No Regrets

I guess taking a "day off" was good.  I don't have a single regret and that's usually an indicator I made a good decision.  I feel more like myself and back to happily doing my morning routine.

My day off was just that -- nothing, not even a shower.  Took care of dogs and watched Alias on Prime (watching for the first time).  A few house chores and a little work in my itty bitty garden.  Caught up with friends on the phone and listened to a couple of podcasts.

Here's evidence of this lazy day of August ...  dogs enjoyed it too :)

It is unusual for me to feel that strongly about doing NOTHING, especially in the morning.  Even slug days include my morning routine.  

Today is nothing special -- 5 dogs is still 5 dogs and a lot of work.  I'm making lentil soup since I ate the last frozen stash recently.  It's easy and a good go-to meal when I want a break from cooking.  

I have the case of the BLAHs and I guess that's okay.  Life can't always be a wedding weekend.  I'm still disappointed that a few things were canceled for the weekend.  That's been my theme over the pandemic -- disappointment.  I need to accept that's a part of life now -- more than usual, but still need to figure out how to not let it take me into the blahs.  

(And I know I was just saying I had too much on my calendar -- these are different kind of things that are little, fun and worry-free.  Like we were going to have a picnic at a winery on Sunday with my son and his girlfriend, but she's not feeling well so we postponed.)

A solution I use is to make backup plans that are in my control so I can still have something to look forward to doing.  I didn't do that this time and I'm struggling to figure out something while I'm dog-sitting and the weather is HOT and horrible!  THIS is the way out of the blues so I need to get creative.  

I also think the world is so dang HEAVY again and this is weighing on me more than I realize most days.  

Ugh -- I'm so over my rollercoaster of emotions and over spending so much time in yucky feelings -- anxiety, worry, disappointment, frustration.  

Well, this chat took a downturn and on that note, I'll say later gators.  Stay well and have a happy Friday.