
I feel like I've lost the hold-it-together battle. All my healthy routines have been out the window these last few weeks. My days are spent cleaning, cooking, errands, laundry ... you get the picture. Where is ME? My Happiness Project is out the window and it SUCKS!!!
It's not that I'm "so busy" I can't find any time for me. It's more a mental weight that leaves me with all those old feelings. Bored, used, who-cares, etc. I'm losing the mental war.
I need to re-re-re-re-commit today (I probably need a few more "re's" in that mix). I MUST feel well for Italy. I can't fall apart.
So here is my recommitment in a nutshell.
EVERYDAY I WILL do something with VARIETY.
EVERYDAY I WILL stay clear of sugar and alcohol.
EVERYDAY I WILL meditate.
EVERYDAY I WILL write in my journal.
Easy. Simple. Life changing.
I'll also add some other things to the list (not everyday things). Listen to Jim Rohn. Work on my big to-do list (it's hanging over my head and stressing me out - best way to end stress - get doing it!).
So on that note, I'm heading to get some stuff done. Today's intention is FORWARD MOTION. Happy, healthy, focused. Go!!
I feel like I've lost the hold-it-together battle. All my healthy routines have been out the window these last few weeks. My days are spent cleaning, cooking, errands, laundry ... you get the picture. Where is ME? My Happiness Project is out the window and it SUCKS!!!
It's not that I'm "so busy" I can't find any time for me. It's more a mental weight that leaves me with all those old feelings. Bored, used, who-cares, etc. I'm losing the mental war.
I need to re-re-re-re-commit today (I probably need a few more "re's" in that mix). I MUST feel well for Italy. I can't fall apart.
So here is my recommitment in a nutshell.
EVERYDAY I WILL do something with VARIETY.
EVERYDAY I WILL stay clear of sugar and alcohol.
EVERYDAY I WILL meditate.
EVERYDAY I WILL write in my journal.
Easy. Simple. Life changing.
I'll also add some other things to the list (not everyday things). Listen to Jim Rohn. Work on my big to-do list (it's hanging over my head and stressing me out - best way to end stress - get doing it!).
So on that note, I'm heading to get some stuff done. Today's intention is FORWARD MOTION. Happy, healthy, focused. Go!!
Friday, April 7, 2017
Foster Mommy
I'm pre-approved to become a dog foster mom! I'm excited, nervous, happy ... all things at once. I've been drawn to a particular rescue group for awhile now -- it just captured my attention far more than any other group. They posted last week they are looking for new foster families.
After emails, application and several phone interviews ... it's happening (as soon as the home inspection is done -- which is no big deal).
The biggest concern is the foster dog needs to be quarantined from my pup for 10 days (longer if sick). That will be a challenge, but one we will work with. I can't wait to love on a pup who has never known love before. All this will wait until after Italy so I have some time to prepare.
I've wanted to do this, but been caught up in focusing on the hard parts and not wanting to get my life "messy." The biggest memories, joys, challenges often happen in the mess. I need a little mess in my life.
I'm so excited!! :)
In other news, today is clean-the-house day. UGH. And I think my period today. Double UGH. And hubby is stuck in AZ with a cancelled flight and no re-book until late tomorrow night. Triple UGH.
I planned to preview clean yesterday, but after company, tons of cooking, tons of dishes ... I just couldn't muster it (and I was probably in PMS too). So lots of cleaning needed today.
Best get at it. Later gators.
After emails, application and several phone interviews ... it's happening (as soon as the home inspection is done -- which is no big deal).
The biggest concern is the foster dog needs to be quarantined from my pup for 10 days (longer if sick). That will be a challenge, but one we will work with. I can't wait to love on a pup who has never known love before. All this will wait until after Italy so I have some time to prepare.
I've wanted to do this, but been caught up in focusing on the hard parts and not wanting to get my life "messy." The biggest memories, joys, challenges often happen in the mess. I need a little mess in my life.
I'm so excited!! :)
In other news, today is clean-the-house day. UGH. And I think my period today. Double UGH. And hubby is stuck in AZ with a cancelled flight and no re-book until late tomorrow night. Triple UGH.
I planned to preview clean yesterday, but after company, tons of cooking, tons of dishes ... I just couldn't muster it (and I was probably in PMS too). So lots of cleaning needed today.
Best get at it. Later gators.
