My foot/ankle is wonky. Thursday afternoon and all day yesterday, I walked with a limp. Nothing happened, it just started hurting. Marginally better this morning.
Almost like a gluten issue -- maybe too many 00 beers, too regularly?? But it's not on the other foot/ankle so that seems unlikely.
I dropped the hike today. I'm horribly disappointed. I've been looking forward to seeing this trail for 2 years and everything fit for this to be the time. 11 miles with steep elevation. No way with a limp ankle. It wasn't a decision ... there wasn't a choice.
Then ...
We have my son and DIL's chihuahua for the weekend. I sat up with her for 3 hours in the middle of the night -- she was squeaking and barking and pacing. FINALLY at 3:30 I got a couple of meds in her and she fell asleep.
I spent 2 of those hours trying ways to get her to take the meds. No joke. Duke stole a dose she spit out so he's sleeping well this morning.
I'm trying not to go down a pity party hole this morning so let me tell you something interesting whilst EVERYONE ELSE in my house is SOUND ASLEEP. Good for them.
I walked to a local woman's meeting at one of the coffee houses I frequent yesterday morning. It was a cool morning. I did an arm workout earlier. Played with the garden before I left. Library book and a poetry book (in case no one was there yet) in hand to return and grab the next couple of holds. Talked to some people on the walk up. Good conversation with the group. It's a regular, standing meeting -- everyone knows everyone. Grabbed the books and walked to the lunch cafe a block from my house. Chatted with the ladies (I'm a regular there). Enjoyed a plant forward meal and headed out.
On the walk home it hit me with such a strong slap ... this was eerily VERY similar to part of my "Perfect Day" visualization.
(Martha Beck -- visualize, in great detail, a perfect ORDINARY day from a FS perspective.)
This is a visualization that I walk my mind through that started before we moved. I usually imagine 2 days because it encompasses a bigger range of what perfect-ordinary looks like to me. BTW, if I had hiked today, it would have been a part of the 2nd day imagined (very specific to this hike).
Seriously?!?!
You can argue chicken and the egg.
Did it come true because I visualized it, or did I visualize it because it was something that was already meant for me?
This has inspired, motivated, delighted me into leaning into this exercise. Taking time next week when I have the house to myself to do a long meditation to let my mind wander into the future. I can't wait to see what I see.
For some reason, a bunch of "things" are coming to pass. I want to pay attention. Delight in it. Focus on THIS instead of an unexpected disappointment day. Trust the process. Trust the universe.
Okay, a dog is bugging. Got to run. I have more to say another chat. Later gators.
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