My grandson has hand-foot-mouth virus. Very contagious. I'm might be babysitting Wed-Friday ... with mixed feelings. I don't want to catch this. I don't want 3 days tied to their house. I don't want to try and console and entertain little guy who feels so sick. That said, I'm here to help and I'm taking a very, very big one for the family. My DIL took off today and she may end up taking off tomorrow too because he's really feeling miserable. Poor little guy. We were exposed on Sunday -- 3-6 day incubation period. More exposure to come.
Went to midtown yesterday to pickup my wedding band after it dropped a stone AGAIN. Ended up in a heated conversation with the owner. It's a long story. I asked how we can prevent this from continuing to happen since it didn't happen for years and now it's happening regularly. I wasn't asking for a discount or making demands -- nothing. She went from 0-60 accusing me of not being honest about when I wear the ring, etc. I stood up for myself in an extremely direct and assertive way. She made comments under her breath and I called her out. What did I hear you say?
It's funny about this kind of thing. I don't feel good about a confrontation, but I feel good about being direct back. I was really direct. I wasn't snarky and didn't raise my voice. She walked away (left me with her assistant), but came back with a better attitude. The ring is getting a modification and I have to pick it up another day. No apology, of course.
Funny how deciding to not be walked over, not be a wall flower, etc feels like confrontation. I fight gaslighting myself into thinking it's me. Was I too direct? Should I have let the comments go? Does it matter what she says to me?
Right now speaking up does matter to me. Maybe someday it won't as I continue to grow. It feels like this is a necessary path. I somehow need to show it out loud first (nicely as I can). Maybe there will be a point that knowing it to myself is enough.
I think there is a difference between "taking it" by saying nothing and "having my back" while saying nothing. I'm not there yet. "Having my back" needs to be out loud right now and I'm not sorry for it.
That was quite a ramble. On other notes ... here's a list.
1. Rug came for the basement and it works well. It was a lot cheaper to bind a remanent.
2. Hung a bunch of pictures in the bedroom. Might need a little more, but I'm sitting with it for a bit first. I like it -- don't love, love it, but that's okay.
3. Office is getting painted on Saturday.
4. Gave up on "The Stand" after 700 pages. This was the unabridged version with 1200 pages -- couldn't do it. It wasn't as interesting as I remember and it was more disturbing than I remember, so I let it go. Maybe it was because it was a reread that it didn't hold for me. Next up ... "Mr. Mercedes." I haven't read this one. Trying a little Stephen King book flight of 3 books. Finishing with his dragon book (can't remember title just now -- coming used in a couple of weeks).
5. Watching You on Netflix. This season is great so far. I think it's as good as the first season with a twist I didn't see coming.
6. Nada on the house selling front. Ghosted for the last 2 showings. Nothing this weekend. It's shocking to me that we aren't getting any traffic. It's a beautiful house, in great shape, priced well, nice neighborhood, etc.
7. Wedding pictures are in -- I won't share many because of bots, but here's a dancing picture. Apparently, I like to conduct.
Hope you have a good day. Rain pulled out so going for an early run and a muddy hike with my Tuesday group. Later gators.
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