Wednesday, April 5, 2017
Temptation Island
It felt like a special kind of brownie hell yesterday. Cold, vanilla iced brownies - omg - love them. They shouted to me all night long. I woke up in the middle of the night still wanting them. There are only a handful left this morning (lots of hungry peeps home - thank God). Today should finish it out. Usually as soon as I get into bed, I'm happy I resisted. Last night I wanted to sneak down and stuff my face.
Today will be interesting. I should have the evening to myself (kids are heading out together and hubby is out of town). But there is a real possibility that my aunt and uncle will spend the night (really bad storms coming mid-day). One one hand, an evening to myself is positively what my mental crazy needs. But did I mention brownies? Now add in a lemon glazed cake I made for brunch. I smell a danger zone ahead - alone with a house full of goodies. I don't know what to wish for lol. I guess I need to leave this one up to the universe.
Two days in the books. I'm having to force myself to hold strong. That said, I'm glad I'm not logging my food. I'm eating more intuitively and relaxing about it. Whole30 works. The bloat is heading out the door (I'm peeing like crazy - good sign). I need my jeans to fit!!!
Another quickie post today. I have lots to do before brunch. Making an egg bake with roasted potatoes. Add some stuff for everyone else (cheese, bread and a cake) and that's a wrap. Quick and easy.
My intention today is HEALTHY HABITS. Back to basics.
Today will be interesting. I should have the evening to myself (kids are heading out together and hubby is out of town). But there is a real possibility that my aunt and uncle will spend the night (really bad storms coming mid-day). One one hand, an evening to myself is positively what my mental crazy needs. But did I mention brownies? Now add in a lemon glazed cake I made for brunch. I smell a danger zone ahead - alone with a house full of goodies. I don't know what to wish for lol. I guess I need to leave this one up to the universe.
Two days in the books. I'm having to force myself to hold strong. That said, I'm glad I'm not logging my food. I'm eating more intuitively and relaxing about it. Whole30 works. The bloat is heading out the door (I'm peeing like crazy - good sign). I need my jeans to fit!!!
Another quickie post today. I have lots to do before brunch. Making an egg bake with roasted potatoes. Add some stuff for everyone else (cheese, bread and a cake) and that's a wrap. Quick and easy.
My intention today is HEALTHY HABITS. Back to basics.
Tuesday, April 4, 2017
Fighting the Funk
Yep - it makes a good title. Yesterday was a good day. No post since I had a rotating door of peeps home.
I decided to do a stretch of Whole30-like days to get me back to fighting form. So far (one day lol), so good. You know me - I like rules. My pants don't fit - rules fix it.
I spent a lot of yesterday getting re-organized, tightening up a bunch of loose strings hanging around. It felt good to get a bunch of little crap off my to-do list. Cleaning up my diet cleans up my life. Today is a regular sort of day (I did most of today's list yesterday - yea me.) Early morning dropping hubby off at train and lifting at noon. A few chores and that's my day.
Tomorrow my aunt and uncle are stopping by for brunch on the way north. I'll make all compliant stuff. The end of the week is 2 days of house cleaning - ugh. I'm spreading it over 2 days to help my back a little.
Well, this post has been inspiring lol. I don't have a lot to say apparently. Okay, then -- on that note, later gators :)
I decided to do a stretch of Whole30-like days to get me back to fighting form. So far (one day lol), so good. You know me - I like rules. My pants don't fit - rules fix it.
I spent a lot of yesterday getting re-organized, tightening up a bunch of loose strings hanging around. It felt good to get a bunch of little crap off my to-do list. Cleaning up my diet cleans up my life. Today is a regular sort of day (I did most of today's list yesterday - yea me.) Early morning dropping hubby off at train and lifting at noon. A few chores and that's my day.
Tomorrow my aunt and uncle are stopping by for brunch on the way north. I'll make all compliant stuff. The end of the week is 2 days of house cleaning - ugh. I'm spreading it over 2 days to help my back a little.
Well, this post has been inspiring lol. I don't have a lot to say apparently. Okay, then -- on that note, later gators :)
Sunday, April 2, 2017
No great epiphany
No progress on my funk problem yet.
But yesterday was FUN! Laughed all day long - had some great family time. It was an awesome day.
Today is another all-day family day filled with fun and laughs. First a hike with the pup and hubby. I love dog joy. (Oops that reminded me the pup is still outside this morning - forgot about him lol.) Then a big family gathering at my aunt's house as out of town peeps are passing through the area. It will be loud and crazy. Always is when the family gathers.
