I'm absolutely in a hormone swing -- maybe amplified by my eating and drinking choices (ya think??) AND the Kona caffeinated coffee (I'm taking a break from it -- but boy it's good).
I can't remember, can't make a decision, thought-spinning anxiety ... just to name a few.
Eeeeek. And my back is a mess. And my arm hurts from the vaccination booster (switched to Maderna per recommendation to change from primary 3). And my stomach is upset (possible booster, possible hormones).
Oh ... and today is an early dentist appointment. Fun times.
The biggest decision indecision is when to go SOLO to Asheville ahead of our friends coming on Wednesday. I need some time to prep the house and bring in food, etc. It's complicated by dogs and plants. Every iteration has been considered, decided and dumped. I'll decide today and STICK WITH THE DECISION. Period. And anxiety is joining this indecision -- suddenly I'm afraid to make the drive AND afraid of ghosts. I'm not joking ... WTF brain?!?!?
I'm working at completely ignoring the anxiety since I know it's TOTALLY FAKE -- just a product of what I consumed triggering a sensitive hormonal system. I bet the coffee is a huge part -- that might explain a lot.
Keep going. Don't think. Just do. That's what I need to do this week. It'll work out and I need to FAKE being happy because I'm set to ruin this next couple of weeks spinning in this mood.
Why does life feel so hard and yet NOTHING is wrong??
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