Happy Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving.

I decided to "run" the 5K this morning. Good thing I reread the info email this morning -- race starts an hour earlier than I had in my head. That would've been the end all of end alls of a dumb turkey moment.

I should've gotten up earlier.

Cold front came in last night and it's windy. I'll take cold over warm, but WIND is my arch nemesis. And, this is the first "cold" I've run in this season. I'm questioning shorts v pants and such. Total loss for how to dress. I won't have my car (walking to start) so I need to get it right from the jump.

I have a postcard pen-pal who lives in Washington state. We exchange postcards from travel and write about the books we're reading. It's so much fun. I sent a special wooden postcard from a Japanese store and she messaged me a thank-you. Her son is marrying a woman from Japan and it was perfect for her. I love these kinds of moments and her thank-you made my day.

It's the small things.

Always.

As I mentioned before, Thanksgiving is prickly this year with some family tension. I'm in a much better place than last week, but I have trepidation about today. 

Meditation helped. It's grounding and gives me a kind of visualization to remember if things get upsetting. I excuse myself to the bathroom and hand on my heart, close my eyes, visualize, and it's instantly calming.

Sounds woo-woo, but it works. 

Loving myself. 

Visualizing my FS and past self and current self.

We have a little conversation in my head.

"What's the matter love?"

"Of course you feel this way."

"We love you."

All in it together.

I feel supported and loved ... from me to me. 

Looking inward for comfort. The best part -- it's always available. I don't need anyone else to understand or notice or help. The bathroom is a perfect place for a private reset. 

Finally got my plants watered. 

I have two blooming cactuses -- one Thanksgiving, one Christmas. People think their Christmas cactus blooms early, but it's a different variety (had to learn that too). The Thanksgiving variety is more common.

Christmas is starting tiny
blooms.

Thanksgiving one is showing up.
Ironically, there's a Christmas
gnome in the pot. Probably
should move it. I thought it
was a Christmas cactus
when I bought it.

Okay, I have to run -- literally. Race starts before 8 o'clock. Geez. I don't feel very well and I don't want to go, but I'll be disappointed if I don't ... I'm not THAT sick and I can always walk. I guess it's worth the discomfort to FINALLY participate in a Turkey Trot. I tried a little Peloton ride yesterday and it didn't go well -- effort to pedal even the easy parts. I'm more upset about a crappy finish time than anything else. Dang, ego. 

Happy Thanksgiving. I hope we all have the best day we can and a lot is in our control (message to me especially). Later gators.