I spent the morning getting my mind right again. Yoga, meditation and a long walk in the park listening to Brene Brown's podcast from election day. It's short and I listened to it 3 times. It made me feel immensely better. I'll listen to it again today -- it's that good!
I walked in the afternoon with my girlfriend at Gibbs Gardens. Her daughter and new granddaughter came too. It was another deep breath of goodness. Nature, like-minded friends, careful COVID people. I also had a couple of good conversations with my besties. Deep breaths all day (!!)
I had two small disappointments in the afternoon which I handled pretty well. I feel like I only have a faint mist of okay-ness these days and little things bring me down easily. The first was the bookclub lady canceling our walk on Friday. She has a "family medical situation" she's "on-call" for this weekend. It was a polite, nice message, but the language felt dismissive -- like there would be no reschedule. She had given me a bunch of dates through November, but didn't mentioned rescheduling. I sent a message back -- also talking about this month's book and t-shirt and I got a "thumbs up" without a reply. I'm not taking this personally, but I am annoyed at people's commitment level to things. (I have been all my life.) Ball is in her court ... if she wants to meet for a walk, I'm game. If we never speak again, that's fine too. I have a feeling it's the latter.
Since Friday opened up, I asked those boating friends to come over for a porch happy hour. Guess what?? EXACT replay of last time. "We might ask friends to boat on Friday ... not sure yet, we'll know more when we ask them." Once again, they don't HAVE plans, but want to see if BETTER plans can be made (it was Wednesday afternoon). Fool me once ... ball is back with them. If they want to get together, they can reach out. Basically, if the weather is nice enough to sit outside, they "might" go on the lake that day. (Their friends have boats too.) I'll only play "second fiddle" so many times. I replied -- have fun, we can try another time. Her college kids come home for the semester at Thanksgiving and then I'm not getting together with them over the holidays. There are very few options left for this year.
Now Friday is Clean The Bathroom Day. Oh well.
Tufu Month might be over as quick as it started. I LOVED the recipe I made, but since that night my rosacea has been in full bloom. Nothing else has changed. I googled it, and soy is reactive for some people. My face is still on fire this morning. It was probably enough to push me over a threshold. I'll let this flair up die out and maybe try one more time ... depending on how bad this flair up gets. Bummer. Here's the recipe, BTW.
Today is a homebody day. Cleaning floors and dusting -- nothing to write home about. Relaxing and reading once I finish. Book post IS coming, I promise. Have a happy day. Stay well. Later gators.
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