Pictures and a Reflection (no rant, I promise)

Let's start with pictures.

I put out a little plant stand with a shelf my aunt gave me. People took a few of the peppers -- I hope more go this weekend. I LOVE sharing the garden --  never gets old!! I shared plants with my neighbor and he returned the pots with more farm eggs from his FIL. Neighbors and community -- very grateful.

Added a frog rock to the "other" snake.

Walking Duke to put out the rock and saw these guys.

Saw him fly and land.
Beautiful.
And the funniest water walking.

I'm trying so hard to get out of this maddening mood. 

I took charge of a few things and it feels a bit better.

I also got coached on Thursday and it was helpful.

Some tips and tricks (so to speak) to deal with "that" person who has reared her head again.

It's a visualization exercise and I like it.

The hardest part -- I need to practice this technique every time I start ruminating on the situation. Something happened last night and I woke up thinking about it. Practicing, practicing this morning. Also trying to reframe the more that comes my way, means more practice, means the better get.

I won't go into details, because I don't want to give it (her) any more of my energy right now. 

Off to the boardwalk trail this morning. I decided to use my newly acquired knowledge of the trail to run with Duke. I'd say it's a positive spin on my efforts, but it's actually a spite run. 

Look what you missed -- beautiful early morning along the river. 

I'm doing it anyway.

Screw everyone. 

Yes, I wish I was a more evolved person, but, obviously I'm not. Somehow taking this little spite moment makes me feel better. It's probably an immature way to deal with it, but here I am. It feels like I'm taking my agency back. Focusing on the one thing that's guaranteed -- my relationship with myself. 

I won't cancel.

I see the effort.

I appreciate me.

I have a fun time with myself. 

All true ...

... but, it's more than a bit of -- I don't need anyone and you didn't disappoint me. And that's the "unhealthy" part. Problem for another day though -- probably requires therapy hah. Maybe someday. 

As much as I'm complaining, the day WILL be nice.

The run will be pretty in the cool-ish weather morning along the river. 

Walking into town to meet one bookclub woman for brunch. If she cancels, me and a book instead.

Grabbing sour dough from a local bakery.

Walking to an author talk in the afternoon.

Home to bake and cook for the birthday lunch tomorrow.

The day hits many FS buttons. THIS is what I need to focus my thoughts on. Geez. So much good getting muddied by nothing important. Got to keep training my mind -- it's all about practicing out of this bad habit and practicing into something different. 

Hope you have a good day too. Later gators.