Move in Motion

I started the new future-self exercise (Martha Beck -- perfect day) and since then life is MOVING at lightening speed.

I'm excited.

I'm scared.

I have such a strong desire to hit the brakes and I know that's a fear response. (But is it also a safe and responsible thought?)

I ask and desire and hope for this new life -- and it's showing up and I'm freaking out. 

What to do? I don't know. I'm asking for so many "signs" from the universe and meditating and journaling. 

We look at a house today that fits a lot of our FS list -- a lot. And it's a bit off in other areas. And it's unclear in other areas. Not a home-run, but potentially a solid hit that would be a good jumping off point for this new plan.

Is this enough of a fit? Should we wait and continue to look? The ways it fits are very unusual (like solar panels and net-zero build) and that will be unlikely to replicate. 

Hubby is already packing bags. I'm hitting the breaks. 

I guess time will tell. Looks like we are doing a move though. Plans are in motion -- just when and where to figure out. 

On another note -- hiked with a friend yesterday. We got turned around and ended up over 8 miles which felt really good. P.S. the hike was walkable from the house we're looking at today. Crazy close. I drove by the house on the way there and the way home. 

I also got rosacea medications worked out -- that was a surprise and a relief. Ran Christmas errands. Did the volunteer obligation. It was a long, full, lovely day. Hit so many FS moments and I want more of it. Why? Because it feels good and right for me and expansive.

Here's the last of the new Christmas decor I got with grandkids in mind. It can be inside or outside.

He lights up -- not showing
up in the picture.

I'm still feeling behind in Christmas prep, but I'm making some progress. I should be in much better shape by Monday. 

Why have our family weddings and baby all happened right after the holidays? Do better, kids!! What's wrong with the summer, early fall?? Dang. Makes me want to skip Christmas and hide under the covers. Why am I like this? Reminding myself this is the byproduct of a full and good life. 

Okay, I could ramble about my nerves forever this morning. Update on the house situation tomorrow. One bit of me wants to love it; another bit wants to hate it and be done for now. 

Later gators.