Not the Best Day

I FORCED the feel-goods.  Workout, took dogs to the park, ran errands.  Then I mentally crashed -- which means "hit the fridge" for all the comfort foods.  Comfort foods that don't really comfort, but felt good in the moment.

Frozen GF pizza, cheese and crackers, chocolate.  No good for feeling good.  

Not sure what's up.  This could be all hormones again.  I STILL feel like crashing today (no wonder with all the junk).  My brain woke up saying "one more day of doing NOTHING sounds really nice."

I don't feel like fighting or allowing or processing anything for it to be different.  Stay tuned.  I have no idea what I'll choose today.  

Anyway ...

I finished The Gunkle.  It was sweet, predictable and an okay read.  New pick today -- although I might not be in the best place for a pick.  I have 3 in mind.  

(1)  Bookclub pick (Americanah).  This is a hard, careful read.  Lots to pay attention to and lots of unfamiliar names/language, but I want to get it finished for an early bookclub this month.

(2)  Prequel to one of my favorite books (The Evening and the Morning), but reviews are mixed from people who read and loved the other two books.  And it's extremely long.  The other two took a bit to get into before I couldn't put them down.

(3)  A beach read from the stack my girlfriend sent for the LFL.  None that I have left get great reviews, but often, beach reads don't (like suspense books).  The rating bar seems lower since they get rated up against epic novels.  A beach read by definition is easy, predictable (mostly) and ends with something sweet and happy.  Can't fault it for being what it's meant to be, but that shows up in the ratings.

Hearing my argument and knowing my mood, maybe a beach read is best.  Finish it quickly and then decide on the others.

I also watched Under the Tuscan Sun on Prime.  I was in the mood for that kind of predictable story.  I never saw the movie, but read the book a long time ago.

Podcasts galore yesterday too as Brene Brown is making the rounds.  Incredibly good interviews.  

Jen Hatmaker had her virtual bookclub holiday party last night.  It was really awful.  I checked in on it a few times and it missed the mark in every way.  She and a comedian friend chatting.  Sound was bad (too far from her phone), picture and lighting were off (same reason) and the conversation was boring.  Nothing about books when I checked in.  I didn't plan to watch it, but I got a notification and I was in bed reading so I thought I'd give it a try.  Swing and a miss.  To me, the issue was how hard they promoted this live chat -- like it was big and exciting and a don't-miss kind of night with so many laughs from her special guest.  Dress in your best ugly sweater, bring your favorite cocktail, gather with your girlfriends and prepare to wet your pants laughing.  I saw some beginning, middle and end and it was never any of that.  Bummer for people excited for the night.

That's all from here.  I'm hoping for some semblance of good day (life coaching would have field day with this wording and attitude!!).  I know it's TOTALLY up to me, but ME isn't showing up well in this moment -- eek.  What's a gal to do??  Hah.  Hope YOU have a great day.  Later gators.