The Power of Journaling

I consider this blog less of a blog and more of a journal.  I tried for years to stick with journalling but gave it up time after time (cue the song).

2 reasons.

(1) My handwriting and spelling SUCK so I could never go back a reread with any FLOW of thought.
(2) I was scared someone would find my diary journal and read it.

Oddly, having this blog out in cyberworld feels much safer.  More anonymous.  (And, yea autocorrect!!)

Yesterday, I went back to the beginning (or almost the beginning) and started reading.  WOW!  Usually, I read the day before's post before I start writing and sometimes I go in search of post to remember a quote or picture, but I don't go back THAT far.

It was FUN.  And INSIGHTFUL.  And MOTIVATING.  ME a couple of years ago.

I have this perception that my HEALTHY was easy, effortless, etc.  The reality was I WORKED for it.  Everyday.  The difference was I didn't waffle ... I accepted that it was WORK and I did the WORK.  I didn't give up the moment it became an effort.  I'll start tomorrow.  I can have a little bit.  This doesn't really matter.

I kept my focus on the goal.  Eyes on the prize.  There was no choice.  This was happening.

That's what I need to do again.  This IS happening.  My HEALTHY is back.

Maybe this is something I need to WORK on everyday ... forever.  But WORK doesn't mean SUFFER.  I was working hard, but happily working hard.  Now I'm working, but the work feels like something I HAVE to do, not something I WANT to do.

Today is a perspective shift.  I'm grateful that I CHOOSE to make HEALTHY a priority.  Thanks past ME for your youthful words of wisdom LOL.