Debbie Downer (a bit)

December was heading toward such a fun month and it's been way more of a challenge than fun.

I know, that's life and in the scheme of things, not a big deal.  But, I'm over it and ready for January.

The internet in Asheville is down AGAIN.  We aren't able to trouble-shoot so far.  Let's take MORE away from Christmas fun options -- no TV, no music, no computer.  Signal isn't strong enough to create a hotspot.

Ugh.  I'm a Debbie Downer today.

On a better front -- Christmas baking is finished.  Since the eldest and DIL aren't coming (they were bringing cookies and dessert) I added some more cookie baking.  I'm trying to make this feel like a Christmas celebration still.

I'm not looking forward to doing all the cooking again.  Son and DIL takes the lead on brunch, but now it's back to me.  Two big dinners and brunch.

I'm going to google games to play with only 3 people.  I bought a new game for Christmas, but you need more than 3 people -- of course.

Lots of feelings still.  I hope I can work through them by Christmas.  I really want to have a nice weekend with hubby and my youngest.  Monthly isn't helping, but I am thankful it came this week and not on Christmas.

Am I being a jerk for not doing a second Christmas?  I don't think so, but that's what people are suggesting.  Why don't you postpone?  Why don't you have a second celebration?  Why -- because that's not fair to our youngest and who knows if the postponement date will work AND I don't want to do all that work again.  

BTW, so far eldest is feeling okay.  I'm not overly concerned that he's going to be seriously sick.  That could change, of course, but I think it's a nuisance more than anything.  I'll do everything to help him on that front.

I took a live sing-a-long Peloton ride yesterday.  I've taken old ones and they are great rides.  This year it wasn't a live group in the studio and all she talked about was how much better it is in a group.  Ugh.  It fit the mood.  Not a very up-lifting.

Okay, I'm depressing myself more.  Until tomorrow ... stay safe.  Later gators.