A Smidge of Complaining

I think I know why this week feels hard.

I have exactly ZERO in-person social interactions.  My girlfriend who I meet at the park is under strict isolation because she's seeing her brand new granddaughter now.  I'm super happy for her, but it's going to be a long time before I see her in person again (as it stands now ... her daughter might relax regs at some point).  They are moving locally in August and it involves a double move and that will keep her extra occupied.  It's certainly not her responsibility to entertain me, but she's the only friend I see socially because she's the only one I trust.

I also can't see the kids because my DIL's unit continues to have employee positives.  It's been a month and looking like we have weeks before it's even a possibility.

This in contrast to people doing what they want to do.  I'm not talking about the non-masker crazy peeps (they'll never do the selfless thing) ... I'm talking about regular folks taking a "breather" from the pandemic.  My friends.  My extended family.  Socializing without masks because they are EATING OUT, inside at restaurants ... too hot to be outside ...  lingering for a couple of hours with drinks, etc.  Multiple groups of friends with multiple people each time.  Vacationing and throwing all precautions out the window because they are at the beach.  As though the beach doesn't count.  Posting it all on social media for the world to see.  What are they thinking?

It's frustrating and I'm having a hard week with it.  There's only so many things I can do safely that are fun too.  I've exhausted a lot of things (TV, books, puzzles, house organizing, zoom calls).  It's too hot to do much outdoor stuff so I'm plum out of ideas.  Groundhog day, every day.

That's my complaining.  Hopefully, I'll recharge soon and plug along with a better attitude.  I know I'm lucky.  I know bored is not a tragedy and not even a problem.  But I'm tired of it all.  I WANT to be the person who takes a break too.  But I won't.  For my own safety and for the social responsibility to my fellow humans.  I also want to plan something fun ... a vacation, weekend away, dinner party, SOMETHING.  But I can't do this either.  We have no idea when this kind of thing is possible again since too many people are behaving poorly.

And, you know what?  I don't care that I'm not being understanding to people's choices.  There are rules of society for the better good of all.  These happen to be new rules since we are in a pandemic, but, dang it, they need to be followed.  I wouldn't "understand" if someone decided to drive through red lights on the regular or drive on the wrong side of the road.  Rules.  Simple as that.

Guess I wasn't finished complaining.  Now I am.
Stay well.  Later gators.