And, I'm completely in the life is 50-50 mode. Feeling the love from a number of friendships and feeling strange about others. I had 2 interactions this week with long time friends that felt really off. Why are friend relationships so difficult for me in this phase of life? Is it me?
I listened to a coaching call and a woman was coached after listening to my coaching problem from last call. She could relate and wanted help with a similar situation. I guess I'm not the only one with this kind of friend problems. The coach shared a similar issue from her life too.
Hubby came home from an extremely long travel day with lots of weather delays. (I have the birthday chocolate bears ready for eating next week.) I know he was tired and frustrated, but we ended up arguing about the kitchen junk drawer. WTH. I went to bed sad and had sad dreams all night. The combination of these strange friend interactions and the argument with hubby made me feel lonely. I was looking forward to catching up with him -- about his week and my birthday week. We talked on my birthday for under a minute. We had bad phone connections and couldn't get calls to connect -- just a few texts went through.
See -- 50-50. Headed on a fun trip. Another friend dropped off a super thoughtful gift on my porch yesterday. Ran into another friend yesterday and we have plans to get together after the holiday.
Yet, I focus on the sad interactions. Still feeling sad this morning. I'll need to table this feeling so I don't shadow the trip.
I feel like there's a lesson somewhere in this for me. I've looked at my side of these things and I don't think it's me -- none of the issues are the same BTW. I don't mean to blame "them" -- just saying that it seems like they have stuff to work out that's bleeding on their interactions. Could this be a blind spot for me? Maybe, but I don't think so. Guess I carry on and see what happens.
Anyway ... dogs up and I need to get moving. Have a good Saturday. Later gators.
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