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Worst deep sleep to date.  Dang.  I stayed up finishing The Measure and had cramps so maybe the combination???

The Measure was interesting and a very quick read.  I'd give it a B+ ... maybe an A- for being fast and original.  Next up:  recommendation from a friend -- she loved it.  Looks like another fast read.  I need to get those numbers down lol.

Speaking of books ... I'm hosting bookclub this month.  I offered, but said that I might not live centrally enough and thought a restaurant patio might be an option.  Nope -- people said the distance wasn't an issue.  We'll see on the day though -- always cancelations.  I'm looking forward to it -- assuming someone shows up!

I took the SCS coaching call in the car and it was fine.  Good to know that's an option.  We chatted about relationships AGAIN (it's what's for dinner these days).  I don't want my "generosity" to be a response to someone else giving or NOT giving to me.  It's tough when it feels like a pattern of one-sidedness.  I don't want to withhold kindness out of spite and I don't want to be generous with resentment.  Big order for coaching, but I'm slowly chipping away.  Lots of childhood patterning to undo.  

Take-away this time -- I'm not giving any credit to the times I show up as I want to, I'm only focusing on when it doesn't go well.  Far more good than not good.  Also, I try to "understand" why someone is acting the way I don't like, but I don't do the same for me.  Why am I feeling this way?  Where can I have understanding for myself given my situation and history.

It's a process.

The rest of the week is a bag of nothing.  I actually don't have "something" until next Tuesday.  I'm going to keep it this way for the week (maybe look for something this weekend).  My monthly and a couple of full weeks have put me out of the mood to socialize.  I plan to focus on routine and a bunch of house chores.  Regrouping.

I rode the Peloton for 15 very easy minutes after "yoga" and NO BACK ISSUES.  This is the first time not an ache to be found.  Progress, but I need to keep it super slow.  Today is a walk/jog outside, but it's raining all morning and I have a heavy monthly.  I might make an adjustment.  I'll give it a couple of hours  before I call it.

Pretty boring hibernation day -- sheets and watering indoor plants today.  Both are low on my happy chore list, but high on the DONE list.  Remember -- eat the frog first.  I'll have both finished this morning.  

Have a good day.  Later gators.