And that's the wrap for the weekend.
In other news -- I'm considering do a Whole30 for 10 days starting Monday. I'll decide tomorrow. I want some "rules" days to get me on the straight and narrow. I need to fight the funk. (That's a good post title lol.) I want to be back into my pants. I have to choose to lose (heard that yesterday - ha).
In other, other news -- my lips are burning. I don't know if I'm having a reaction to a lip gloss, but they feel like I ate something extra, extra spicy. Sometimes they feel fine, then bam ... burn like crazy. It's strange. They look the same. I'm not using anything new.
Well, off to get this crazy day started. I miss my alone time, but that's only because I have the balance of fantastic family-and-friends time. Without that, alone would be lonely.
My intention today is to ride the crazy waves and have fun :)
But yesterday was FUN! Laughed all day long - had some great family time. It was an awesome day.
Today is another all-day family day filled with fun and laughs. First a hike with the pup and hubby. I love dog joy. (Oops that reminded me the pup is still outside this morning - forgot about him lol.) Then a big family gathering at my aunt's house as out of town peeps are passing through the area. It will be loud and crazy. Always is when the family gathers.
And that's the wrap for the weekend.
In other news -- I'm considering do a Whole30 for 10 days starting Monday. I'll decide tomorrow. I want some "rules" days to get me on the straight and narrow. I need to fight the funk. (That's a good post title lol.) I want to be back into my pants. I have to choose to lose (heard that yesterday - ha).
In other, other news -- my lips are burning. I don't know if I'm having a reaction to a lip gloss, but they feel like I ate something extra, extra spicy. Sometimes they feel fine, then bam ... burn like crazy. It's strange. They look the same. I'm not using anything new.
Well, off to get this crazy day started. I miss my alone time, but that's only because I have the balance of fantastic family-and-friends time. Without that, alone would be lonely.
My intention today is to ride the crazy waves and have fun :)
Saturday, April 1, 2017
Me (again)
Sitting here alone (yea) this morning got me thinking about this funk I'm in. I had a thought -- so maybe writing it down will help clarify it.
I was admiring my manicure (love my american at my usual salon, with my favorite nail tech) and I lamented how the crack in my thumb nail was back. For awhile, the collagen peptides seemed to have fixed it.
That started me thinking.
Nail crack is back (sounds dirty lol).
My new muscles didn't give me the look I'd hoped and worked for -- for months.
I'm new hair color is no different. I've been trying to go blonde and I'm STILL brown with blonde highlights. Why can't this change?? Why is this so hard?? Simple, yet apparently impossible.
My alone time to think, study, relax has been gone since December as I'm back to playing the role of mom everyday. Cleaning, grocery store, cooking ... most of my day is spent for everyone else.
I'm on this hiatus from work with the thought to improve myself, change me, grow me, work on me and I worked HARD to make this new me.
Sitting here today, I feel no real improvement, no real change. I've gone backwards. And it has me bummed out. And it's almost time to start thinking about heading back to work.
This is my funk. This is why I feel like throwing in the towel.
Take this weekend. Fun, yes. Lots of family time, yes -- and it's wonderful. But aside from my workout today, everything else I do this weekend is for someone else. I lost ME again. If I were alone this weekend it would look a lot different -- I have so many things I want to do for ME. A whole list of a different kind of fun -- all about ME. Stuff waiting in the wings that I can't get to because I'll spend most of the day doing for everyone else.
I sound ungrateful and spoiled. I know. I adore my family and I love doing for them. But I need me too. Me is missing.
To add insult to injury, the bridge collapse means hubby working from home A LOT and me needing to drive him to public transportation A LOT. Just more interruption to my plans and my day and my time for myself.
Yes, this is definitely my funk.
Now what to do about it? I don't have a whole lot of answers. But identifying the problem is the first step.
I was admiring my manicure (love my american at my usual salon, with my favorite nail tech) and I lamented how the crack in my thumb nail was back. For awhile, the collagen peptides seemed to have fixed it.
That started me thinking.
Nail crack is back (sounds dirty lol).
My new muscles didn't give me the look I'd hoped and worked for -- for months.
I'm new hair color is no different. I've been trying to go blonde and I'm STILL brown with blonde highlights. Why can't this change?? Why is this so hard?? Simple, yet apparently impossible.
