Coaching Update

I was able to salvage my mood by an outdoor run. The rain had a break and I took advantage -- it does wonders for a bad mood. It was overcast, cool, crisp morning and that doesn't get more perfect for a run. I super duper love my new running route. The other things and spaces for this house are a little wonky and I'm still trying to figure them out. The running route was perfect out of the gate -- no trial and error.

Hubby and I talked out the company staying a week and it went well. We both came to the table with no snark and that helped a lot. Glad to see us working together. 

Dressed for the day embracing color. Shirt is navy and added yellows, orange, and red glasses. Still a learning curve for dressing more creatively, but it's fun to play with it. I'm buying used clothes to add some interest. The yellow sweater was from the thrift store last week. I consider aqua blue my color of the year, but yellow is sneaking in for a close second. Probably not the best color for my skin, but I'm enjoying it. Trying to mix and match all things in an unexpected way. Didn't reach that level with this outfit, but I'm heading in the right direction.

Hike was rained out, but I have a similar one tonight. Same mountain, different trail head (equally as convenient), longer, and faster. I'm looking forward to it. First hike since the fainting and fall.

Lunch with a casual friend today at an okay restaurant. This is the friend that we sometimes have a good conversation and sometimes don't. It's a good opportunity to practice holding better conversations - like a little challenge. She asks a lot of questions about me but doesn't have a lot of conversation to offer from her life. She retired and hasn't found new interests yet so it feels one-sided, but in the way that isn't someone being too much like you'd normally expect with one-sided conversations. The challenge is to find things to talk about that she will join in the conversation too. Fingers crossed. Last couple of times have been good.

Coaching update. It was so good. I coached on Spanish and why I resist continuing and resist starting back, etc. She asked interesting questions and it landed that it was probably about food issues. What!?!? Exactly. The pattern, the mind talk, the desire, the work, etc all felt similar to food issues and yo-yo dieting that took me decades to figure out. It was mentally exhausting and I'm conflating the two things because it FEELS so similar because I was having such similar THOUGHTS about it. 

It's impossible. It'll never happen. I'll do okay for a bit, then not. I can't do this. --- you get the idea. 

I kept saying it felt exhausting to think about Spanish, but Spanish isn't exhausting so why such a strong reaction. The exhausting part was remembering decades of feelings from the battle with food thoughts and it felt like too much.

This isn't an instant fix, but when I feel dread about starting or worry about continuing, I can remind myself this isn't that. It IS already helping.

Lots of chatting this morning and I best get my day started. Hope you have a good day. Later gators.