3000

A little epistolary post for #3000 ...

Dear Past ME, 

You decided to journal because "everyone" said you should. You decided to journal online because your handwriting is a mess. 

(You can force nice handwriting for a few sentences, but this would've been a nightmare ... plus you like to edit. If you think this draft is awful, you should see the first go hah!)

Part of a self-improvement model. The Morning Routine.

Wanting and searching for something. 

Happiness? 

Satisfaction? 

Direction? 

Validation?

It's become a place to talk out thoughts. 

Confess.

Be vulnerable.

Brag a bit. 

A reason to notice things so you can report it the next day. 

A reminder to be present (spoiler alert ... the secret to a good life).

Reflect on yesterday and intentionally plan today. 

Turns out these rambles are also a peek into Past ME without the distortion of memory ... only the distortion of the moment, as one does interpret life.

I'm grateful for this routine. Future ME (now Present ME) would not be the same without it. 

I see patterns -- good and bad.

I see goals.

I see struggles.

I see some figuring it out.

I see some growth. 

I see bigger hopes. 

I see dead people. 

I get to remember things I never would've remembered. 

It's a tool that seems so insignificant day to day, but 3000 times later, it's a changed life.

Love always,

Me.