My alone time to think, study, relax has been gone since December as I'm back to playing the role of mom everyday. Cleaning, grocery store, cooking ... most of my day is spent for everyone else.
I'm on this hiatus from work with the thought to improve myself, change me, grow me, work on me and I worked HARD to make this new me.
Sitting here today, I feel no real improvement, no real change. I've gone backwards. And it has me bummed out. And it's almost time to start thinking about heading back to work.
This is my funk. This is why I feel like throwing in the towel.
Take this weekend. Fun, yes. Lots of family time, yes -- and it's wonderful. But aside from my workout today, everything else I do this weekend is for someone else. I lost ME again. If I were alone this weekend it would look a lot different -- I have so many things I want to do for ME. A whole list of a different kind of fun -- all about ME. Stuff waiting in the wings that I can't get to because I'll spend most of the day doing for everyone else.
I sound ungrateful and spoiled. I know. I adore my family and I love doing for them. But I need me too. Me is missing.
To add insult to injury, the bridge collapse means hubby working from home A LOT and me needing to drive him to public transportation A LOT. Just more interruption to my plans and my day and my time for myself.
Yes, this is definitely my funk.
Now what to do about it? I don't have a whole lot of answers. But identifying the problem is the first step.
Routines
I'm at about 50% of my regular routines. I can do better.
Ever since vacation, I've struggled to go back the routines that work well for me.
I'm back to my regularly scheduled sleep (up early, bed early).
I'm back to my regularly scheduled workouts (with some modification for improvement).
I'm back to reading at night.
I'm back to regular posting.
I'm missing Rosetta Stone.
I'm missing meditation.
I'm snacking at night.
I'm adding little bites of things not good for me here and there.
I "want" to eat sweets - everything looks so good to me.
I don't know why I got so off course after vacation. Sometimes I'll have a few days of "off" before I return to reality, but this is taking a long time. It seems crazy, but I think this has to do with my alone time. The house is a revolving door of people right now. That's awesome in a lot of ways, but I crave some quiet, some me-time, some space. After vacation (even an awesome vacation), I like that space. This time I don't have it. (Case in point ... someone will be home EVERY day next week - ugh.)
I also have a headache a lot of the time. It might be allergies as this is the pollen-covers-everything month here. Yesterday I felt lousy - head and stomach. Today seems better but that headache is still running in the background. Annoying. When I have a headache, my body wants to eat sugar. Also crazy, but it's always been true for me.
Today is circuit day at the gym. It can be one of my favorite workouts. All over body, cardio and strength. I am spent by the end (in a good way). It's the beginning of the month and Annissa does a re-set. I hope it's still a hard workout.
My youngest comes home today for spring break. I'm excited to have him home. We're having a celebratory bbq tonight. Lots of cooking to do.
That's my day in a nutshell. This weekend is looking like a good one. That makes me happy :)
Ever since vacation, I've struggled to go back the routines that work well for me.
I'm back to my regularly scheduled sleep (up early, bed early).
I'm back to my regularly scheduled workouts (with some modification for improvement).
I'm back to reading at night.
I'm back to regular posting.
I'm missing Rosetta Stone.
I'm missing meditation.
I'm snacking at night.
I'm adding little bites of things not good for me here and there.
I "want" to eat sweets - everything looks so good to me.
I don't know why I got so off course after vacation. Sometimes I'll have a few days of "off" before I return to reality, but this is taking a long time. It seems crazy, but I think this has to do with my alone time. The house is a revolving door of people right now. That's awesome in a lot of ways, but I crave some quiet, some me-time, some space. After vacation (even an awesome vacation), I like that space. This time I don't have it. (Case in point ... someone will be home EVERY day next week - ugh.)
I also have a headache a lot of the time. It might be allergies as this is the pollen-covers-everything month here. Yesterday I felt lousy - head and stomach. Today seems better but that headache is still running in the background. Annoying. When I have a headache, my body wants to eat sugar. Also crazy, but it's always been true for me.
Today is circuit day at the gym. It can be one of my favorite workouts. All over body, cardio and strength. I am spent by the end (in a good way). It's the beginning of the month and Annissa does a re-set. I hope it's still a hard workout.
My youngest comes home today for spring break. I'm excited to have him home. We're having a celebratory bbq tonight. Lots of cooking to do.
That's my day in a nutshell. This weekend is looking like a good one. That makes me happy :)
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