Two Hike Day

Window shutters are installed and it makes more of a difference than I expected. No shades banging with the vents blowing, no little beams of light when the shades move (yes, I go to bed often when it's still light in the summer), and it looks more finished. We had shades completely pulled down in the bathroom because it has no privacy and now we can have a little bit of light on the top. 

We (hubby) also moved the rug in the bedroom and that's helping with the aesthetic that's a bit off somewhere. I brought the fake fiddle leaf tree back into the room to soften some of the lines. I'm not sure that's permanent, but I'm holding it for now. Something is still a little off and I need to work on what exactly is bothering me about the room. It doesn't feel soft enough or warm enough or happy enough. Hmmm. One step at a time. 

I have a full day today.

Two club hikes and a mammogram in-between. I'm a tiny bit nervous for the hike this morning. My energy was so completely tanked and I've done very little hiking the last couple of weeks. This is a hard hike in hot, humid weather and I'm less acclimated than I was a couple of weeks ago. I hope it goes well. The hike tonight is an easy hike on my neighborhood mountain -- it's not a big deal, although it'll still summer in GA in the evenings. I need a lot of hydration today.

Our Tuesday hiking group is on a hiatus until next week, but I probably can't hike with the group until mid-August. It's good to have this break. I was getting too grumpy about it all.

July is the gauntlet of medical appointments. After this mammogram, I have my yearly GYN next week and then it's finished. Funny how it all ended up in July. 

I had my hormones drawn yesterday -- curious to see the results. It was taken just as my energy is rebounding. 

Not surprisingly, Spanish class is on the back burner. I have conflicts that are winning over the class. And, I'm BARELY practicing at all. Good lord -- I wish I could figure this out. It's really, really not like me to want something so much and be so reluctant to do it. I keep thinking I just need a little mindset switch or practical habit or plan. 

The other library class starts up again in August, but conflicts with the Tuesday hiking group. I'm trying it the first week in August to see if I like it better than the other class. None of this excuses me from NOT PRACTICING daily. I'm looking at the class for a level of accountability which is obviously not working very well.

I haven't given up (but I've tried). It's on a very snail-slow path forward again. I'm listening to podcasts, practicing a tiny bit, thinking translations in my head. I might try to stream-of-conscious journal to see if that brings up what's holding me back. I should practice with an extremely low base-line -- 5 minutes per day. Something to start up the habit again that I'll actually do. Okay, I'm going to do that now.

And, let me say, instead of that journaling, I should just use that time to PRACTICE. I see the procrastination, and yet ...

That's all from here. Hope you're having a good week. Later gators and hasta luego.