I'm limping along this weekend. Still "doing the things" and moving forward with FS stuff, but it's like driving on a flat tire. I can't seem to catch a flow again, a smooth road.
I had coffee with 2 amazing people yesterday. We talked, planned, connected. I'm helping with a community and school project that my friend is spearheading. It's usually the type of connection that really lights me up. And it didn't -- not because anything went wrong. I just continued to have a blah feeling with lackluster motivation.
I know this is hormones. I'm having regular hot flashes again and such awful, bed-soaking night sweats.
I want to crawl under the covers. Not because I'm tired. I have no desire to do anything.
The garden needed tending this morning and I got to talk to a number of people hiking by and it was such a nice thing. This is the exact type of interaction in my future meditation and I love it. And still the blahs.
I have a weekend to myself and a very fun day planned tomorrow and here I sit ... sad, mopey, hot flashing. Dang. THIS is usually my attitude on a weekend like this. Today is a perfectly free day to make into anything I desire and I have no desire to do anything.
I can't figure out if it makes sense to push forward or give into the blahs today. Since it's seems hormone based, the usual feel-better fixes aren't fixing anything.
This is a totally downer post.
Action is what usually works and since it's only morning, I guess I'll take action for a bit before I allow an old-fashioned mope session.
Chasing some sort of "myself" today. Hope you're having a good day. Later gators.
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