What's On My Mind

I'm noticing that I have an attitude about too many things right now. I try to keep it to myself, but I think it leaks out with seeming less friendly or happy.

I was in such a mood about the hike yesterday and it turned out to be nice. We got turned around a bit so the hike was longer (yeah - 6 miles). Still not long enough for that length of drive, but it was fine to do every so often. 

Cool mushrooms

We decided on a cafe for lunch and I was grumpy about it. Great restaurant next door and we are choosing this place. One of the women recommended it saying it has a new chef.

Turns out, one of the best salads I've EVER had -- no exaggeration. Last time I was there -- years ago, it was very basic. Iceberg with cherry tomatoes basic. This was farm fresh, amazing ingredients, served beautifully, clever table decor. Loved it. Want to go again. Why didn't I trust her and get excited to try something new?!?

See?? Attitude for no reason, in this case.

I'm so used to getting "burned" on things, I lead with that expectation. I don't expect people to show up the way they say they will. I've become inflexible about a lot of things.

It's not that people haven't given me reason to feel this way. This is why I find it hard to find a balance.

Expect good and often be disappointed. Expect bad and potentially ruin something that is good. 

This is what's on my mind this morning. I don't have an answer, but I don't like my mental grumpiness. I don't like leading with the exception of being let down. More things to think about on my trip to Asheville tomorrow. I'm hoping Asheville "magic" helps me with some clarity.

Have a good day. Later gators.