Outnumbered

Five dogs is no joke.  Even 5 good dogs.  My morning has been a rotation from dog to dog -- potty, food, meds, belly rubs, lap cuddles.  

** Just interrupted to lift 2 dogs up on furniture because they can't make the jump. **

** And again to lift one of them down **

Okay -- 12,000 interruptions later and this is the current situation ...  wonder for how long hahaha!

I'm having a hard time wanting to do my "things" today -- even a workout which is super unusual for me.  My brain keeps saying "take a day off"  "when will you get another chance"  "you deserve a nothing-to-do day" ... and my brain is making a strong argument.

It's hard to know if this is a good desire -- little rest, downtime, regroup OR if it's an excuse to be a slug.  One day either way won't make an enormous difference, but I question my brain's motives.

I think this is a bit of all-or-nothing.  My energy is so affected by my nutrition and habits lately and I'm coming to the conclusion that I need to adopt a stricter pattern to have better energy on the regular.  This is sending me to I CAN NEVER DO THIS AGAIN mode.  

Even though I see the motivation, I still WANT to have a slug day so much today.

I also have nothing on the calendar and nothing that I can put on the calendar to drive me forward today.  I'm still isolating, tethered to home because of the dogs and feeling blah.  I had a few things cancel for the weekend and a few things that felt like a disappointment and that's sending me into a pity party too.

Dang.  I'd like to say this will have a good outcome and I'll chose the things that move me forward, but I'm not feeling confident.  Stay tuned ...