Up and Down

I rallied yesterday and had a good day. It was my choice -- and circumstances offered me very little challenges, so maybe it wasn't so much me lol.

Started by fixing the mess. I like it. Not sure how long the greens will last without water, but I have more on the porch in a bucket. I'm glad I did something just for me because the holidays are a lot about everyone else. Prioritizing this little project gave me a win first thing and that really boosted my mood. I'm determined to not get run over this December, but not completely confident in my determination -- hah.

Hike was good. We went a bit longer (yea) but the 2 new ladies were slow (had to wait many times for them to catch up) and one was very late (unapologetically and then commented on the time we were finishing). Not a good-foot start in my book. We finished late because we started 30 minutes late because of YOU.  Neither is available next week and I kind of hope they don't stay regulars. This is a HIKING group and I know they are pushing for some gentle walks and lunch. That said, I can be a little more patient and a little more open. (But, strike one ...)

I made the cranberry sauce and froze the turkey slices and that leaves just 2 dishes to make Thanksgiving morning. Easy peasy. 

All this goodness and I woke up with moody feels again. Dread. Stress. Sad. Lots of things stirring under the surface and I'm trying to allow feelings and still enjoy all the good things.

Hubby woke up early and said he's sick with a tummy thing -- not the same thing as the kids, but he's staying home from golf. That frees me up to work on some wedding things while I'm downtown at the food tasting, BUT if it's contagious -- goodbye Thanksgiving AGAIN THIS YEAR. 

See ... mood over nothing but possibility of something happening.

Lord help me. Will my mind ever relax? 

On that note, time to get moving. It's an early day again and I really, really need time to meditate this mood. Later gators.